Dysphoria Below Decks

[Guest sebastiank]

What I mean is that it's not a proof on "how badly I want it" or not badly enough, but how informed I am about consequences.

[Flint]

What I mean is that it's not a proof on "how badly I want it" or not badly enough, but how informed I am about consequences.

It can be dangerous to not go on hormones also (for some people) dangerous for their mental health which could ultimately lead to suicide.

So in a way i guess it's about weighing up the risks with both. Some people myself included do not for the life of them feel they can go on through the rest of life without any hormones.

[Guest B.heard]

I think I developed a butterfly state of mind when its to do with my own transition there is a large health risk with every T shot I get and there was having top surgery and there will be lots more when I get bottom done.

But Ive been so happy so content so at peace in my skin through it all, it's right for me and in my mind I'd rather live happy and bright for a short while on this earth then waste away for longer and that might sound depressive to some people but it's really not for me.

I'm more alive now then I've ever been and I'm never going to fit the mold of a bio male but I have molded into a better happy more contented me and right now thats good enough and it ripple's through your life your family your lovers.

[Guest My_Genesis]

It can be dangerous to not go on hormones also (for some people) dangerous for their mental health which could ultimately lead to suicide.

So in a way i guess it's about weighing up the risks with both. Some people myself included do not for the life of them feel they can go on through the rest of life without any hormones.

yeah this is better-worded than what I said, that's basically what I meant. Risking mental and emotional health vs. physical health. Gotta weight the benefits and the risks. And like B.heard said, it's probably better to live a short, happy life than a long life where you feel as though you're just wasting your life away.

If you are content with not transitioning, taking hormones or whatever else - that's fine. There is no rule saying you have to transition if you're trans.

[Guest AndrewH]

No offence taken.

I was just concerned that I made it sound easy, like deciding to get vegetable soup at the store because they were out of chicken noodle or something.

Any tone I might have conveyed might also have come off the way it did (offended?) because I am nervous posting here about myself right now. My 7 year old daughter is trans. She is just starting to come out and wear girl clothes etc... and behaviours that we thought were due to mental illness just disappeared the first time she put on a skirt that was really hers. Because of this, several of my family members have found Laura's by researching. They asked me if I knew about it and I told them I did and that I go by Andrew there and if they post please address me as Andrew and using male pronouns.

My sister said "WHY???"

I gave some odd explanation to my mom and sister to do with "Well, you know how I was as a kid..."

They are both very accepting of my daughter, but there is something in me that doesn't want them to know how much of a struggle it is sometimes.

Yeah, I'm strong. I have to be given my situation. It's funny, I don't like people to see me struggling or see my emotions but when it comes down to it, I don't want to give the wrong idea either, that all is simple. Once people here my story and that of my children and my life etc... they sometimes think I'm like a superman and I'm not... because sometimes I guess I give off that impression but I'm really not. I'm just a guy, who is finding ways to deal with the weird universe he was born into.

Geez I'm a bit of mess aren't I... Want to be seen as the strong guy... but then panic a bit when people see my strength because I am afraid that instead of seeing strength they think it is all easy for me. I guess part of it is, when people start thinking it's easy for me I end up not fitting with others and not getting support.

blah... now I am off topic and all over the place.

I'm afraid of this place being one more place that I don't fit. I guess that's the root of it.

[Flint]

I was just concerned that I made it sound easy, like deciding to get vegetable soup at the store because they were out of chicken noodle or something.

That there is like one of the toughest decisions I'd ever have to make!

[Guest AndrewH]

That there is like one of the toughest decisions I'd ever have to make!

HA!

Thanks for the laugh.