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Woot Told Mah Mom And Bro!


Milly

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So I came out to my brother a week ago. Told him the story and my fears were unfounded. While he didn't embrace it exactly he did say "I've always wanted a sister" JOY! So we talked and toked over this and many laughs were had. It was definitely a shock to him.

About 2 days ago though I told my mother. It was so hard, I wanted to cry but I just couldn't, it was the worst feeling I've ever felt. I didn't know what her reaction would be. She said she would love me no matter what. However, I guess I wasn't too clear on the sex change part. I am not good with words at all, I really should have written this down and rehearsed but she wanted to know what was bothering me and out came "I am bisexual and I want a sex change." I really should have worded it better. She kind of dismissed the sex change part until I brought it up today.

She wanted to know why and it was so hard. I told her it was just something I've know since I was little. The ts friend I had in middle school just helped me put 2 and 2 together. The silence after I told her I was serious was agonizing but she said no matter what she would love me. I feel bad for bringing that up again, I understand some people here aren't so lucky in that regard. I apologize right now for that. So she said she would see about helping me find a therapist in this.

I hate myself for dropping this load of drama in their laps. I am just so happy that they were so accepting. She was tearing up when she thought about what would happen when the relatives find out. I told her "to be quite honest, I want a camera to get the precise moment their heads explode" The relatives have always been a bit distant. Even more so when my dad died in 06. Seemed the only reason they even associated with us was through him. I might be a bit over dramatic in that assumption. It just felt they abandoned us when he died. Anywho back to the happy post. yay! I am just so happy!

Thanks for listening all. =) Hoping like hell I can get on hormones this year.

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Guest angie

Congratulations for having The Talk with you Mom and brother.

That is a huge step in the right direction.Now the rest of your

Real Life is about to begin.Welcome my new sister.

Warmest hugs,

Angelique

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It's kinda funny, not funny haha but "morbid" funny. I used to think of nothing but killing myself, hell not 2 weeks ago I thought about ending it all. Now all I can think about is the future and what it holds. I feel so giddy right now! =)

Thanks for the support!

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Well, I am so happy that things are headed in the right direction.

as a fellow Texan let me offer you a little more help, if you send me a PM telling me what area of Texas you live in, I can help you find a few therapists to try - there are a lot of Texans here and we cover a lot if the state.

So just send me a PM and I might be able to help you find a good one in your are and above all, stay happy.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest ~Brenda~

Dearheart :)

That is wonderful to hear that your coming out was so positive :D

It really does help to have the people that you love behind you.

I know it can seem like you are doing something to them, but you are not.

You are sharing the real you with the very people who need to see the real you.

HUGS

Brenda

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  • Admin

Congrats hon on your successful coming out. It took a lot of courage, and I'm proud of you.

Give your mother time to adapt to this new reality of who you are. She will have many questions, and some may not occur to her right now.

I suggest you look through the "Coming Out Forum" here to find examples of how others have explained it to their parents. There is also good information

in the Resource Pages explaining transgenderism and transsexualism, so she and you both know exactly what is ahead for you, and how to go about it.

Finding a G.T. is an excellent next step, and I hope you find a good one.

Please let me or any of us know if you have questions, either through the forums or by PM. We want you to be safe, and happy, and above all else,

be your true self.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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It would seem I spoke too soon about the acceptance. She wanted to talk earlier and the questions she asked were just so painful to answer. How are you going to handle being a 6 foot tall woman? Why do you want to destroy you body like that? No woman is going to want to be with you if you aren't really a woman. It just makes me want to eat a bullet. I shouldn't of said anything to her.

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I want to make a quick edit, I do not want to kill myself. I have accepted this as who I am but damned if I don't feel like crap right now. I know she is trying but it just seems the whole idea is lost to her. She seems to equate it with being like dragqueens. She even suggested I just dress in womens clothes but I told her that wasn't the point. I am not really into dresses, I just want to be who I am on the inside. I think I sat and cried for about 30 minutes in the dark after all that mess.

I know she wants to help me but it seems to be with alot of resistance. I feel like a freak..

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Guest Donna Jean

NO...No...no.....

None of us are a freak!

Now, it's obvious your mom has no idea what being Trans is all about.

Your next task is to educate her to what our condition (and it IS ) a condition!) is about.

I think that there are so many misconceptions about us (like the Drag Queen) that we are fighting a losing battle if the person we are coming out to doesn't understand and has all of their info from Jerry Springer!

Get her involved and educated and you'll see the difference!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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So we talked about it more, she accepts it but it's gonna be a long time before she will get used to it. She wants to get me in a therapist's office to get me on hormones. I'm sure we can find one as we are 30 minutes from Dallas. No see my real concern is that while I do want to be a women I am not really all into dresses and high heels and lots of makeup. I still prefer baggy pants and chucks over dresses and high heels. I will put my hair into a pony tail and lipstick on but will this lack of wanting to go all out reflect badly in therapy?

If I could put it in simpler terms lol, think 70s show. There's Jacky and lets be honest shes great but I see myself as more of a Donna personality. Gamer, guitarist paintball. Tomboyish if you would.

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