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Guest Phoebe

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Guest Phoebe

Guest Phoebe

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Hiyas!

I have been visiting this site for about a month or so and realized I needed to make it "official". Generally, I've not been much of a forum fiend in the past, but I'm eager for community at this point and would like to make friends. I worry about what misinformation I have of all the issues ahead of me, so please forgive me if I blunder into saying something stupid.

But me: I am 38, single. I am American, but I have been living in Japan for the past eight years. Japan has been great in most ways, but not friendly to people with our issues really or mental health. There is a sort of amusement and tolerance for it, but I neither want to be tolerated, nor a source of amusement, so the time for me to leave is coming very soon.

I have spent most of my life with two things: wishing that I were a girl, and suffering from an increasing depression. I feel almost kinda stupid that I didn't put those things together before just recently. But then, no therapist ever asked me. And wanting to be a girl, when you're not is not what you are "supposed to do." You're "supposed to" take meds for this sorta thing. "Supposed to" have been trouble words for me for a long time. Usually, it means I have to suffer through something else that is not necessarily good for me. I never told anybody in my entire life that I hated being a boy/man until so recently.

But now, I'm talking with a doctor about it, and will hopefully be getting towards at least HRT soon. I have so much to work out and learn though. I would sort of like to learn more about people my age who made a full transition and how that happened. My real goal is to try and clear my head of all the pain and self-loathing I have. Just acknowledging my wishes has helped so much. Deep inside I would like to undergo a more complete transition, but I can find so many things to be scared of about that.

Well, what else about me that is quick to say? Haha, I tend to write too much. My little avatar here is my World of Warcraft character, so you know that I'm >that< kind of nerd :D But then, this is an Internet community, so I'm probably not alone in WoW either. Haha.

But, nice to meet you.

Phoebe

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Guest ~Brenda~

Guest ~Brenda~

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Welcome Phoebe :)

It is very good to see that you are working with a gender therapist and getting things sorted out. :)

Now just relax and make yourself at home here.. OK?

Welcome :)

Love

Brenda

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Guest Donna Jean

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Hello, Phoebe...

Welcome to the Playground, Honey!

I'm Donna Jean and I'll get you fixed up with some nice hot cup of coco and a plate of Sally's cookies...

I've been to Japan numerous times and I found it to be delightful...But, I'm not so sure that I'd want to live there!

Hon, If you'd take a minute to read the forum rules, I'd appreciate it! You'll find a link at the top of most pages!

And...this is a moderated site..that keeps it safe for everyone!

It sounds as if you're getting your life together as far as your gender feelings are concerned! Wonderful!

It's so nice to have you with us!\

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Guest KellyKat

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Welcome Phobe!!

I'm so glad you have joined us here at Laura's!! I'm 42 myself and just starting my own journey. This is a great place for learning, and support. You will find that you have found yourself among a large circle of friends that are here to help and support each other. Feel free to post as much as you'd like. Asking questions, sharing stories or observations.

Please do take time to read the terms and conditions at the top of most pages. This is a PG13 site that we wish to keep safe for all. After you have made 5 posts you're able to PM and have a private talk or just hi.

I know that I am curious to hear more of your life in Japan, and would love to see more posts on it.

Take care. Luv Kat :)

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Welcome to the Playground, Phoebe. I'm glad that you found us.

There are many members your age, and some of our Moderators, who are beginning transition. I'm a little older at 56, but I've just started HRT too.

So you have a lot of folks to keep you company and share experiences.

You've probably seen most of the forums and the chat rooms in your month of lurking, but if not, please do check everything out. We have a list of therapists

and endos too, for when you move back to the U.S.

Enjoy yourself and be at ease. You are among friends and family now.

Carolyn Marie

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Guest swee'pea

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Hi Phoebe,

<<hug>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have MTF meetings-Mon & Sat 9pm est, and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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