Wide-eyed Wonder

[Guest BeckyTG]

Hello Sweet Sisters,

One of the really cool things we get to do when we embark on our long, slow road of transitioning is to go through puberty a second time. We get to experience things that only little girls experience, and, in that way, we're just little girls now.

Personally, I'm a little girl wandering around, staring at the world in wide-eyed wonder. I have to learn a lot of things and I don't have much time to do learn them, either.

I have new emotions that have just swept over me and changed how I feel, how I react, how I relate to people and how I express myself. I have to learn about them, not how to control them, because they can't be controlled, but simply how to live with them. More importantly, I have to understand how they will now rule my life. I'm changing from a wide-eyed little girl to an adolescent girl.

Each day, I'm more aware of my own breasts. I'm more careful how I move, what I lean on and how I carry things. I can see and feel them growing and developing. I can feel my butt growing daily. And my pants, which used to hang on me, are now beginning to get a little snug. I bought them new to replace my old ones, which were REALLY too snug on me. Just like a wide-eyed little girl, finding her body changing without her consent.

I have different interests now. I have to have fresh-cut flowers in the kitchen now. I started out buying a cheap little bouquet of long-lasting flowers once in a while at the grocery store. But, last night was an emergency run to the store to replace the ones that were on their last leg. I just couldn't bear the thought of being in my kitchen with no pretty flowers. Pretty girls should have pretty flowers, you know. I've transformed my kitchen....

I'm becoming more engaged in interacting with other women I meet, strangers, but sisters. I smile at strangers, I talk to them and they smile and talk to me. It's a wonderful feeling. I'm learning how to do this by watching little girls.

Wide-eyed wonder----it's a great feeling. Take the opportunity today to just sit back for a moment and enjoy all the little pleasures of life, especially the new ones. Enjoy your new self and just look around in wide-eyed wonder.

I love this feeling and I love being part of the group here.

Have a wonderful day today,

Love,

Becky

[Sally]

Becky,

I noticed as I started to accept myself and broken down the walls around my feelings, children began to react differently to me although I present male at work.

When the other salesmen wave at a small child some will duck their heads and cling to their mothers - they used to do that to me too but when the female sales people wave the child smiles and waves back - they do that with me now almost every time.

The furtherI go in my transition the more often it happens, I have even had a couple of little girls looking back and waving until they almost walked into a display - I guess I am Momma Sally all of the time.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest sarah f]

Although I am not on HRT yet, (Hopefully Next Month) I am finding that I am already changing my habits and the way I act and present myself to others. I find myself more outgoing and more willing to smile at someone and help them out if needed. I think it is just me letting the girl out and not hiding her anymore. I love the way I feel now.

Love,

Sarah F

[Guest BeckyTG]

Although I am not on HRT yet, (Hopefully Next Month) I am finding that I am already changing my habits and the way I act and present myself to others. I find myself more outgoing and more willing to smile at someone and help them out if needed. I think it is just me letting the girl out and not hiding her anymore. I love the way I feel now.

Love,

Sarah F

Sarah, I did the same thing. Part of it is just realizing our battle is over, we can begin to drop the armor off a piece at a time now and it feels so good.

I literally overwhelmed my wife with loving, kind, considerate and thoughtful. I hope that this continued, unchanging, unrelenting behavior will keep her with me through this.

She goes back and forth, but has stayed pretty positive on everything so far. Remember to love your wife like you've never loved her before.

Love,

Becky

[Guest Donna Jean]

Becky....

Honey...I always own a dog...love them..

But, when I get a new puppy, life is fun and amazing...

Everything is new to the little guy!

A mirror on the floor provides hours of endless fun...OH MY! There's another puppy to bark at!

And chasing birds back and forth...never to catch one, but they fly....

Everything is new and wonderous!

I'm that way this last year...everthing is a wonder....Im starting fresh.

So much to learn...

So much to see...

So much to do....

Smiling at others is fun now...I mostly get one back...

Yes, our new lives bring hours of wonderment and joy...

This whole thing has brought me to life again...

And I'm loving it!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest angie]

A question was asked on another group...

When does transition end? According to long time postops,

never. Everything so new stay's new,as we grow into our role

each and every day, more and more completely. The suggestion

of taking time to smell the flowers is a good one. This is our second

puberty, and one we are going into with eye's wide open. Enjoy

this wonderous time,your body and mind change daily, as your

woman is coming alive, after her long long slumber.

Angelique

[Guest viv]

What a lovely feeling that must be for you young ladies,,,,so

happy for you all, That will keep me going till I begin my HRT.

In the meantime I busy myself in ""Old Sparky" ouch !! ouch!!

" NOPE !!, those two critters wont be back", comments the

Electro tech , "hope the heck they dont" I reply ,,LOL. love

ya all ,, viv

[Guest Elizabeth K]

BECKY

YES YES YES

Beautiful Topic!

Right on the button!

Lizzy

[Guest Chandra]

Dearest Becky,

I am so very happy for you sis. You are an inspiration beyond words. Somehow you stir emotion in me that I have never felt before. Thankyou for sharing this joy with everyone here at Laura's.

Your feelings are so very wondrous you are glowing girl, and projecting your true aura of femininity that you were born with.

I am so very flattered that you consider me to be your friend, I wish I could reach out right now and hug and cry with you for the release of the real you in a feeling of your inner joy and our friendship.

I can't even imagine how good it must feel for you dear Becky. But in a way I do, because your spirit transcends your written words somehow in a way that I cannot explain, but do feel.

You go with it girl, you deserve only the best for your sharing heart.

Your little sis, LOVE Chandra

[Guest BeckyTG]

Dearest Becky,

I am so very happy for you sis. You are an inspiration beyond words. Somehow you stir emotion in me that I have never felt before. Thankyou for sharing this joy with everyone here at Laura's.

Sweet, Darling 'Lil Sis,

You just make me feel so good I could cry. If I'm an inspiration to you, I'm truly touched. If I can stir emotion in you that you have never felt before, so much the better. It's about time that emotion was stirred, girl.

This is just the "Laura Syndrome". You see, Joanna, Angelique and Donna Jean stirred me. They reached into my depths and pulled out Becky. I watched them in "wide-eyed wonder" as they did what I'd only fantasized about doing. I won't even say I dreamed about doing, because that would imply that I believed I could do it someday.

As they inspired me, I, in turn inspire you. Your obligation here at Laura's is to get inspired enough yourself to take the needed steps to release that beautiful woman that's laid sleeping inside you for too long. Waken her, love her and let her take her rightful place in your life.

You will then inspire others here at Laura's, who will become your "lil sis" and the cycle will complete. This is the Laura Syndrome--a chain of women helping each other, teaching each other, cheering each other on, hugging each other and, yes, crying with each other. Celebrating the victories and supporting each other in their darkest hours.

Your feelings are so very wondrous you are glowing girl, and projecting your true aura of femininity that you were born with.

I am so very flattered that you consider me to be your friend, I wish I could reach out right now and hug and cry with you for the release of the real you in a feeling of your inner joy and our friendship.

Dearest Chandra, our friendship is beginning to run deep, as have our own emotions over our lives. We share a common bond of experience, of hopelessness, despair, conflict and stress that we couldn't even understand ourselves, much less fix. Honey, we hug right now and I cry with you often. I love you and you bring good things out in me. I'm happy you can find inspiration in me.

I can't even imagine how good it must feel for you dear Becky. But in a way I do, because your spirit transcends your written words somehow in a way that I cannot explain, but do feel.

You go with it girl, you deserve only the best for your sharing heart.

Your little sis, LOVE Chandra

Yes, you do feel my spirit, as I have projected it. I cannot expect to keep this joyful spirit locked up or hidden away. The wondrous woman who kept this spirit now guides and protects it. She has been awakened and is not going away.

She knows that by giving this spirit away to others, the spirit only becomes stronger. You see, you can never get rid of this spirit. The more you give away, the more that returns to you.

You have taken the spirit and I can see you beginning to understand it. Use it, Sis, use it.

I just can't close this without pausing to cry.... it feels so good....

I have to thank Joanna, Angelique and, especially, Donna Jean (and too many other wonderful women to mention) for inspiring me and waking Becky.

Chandra, your confidence and belief in me is a real inspiration to me. Thank you for expressing it, thank you for seeing it and thank you for beginning to use it in your own life. I love you.

Love,

Your big sis,

Becky