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[Flint]

A lift like that out of star trek, identical in fact.... for us differently abled folk

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

Wow I like the decor. Wanna come help me decorate my house Matthias?

Gabe

[Flint]

Oddly enough I think It'd be cool to work in interior design.

I'd make houses look really modern with one or two old fashioned rooms for nostalgia. And houses based on star trek ships, and lifts based on star trek lifts.

[JJ]

My favorite look is old fashioned leather and wood but this looks great Matty! Super cool. That lift was a touch of genius. The perfect place to hang out.

Now where are the other guys?

[Flint]

Here is a room, where people can go to be alone and read a book or something:

[JJ]

Perfect!

I hope it comes with the cat. Nothing more soothing than reading a book with a cat purring on your lap. I might skip the fire till fall though.

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

I prefer my reading room to come with a dog but other than that...

Having a place to go just for reading is my idea of heaven! I'll try not to be too antisocial and take my nose out of the book every now and then I promise.

That lift is a brilliant idea. I'm sure it's far cooler than whatever social services is gonna provide me with for my home! lol

Interior design sounds like a really fun job to me but I wouldn't be any good at it. My idea of decorating is a little...um...quirky for most people's tastes lol

[Guest Jay09]

Wow I like the decor. Wanna come help me decorate my house Matthias?

Gabe

Seriously Matthias. Ill let you come decorate my house too!

-Jay

[Flint]

I prefer my reading room to come with a dog but other than that...

Having a place to go just for reading is my idea of heaven! I'll try not to be too antisocial and take my nose out of the book every now and then I promise.

That lift is a brilliant idea. I'm sure it's far cooler than whatever social services is gonna provide me with for my home! lol

Interior design sounds like a really fun job to me but I wouldn't be any good at it. My idea of decorating is a little...um...quirky for most people's tastes lol

I wonder what they'll provide for me too. Ah waiting lists.

And I agree on the dog thing.

[Flint]

Seriously Matthias. Ill let you come decorate my house too!

-Jay

Lol.

And hey welcome to the new room.

[Guest Jay09]

Lol.

And hey welcome to the new room.

Hey thanks.

[Flint]

as me, JJ, CariadsCarrot and Jay are all the first in the new rooms I think we should all have some cake quickly before anyone else comes in....

[Guest Jay09]

I agree completely!

Quick before anyone else makes their way in

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

I wonder what they'll provide for me too. Ah waiting lists.

And I agree on the dog thing.

oh yeah...and all the red tape!

Still it's better than the first time I had dealings with them when they told me to to get someone to put a bed in my living room downstairs for me, wash myself in the kitchen sink and buy a commode...to give up the idea of ever going in any other room of my house and also to give up the idea of ever leaving my house again while I was at it as my front door wasn't accessible.

...I was in my early 20's and this is how they wanted me to live out the rest of my life.

I was lucky. Things changed but it took a long time and for my disability to get worse (partly down the situation they left me in damaging my body more)...but now I have a bathroom and a front door I can use...we're working on the lift lol

I've been told they should also provide me with a minicom too but I'm not holding my breath or anything!

...and as for the power wheelchair...I christened her Nessy coz for at least 2 years she was a mythical creature that the wheelchair service promised they were giving me but there was no real proof she existed!

You've gotta laugh haven't you or it drives you crazy!

It makes me grateful for what I have though.

I hope you get what you need soon too Matthias. Have you been waiting long?

Cake sounds good. What flavour do you guys want?

Gabe

[Guest Colm]

Cake sounds good. What flavour do you guys want?

Gabe

Any flavour but carrot

Your name aside, I actually detest carrot cake.

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

LOL yeah I don't want to be made into a cake!

I actually quite like carrot cake (does that make me a cannibal?) but just for you Colm, no carrot cake here.

[Guest Jay09]

you cant ask a fat kid what kinda cake he wants..that just ends all bad.

Although i do gotta agree with the no carrot thing!

[Guest Colm]

LOL yeah I don't want to be made into a cake!

I actually quite like carrot cake (does that make me a cannibal?) but just for you Colm, no carrot cake here.

Cheers, mate.

Although I dunno about the cannibalism thing, lol.

How about chocolate with buttercream?

[Flint]

I don't mean to be all deep and stuff... ha what am I on about. I can't help myself.

Does anyone else feel this way?

Like I lay here in bed and outside on the street it's silent but for the sound of car doors occasionally closing and opening, a few voices here and there as they pass by and the wind blowing. The sounds of life on a quiet neighbourhood make me think about all the other noises, all the car doors that were opening and closing at exactly the same time, the sound of someone somewhere else taking a breath, the sound of someone's life as they take footsteps, eat, drink, love, cry and they enjoy their moments the best they can. But enjoying those moments eludes me, I feel compelled to remain in misery because joy looks fake to me. And no it won't change over time. People have told me that again and again since I was about 11 and started asking the deeper questions in life. "You just need to find your happiness" what if I'm incapable of truly being happy? I see right through happy, happy is transparent to me. I can see through the cracks. Sure I can enjoy something positive but only to a certain extent because I'm ALWAYS aware of the cracks, I'm aware that though that happy music might play in the background that bad lurks underneath. I know that it's in those moments when I feel high that something, anything can bring me to my knees in agony

[Guest Colm]

I saw this documentary a few months ago on television and the woman it was about said something like "Happiness is a sensation, not a condition." I've been thinking about it recently, and I think it's very true. You can feel happy at particular moments in your life, but I don't think anyone hits a point in their life when they're happy all the time. Also, emotions are pretty relative, so if you were happy all the time, I bet eventually you would end up feeling like that was normal and not happy.

Another thing I've been thinking about recently is that I think you have to let happiness and all these other emotions come to you. They're not really something you can force - if you're feeling happy, you're feeling happy, and if you're feeling frustrated, that's what it is, and you just have to let that run its course without any of it overwhelming you. Emotions are pretty transient, so if you picture your feeling as sort of washing over you and then going away once it's less immediate, the whole thing seems to feel a lot calmer and more in control.

I guess what I'm trying to say is to let the emotions be themselves. Just because there are cracks doesn't mean that the joy isn't there too, and you kind of have to take whatever you can get from those moments.

OK, now I feel all deep. Thanks, Matty.

[Flint]

I saw this documentary a few months ago on television and the woman it was about said something like "Happiness is a sensation, not a condition." I've been thinking about it recently, and I think it's very true. You can feel happy at particular moments in your life, but I don't think anyone hits a point in their life when they're happy all the time. Also, emotions are pretty relative, so if you were happy all the time, I bet eventually you would end up feeling like that was normal and not happy.

Another thing I've been thinking about recently is that I think you have to let happiness and all these other emotions come to you. They're not really something you can force - if you're feeling happy, you're feeling happy, and if you're feeling frustrated, that's what it is, and you just have to let that run its course without any of it overwhelming you. Emotions are pretty transient, so if you picture your feeling as sort of washing over you and then going away once it's less immediate, the whole thing seems to feel a lot calmer and more in control.

I guess what I'm trying to say is to let the emotions be themselves. Just because there are cracks doesn't mean that the joy isn't there too, and you kind of have to take whatever you can get from those moments.

OK, now I feel all deep. Thanks, Matty.

Lol. I make people feel deep alot .... is it just me who thinks that sentence sounded slightly dirty? *shifty*

And as for the sensation of happiness. I guess you're right. And I should change my question to "what if one is incapable of achieving the sensation of happiness?" lol

[Guest Colm]

Lol. I make people feel deep alot .... is it just me who thinks that sentence sounded slightly dirty? *shifty*

And as for the sensation of happiness. I guess you're right. And I should change my question to "what if one is incapable of achieving the sensation of happiness?" lol

1. We need an emoticon for this:

This one is close, but not quite right:

2. Re your rephrased question. If you really think this is true of you (and I'd encourage you to strongly question that), then you have two options. Either you need to find a way to be OK with that, or you need to find a way to lower your threshold for what you determine as a "happy" emotion so that even if it's not as happy as you'd like to be, it's still something and you're getting some positive feeling. Hopefully some aggregate of positive emotions might help you approach a sensation of happiness, even if it's not as good as you'd like it to be.

I'm a right ray of sunshine on this, aren't I?

[Guest Jay09]

The incapability of being able to achieve happiness...hm never really thought of that.

But i think to some extent even if you are incapable of achieving happiness often, there are times in which you are happy that you cant help it. For me thats when i am sitting in seculusion on the lake fishing. When i am able to look at all that goes on in the world around you that often times you arent able to notice because your too busy.

It is as Colm said though, you wont be happy all the time, but neither will you be depressed your entire life(although at times it feels like it). Simply like it was put, emotions are emotions and there is no way to stop them, or make them go away.

[Guest Colm]

Also, why is my toaster incapable of making toast that lives outside the range of 'moderately charred' to 'burnt beyond all recognition of bread'? I just want a nice piece of toast.

[Flint]

1. We need an emoticon for this:

This one is close, but not quite right:

2. Re your rephrased question. If you really think this is true of you (and I'd encourage you to strongly question that), then you have two options. Either you need to find a way to be OK with that, or you need to find a way to lower your threshold for what you determine as a "happy" emotion so that even if it's not as happy as you'd like to be, it's still something and you're getting some positive feeling. Hopefully some aggregate of positive emotions might help you approach a sensation of happiness, even if it's not as good as you'd like it to be.

I'm a right ray of sunshine on this, aren't I?

at the baby pic. Peekaboo!