Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

Befuddeled


Guest KellyKat

Recommended Posts

Guest KellyKat

Hi all:

I'm not even sure what I'm doing as I sit and write this post. I'm feeling better after a bit of food poisoning this weekend. ___-marts rotisserie chicken, almost cooked my goose. I guess botulism likes chicken too. lol Terribly sick Tues and Wed fit as a fiddle today. I seemed alert and capable at work today, all my higher functioning intact. Even my sardonical humor still in place. But as I read todays posts and PMs I find myself at a loss. I wasn't able to reply to a single posting tonight. I wanted to badly on many - but my thoughts kept getting all tangled up for no reason. Unusual for me as I enjoy giving my 2¢ worth (not much in todays economy). Whether a bit of advice, a laugh, or moral support. I like to give what I can. Today though I feel like my head is a quagmire. And I don't know why. I'm not having one of my bad old days of self hate or pity - I'm actually in really good spirits to be honest. I just can't wrap my mind around anything... writing this is so dificult... and I don't know why. I'm usually so good at conveying my thoughts, feelings, and expressions ... that when I'm at a loss ... I'm literally at a loss. It's honestly taken me an hour to write this... and now I'm exhausted. Not sure if this makes any sense to anyone out there I do tend to get random impulses of stupid - it's hardwired to my DNA. lol Am I just being meloncholly without the sadness?

Luv Kat.

Link to comment
Guest Jean Davis

Darn chicken, I'm sure that that is the reason you're having troubles tonight with writing. I have the same problem when I get sick, it takes a bit for the mind to get back online. :lol:

Give yourself another day or two and you should be right bact to wearing out your keyboard. ;)

LUV

Jean

Link to comment

Hi Kat,

I don't get sick often, so maybe I notice it more - one of the great things is the feeling of health that is more noticable in the days afterwards. So, don't work your head too hard, just enjoy your health. You could have toxins still in your system that are keeping you below your normal level.

Take care...

Love, Kat

Link to comment
Guest ~Brenda~

Kat hon :)

Don't sweat it hon. I know exactly what you are experiencing. Hey, sometimes I log into Laura's and I see the topics, but I find that I am toung tied and have nothing to say. Don't worry hon. If you have days where you can just read posts but have nothing to say, hon that is all OK. There is no requirement that one must post if they log onto Laura's :) Take it easy and just post when you are there. Simply reading posts on some days is enough.

HUGS

Brenda

Link to comment
Guest Skylar

Ok so I LOVE the title on this one! Don't worry hun it's completely normal to have mixed up thoughts sometimes and to the point of not being able to put anything together. This happens to me a lot.

-Sky

Link to comment
Guest KellyKat

Thanks for the love all.

I'm do feel much better now. Been at work all week and doing fine (cept for that first 1/2 day). But I still have a 'mental fog' of sorts. Still harder to focus my thoughts. But at least my train of thought doesn't feel derailed anymore. lol :) Just tired.

Luv Kelly :)

Link to comment
Guest Donna Jean

Sweetheart.......

Word of advice......

The chicken.......the green parts should be a dead giveaway!

I no longer go to Long John Silver's for that exact same reason...

That was probably the worse 3 days and nights that I've spent in my entire life...

Glad that you've regained your senses....

Donna Jean

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   1 Member, 0 Anonymous, 213 Guests (See full list)

    • Petra Jane
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      80.8k
    • Total Posts
      770.1k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      12,093
    • Most Online
      8,356

    gizgizgizzie
    Newest Member
    gizgizgizzie
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. Angelo christoper
      Angelo christoper
      (38 years old)
    2. Joslynn
      Joslynn
      (61 years old)
    3. Kaltia_Atlas
      Kaltia_Atlas
    4. Rika_Lil
      Rika_Lil
      (40 years old)
    5. Summerluv
      Summerluv
      (19 years old)
  • Posts

    • VickySGV
      I want to hold back on this one until more solid information comes out.  The defendant is claiming it was accidental, but the Trans side is demanding a hate crime scenario which an accident would preclude.  Pardon the phrase, but as I read this folks are jumping the gun here.
    • Carolyn Marie
      https://www.advocate.com/crime/trans-teen-jazlynn-johnson-killed   This is a tragic ruination of two young lives.  It is very sad.  May Jazlynn rest in peace.   Carolyn Marie
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Well, here's the big questions:  What does it mean to be masculine?  What does it mean to be a woman?    I've been around a lot of rule-bending in those areas.  There's all sorts of "traditional" views about what men and women do.  Men work on mechanical things, defend/protect, earn a living, play rough sports, etc.  Women cook and clean, are gentle and nurturing, value aesthetics over function, etc.   Yet, my very "masculine" industrial-manager husband cooks just as well as any Betty Crocker wannabe, and tells the bedtime stories that are most in-demand by the kids.  My GF, who is surely "ALL Girl" is a highly skilled mechanic, a street racer, was busily laying concrete while 6 months pregnant, and practices kenjutsu (Japanese sword fighting skills).  And me?  I'm AFAB but I'm infertile and I feel like I should have had a male body...yet I possess very little in the way of "manly" skills or desire to acquire them.  I'm in my boy form these days, but pretty much useless for accomplishing "boy stuff."     I think my family blew those definitions out of the water.  Yet, somehow our family structure is also religiously patriarchal....and happily so!  It'll bend your brain to try to figure that one out.    I'd say its just important to be you, do what you do best, and stick your tongue out at anybody who doesn't like it. 
    • JenniferB
      Welcome to the board gizgizgizzie! I sure can understand what dysphoria feels like. I found it stayed in my head during nearly all waking hours. Although, sometimes held in a little deeper. But it was triggered easily. I hope you can find that place you feel comfortable with yourself. This is a good place to find help as you traverse your journey.   Jennifer
    • VickySGV
      Welcome to the Forums @gizgizgizzie we have folks in your situations to talk to and share with. 
    • gizgizgizzie
      hi everyone, my name is giz (or gizzie), i use all prns but i prefer they/it and i just found out abt this place pretty recently !! im really excited to find community among other trans people from so many walks of life !! in my personal life, i do have trans/queer friends but its not easy to navigate that without coming out all willy nilly (and i can't come out to my family, pretty much ever) so this is a pretty good place for me to get to know people and make new friends !!   i also have this weird dysphoria issue that i feel like everyone (and society at large lol) is attaching me to categories and boxes that don't really fit me (obviously this is to do with my agab) so being here without that presentation is also really helpful !!   i also hope to be able to start and share my transitions goals and things like that (just getting my body to a more androgynous look) !!   thanks for reading, and i hope to see more of y'all soon !!
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Well, my friends are out publicly. Openly transgender, and on HRT.  I agree that the survival of all of us is at stake.  But I think there are threats greater and more dangerous than those faced exclusively by LGBTQ folks.   Rising prices. Unaffordable food.  EPA strangling transportation and energy.  Needless foreign wars that put us at risk of literal nuclear annihilation.  A government that wants to tax us, track us, and control every aspect of our lives...including using us as guinea pigs for their medical experiments.     Trump is no savior.  Neither is the Republican party.  But I believe that a vote for Democrats in the federal government is for sure a vote for globalism and what follows it.  War, famine, plague, slavery, and death don't care if we're trans or cis.  
    • Ladypcnj
      There is light at the end of the tunnel, just believe. 
    • Ashley0616
      Y’all are pretty ladies
    • Ashley0616
    • Ivy
      People who are out publicly, and openly transgender, maybe on HRT, having changed names and gender, have a lot to lose if anti-trans politicians take power.  They have openly called for our eradication, and promise to do everything they can to accomplish this.  (again, 2025) For someone in this position the election is about our survival.  It's foolish to delude ourselves into thinking "Oh, they don't really mean that.  It's all for show," or, "There's other more important things to concern ourselves with." Maybe for some people the other things take priority.  But if you have skin in the game, things look different.  
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      If that happens, a lot of things I don't want to see might also be codified into law.  And some things that shouldn't be law might not get repealed.  To me, progress in one area isn't worth the price we'd have to pay in several other areas.     For me, voting on LGBTQ issues always ends up as an "out of the frying pan, but into the fire" sort of event.  
    • Ivy
      Trying out a new wig. Got my reading glasses on. I've also got dark roots now - first time in years.
    • Vidanjali
      Thea, your post made me think of a comic named Chloe Petts whom I saw recently on Hannah Gadsby's Gender Agenda comedy special on Netflix. She is a cisgender masculine lesbian. She is brilliant and so funny. I was intrigued by her identification - specifically masculine, not butch. And it seems to me there is a difference. 
    • Vidanjali
      Today I had a dr appt. When I checked in, I was asked my surname, which I gave. Apparently there were two patients with appointments at that time with that same surname. The receptionist asked, "Are you (my legal name which is feminine) or Paul?" I got such a kick out of it not being assumed I had the feminine name. 
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...