Introducing Myself...

[Guest Boudica]

Hi Everyone!

I'm glad to have found this website and forum! Over the last few years I've been through some pretty serious gender discrimination and I'm having some problems with depression and anxiety, so hopefully I can talk about things here and maybe resolve some of my issues so I can can get back on my feet again and try and salvage what's left of my positive attitude towards life!

I'm female, I was intersexed and raised sometimes as a girl and sometimes as a boy, but mostly a boy, especially when I got older in my teens, my Mother was really strict and religious so I had a pretty hard time and had to take care of my own surgery dealing with my physically ambiguous gender problems once I got old enough and had the means to do so, it was pretty tricky too considering I've lived most of my life below the poverty level but I did manage to get my surgery and get just ONE gender on my birth certificate and all my legal documents corrected too, but due to a LOT of harrassment, not because of the way I look, probably more my attitude and people knowing my history and telling strangers about it, I've been accused of being a crossdresser and being called a 'Sweetie' even though I could never pass as a male and even though I usually only wear jeans and a top....it's not like I saunter(sp?) around ina southern belle outfit or anything, I totally look, sound and act female naturally, my body shape is female and I've always sounded female in person and on the phone and other things, basically I've never passed as a male when my Mother was forcing me to growing up so I had to learn some survival skills so I wouldn't get picked on all the time so I sort of learned how to be a bit aggressive in certain situations and, of course, because of that certain people said I acted like a 'guy'!

Oh, I could go on and on about this. My hopes for joining this forum is mostly to find some help because right now and for the past few years I've fealt really messed up and confused and I'm kind of a 'shut in' right now because of all the anxiety and harassment I've been through.

I'd prefer not to use my real name here because I had a sort of local media career going a few years ago and wan to pursue that agin if I can get passed my current problems I'm having, so you can just call me 'B' if you want instead of 'Boudica', either one is fine...I watched a show on the history channel about 'Boudica', she was a female celtic warrioress and she was really strong and lead her people and I really admire her so that's why I chose that nickname here!

Thanks for allowing me to be a part of your onine community here, I could sure use the help right now in the hopes of not feeling so isolated as I've ben for sometime except for my mister (we're not legally married, although we could get married since he's a male on his birth certificate and I'm a female on mine and there aren't any laws against a man and a woman getting married, but there are reasons from his side that it wouldn't be such a good idea but as far as I'm concerned he's my husband, but legally, we're pretty much 'commonlaw married)

anyways, hi to everyone and thanks for accepting me into your community! I'm really looking forward to being involved here!

[Guest Just_Call_Me_Nick]

Hello there and welcome...of course you can feel free to express yourself here...we are all friends...at least that is what I gathered when I joined.

Have you thought about relocating to another area...one that perhaps does not know of your past and such..and just start over? Its a shame to even have to think about it...but sometimes its just better to walk away and start anew...

Nick~

[Guest Drew]

hi boudica, welcome to the forums hope to see more of you around here.

[Guest Michelle M]

Yay another Oregonian. Welcome!

[MaryEllen]

Hello Boudica,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. You're among friends here.

MaryEllen

[Guest Mani]

Welcome to the site Boudica!

[Guest kathy sue]

hi boudica welcome to the site . everyone here is really nice and supportive hope things work out

[Guest gwenthlian]

Welcome to the site Boudica and I hope we can help.

[Guest o0tg0o]

*sticks nose again* ...media u say? hi fellow media person ...i only wish i had a media career already X-D I'm finishing up film school at the moment.

hope everything will go well. Welcome to the forums!