Food And Weight And...crap

[Guest insanitylives]

I love how stupid things... ... whatever.

I'm not "underweight", or "overweight".

Or..whatever.

So what's the problem eh?

I've been dieting since i was a kid. A lot of things triggered that, among others my mother beginning to put her expectations on me. I was a 5'5 12 year old with a body to match the height. Among other things.

... The one who's wanted me to fit into 26"(waist) skirts, S/M shirts (despite a chest that hasn't gone below a 32C since i was 13...errr...yeah.)

Sure. have lost weight.

Still too fat.

Too fat even when I was underweight. So I know it's not healthy. Not that stupid, really!

God I'm stupid.

Plans to starve.

Been pushing myself too far too. Which isn't new really. I always push myself too far, walking on twisted ankles, dislocated shoulders, popped hip, ect.

Well, whatever.

Rants needed.

I don't know 100% what I'm going to do

However, what I want to... could mess up my body. To put it in lauras-playground-appropriate terms anywho. I'd prefer a more harsh term.

this can't be normal

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Dear

I know that you do not want to hurt yourself. I also know that you do not want to starve yourself to ill health. If you eat too little you can seriously damage your kidneys among other things.

You do want to have a proper diet. A proper diet is so important to a sound body and mind

If you think that you might be anorexic, I would ask that you seek counceling.

A proper diet will keep you in balance with your weight, your looks, your peace of mind.

Love

Brenda

[Carolyn Marie]

Brenda is on the right track, hon.

Have you talked recently to a dietitian or a nurse? They could help you determine your proper weight, and then help you develop a proper

diet to achieve it.

Nothing is impossible with the right information, the right tools, and the right motivation. Sounds like you have the latter, now just work on

the first two.

I wish you luck, hon.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Wry]

I don't know 100% what I'm going to do

However, what I want to... could mess up my body.

I know that feeling. It's lovely, isn't it? At least in a twisted kind of way.

When I was younger I water fasted for almost three weeks; not sure how I survived. Dropped down to 95lbs, and at 5'8'' I was looking pretty skeletal; was still to fat in certain areas, and to skinny in others though. Well, anyway, it didn't mess-up my body. I had an EKG and all kinds of tests done to prove that. Six years later though- if you opened me up it'd probably look pretty grim inside.

If you ever need help/support/anything, just PM me, I won't judge.

[Guest insanitylives]

Warning: I tend to "pick apart" what people say ,it's really not meant to be mean or anything.

Dear

I know that you do not want to hurt yourself. I also know that you do not want to starve yourself to ill health. If you eat too little you can seriously damage your kidneys among other things.

You do want to have a proper diet. A proper diet is so important to a sound body and mind

If you think that you might be anorexic, I would ask that you seek counceling.

A proper diet will keep you in balance with your weight, your looks, your peace of mind.

Love

Brenda

Kidneys, muscles {for whatever reason starvation = muscle loss =/= fatloss, that makes no sense IMO but...}

However, you would never find someone who'd say i'm anorexic... Maybe 2 years ago but not now. I'm not thin enough, part of the diagnosis is 15% underweight or more.

Brenda is on the right track, hon.

Have you talked recently to a dietitian or a nurse? They could help you determine your proper weight, and then help you develop a proper

diet to achieve it.

Nothing is impossible with the right information, the right tools, and the right motivation. Sounds like you have the latter, now just work on

the first two.

I wish you luck, hon.

Carolyn Marie

I know my weight. =\ Almost wish I didn't, but it's nice to know you've lost some eh?

But i have talked to a doctor about my weight. She was NOT helpful. Just like "eat more fruit vegtables stop eating sugar/carbs/fat but dont try to loose any weight" And she said that when I was at least 20 pounds overweight. Its been almost a year and I can't get to my target still.

Annoying...

Sometimes i just want to die.