Very Frustrated By Lack Of Exercise..

[Guest Thorndrop]

Sometimes I think my mum enjoys getting on my nerves.

One such example of this happened today. Recently I dared start trying to exercise again. You know, doing push ups in my room and stuff like that. Thought I'd got away with it. But no. It all kicked off today. My mum shouting like mad at me because I'm 'obsessed' with it and I 'need to see a doctor'. I hate how she uses this as a 'threat', since I've never actually been afraid of her taking me to a doctor. It doesn't bother me. In fact, I want her to, since she seems so convinced I'm insane, maybe I could get diagnosed with the whole trans thing. But no matter how much I tell her to go and take me to a doctor, she won't.

But it is so frustrating to basically not be allowed to exercise! I don't want to lose weight and look like some stupid celebrity, which she's probably convinced herself is the case despite my protests. I do it to try and get even the tiniest bit of muscle on my body, and for the sheer fun and challenge of it. I'm underweight, but it feels like my body is pure fat. Meaning that with other people, you can see some muscle definition. With me, you can literally grab chunks of flesh right down to my bones in most places.

I don't know if it's my mind playing up either, but I could swear my chest is bigger lately. Plus with it coming into summer, I'm pretty much forced into wearing something other than massive hoodies and people can see my body shape. Not just my chest, but my hips and my arse too. Sometimes like this I just feel like bursting out in tears when I see normal teenage guys wearing things that I'd never be able to get away with.

Things are looking temporarily up though, since my mum's going away for almost three weeks, leaving me with the house to myself (hopefully, if my brother and dad don't interfere and try to 'keep me company' which they most likely will). I'm also planning on going to the college gym as much as I can, and hopefully continue when she gets back, since I guess she won't know where I'm going.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Chaz.......

Hone, there's nothing wrong with exercise!

And, I doubt that you could "bulk up" much with out "T"......

I really don't understand what your mum has against exercise...all of the doctors recommend it and everyone knows that it's good for you.

Go to the Gym at school....run places....

Let me ask you...how does she know that you are doing push-ups? Are you noisy?

Exercise is an esectcial part of our daily life......

I don't see the problem.....

Huggs...

Donna Jean

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Chaz...

Exercise is always good!!! As the reebok commercial says.... "Just do it!"

Around the world, both genders are in the military and the expectations are the same, regardless of gender.

You will be amazed at what is possible with diet and exercise.

Now drop and give me 20 (shout each push up out loud).

Brenda

[Guest Thorndrop]

Haha, you're all great here!

But we live in an old house and the floor creaks when someone even moves a step, so she can basically hear everything I do.

And I'm not wanting to 'bulk up' as such, but I know girls with more muscle than I have and that's more how I'd want to be. 'Toned', I guess.. I don't like the look of huge muscles anyway, but I'm just disgusted by how weak I am now.

And I WISH I knew what she had against it. I can't seem to be able to do anything besides slob around the house before she shouts at me for being 'obsessive'. She's a living contradiction, really. Now that I think about it, she reminds me of the whole 'media attitude' in a person. Skinny people should be fatter and are 'lucky' to be 'able' to slob out and be lazy (regardless of whether I enjoy doing that or not, it's how I 'should' be or I'm not 'normal).

*very, VERY annoyed at her*

I'm literally counting down the hours untill she goes away and I can please myself for a fortnight. I'll be down the gym as soon as I can. Not wasting a moment of it.

[Guest JeanVier]

I'm underweight, but it feels like my body is pure fat. Meaning that with other people, you can see some muscle definition. With me, you can literally grab chunks of flesh right down to my bones in most places.

I don't know if it's my mind playing up either, but I could swear my chest is bigger lately. Plus with it coming into summer, I'm pretty much forced into wearing something other than massive hoodies and people can see my body shape. Not just my chest, but my hips and my arse too. Sometimes like this I just feel like bursting out in tears when I see normal teenage guys wearing things that I'd never be able to get away with.

YES. Thorndrop, I so relate to this. According to my weight and height, and if you measured me anywhere, I would come up underweight-- but it is an underweight that is undermuscle, so I feel like my thighs and stomach and what not move with every step-- and some definition would help so much! My trouble is that it is near the end of the semester, and my college courses are SO intense that I do not have time to exercise-- but I will be at the gym as soon as classes let out! I also feel that my chest is getting bigger, that it hurts more/moves more/is just -there- more than before, and I feel that some exercise would help so much. Soon.

Have you thought about getting a fairly-light pair of weights (5lb or 8lb) and doing free weight exercises? You could create a routine that involves little movement on your floor, but works the arms, chest, and back... Take care, 'bro.

-JV