I Am Forever Falling

[Guest BrandonIThink]

I am forever falling.

I’m sorry,

I tried.

I tried to be strong

Tried to be brave

You'll never know how hard

I tried to see the spark of light

Through this downpour

But it was never there.

I am forever falling.

I know you will be angry

Please know I would not give up

Unless I felt there were

No other

Options

I’m afraid the end is near

It was always going to happen

I don’t know how

When I die will ‘she’

Take over again?

Or will I take her down with me

As I fall?

I don’t know

But I’m afraid the end is near

(I’m so afraid)

I am forever falling

I’m sorry,

I tried.

But it’s like trying to

Slow a current

Like trying to just

Be yourself

Like trying to

Stop dominoes from

Tumbling after the first

One steps out of line

And

All

The

Others

Come

Crashing

Down

After

It

Each one,

Tripping, stumbling, out of control

No way to stop it

I am forever falling.

[Sally]

Brandon,

That is a wonderful poem but oh, so sad - I have been there, lived there for so long and do not ever want to go back there again.

PM me anytime and as soon as I can I will get back to you - let me help you to stop falling.

Love

Sally

[Guest JKarician]

Brandon, what can I say? I'm a fan. So many diamonds in this just wonderful.

"You'll never know how hard

I tried to see the spark of light

Through this downpour

But it was never there."

Chilling. Favorite part though? The way you have this arranged. The way you've lain out your prose here is an art form in and of itself! This is a poem that was meant to be read aloud. It takes a true artist to be able to make me read it and actually "hear" it as you would be saying it.

"And

All

The

Others

Come

Crashing

Down

After

It"

Who does that? Wonderful. Not sure how I can creatively lay out a reply so you can "hear" my applause. Any ideas on that one?

-J

[Guest BrandonIThink]

Thank you so much Sally. I think you'll understand what I mean when I say I have good days and bad days (That's what great about this place....there's so much less explaining to do....people just get it). Sometimes I feel pretty good and confident, and other times, like when I wrote this, I feel helpless, like everything is slipping through my fingers and I can't hold on much longer. I'm feeling decent right now, but I might take you up on the PM offer in the future....again, thank you, and I'm glad you enjoyed the poem.

JKarcian, I'm glad you liked the form! I was actually kind of upset....originally, those few words were one to a line, and also spread out along said lines, so they looked like they really were scattered everywhere, but when I posted, it set them all back to the beginning of the line. But this clearly got a similar point across, so I guess it worked out ok!