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JenniferB

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One month ago I was heading down a path of self-destruction. If I kept on that path, I would have passed away within five years due to health reasons. But something wonderful happened. I found out who I really was. And Laura's Playground and the fantastic people here helped me find it.

Something powerful changed inside of me when I started understanding the meaning of transgender and transsexual. I realized there was something strange happening when everything I did in the past became unimportant and gained a strong will and desire to change my lifestyle for the better. Hope of a better future reentered my being and that feeling struck right down to the core. Well that feeling has not gone away and has been growing ever since and revolves around who I am. When I took the name Susan here, somehow it felt right. As I learned more and more about those who are transgender, I started wondering if I belonged in that same class. Everyday my mind could not release itself from that feeling. It came to the point that every waking minute I thought about am I transgendered, and everything that goes with it. I even tried to believe that it would dissipate and that I would go back to the way I was. But that hasn't happened. The feeling has grown so strong that I now have trouble sleeping at nights, I couldn't get that feeling out of my head. So last night during an almost sleepless night I came to the realization that I can't fight against this powerful feeling from deep deep within. So...

I now accept that I am Susan. I am a woman living in a male body and that I'm a transsexual. <snif> Perhaps I've known this all my life, but it was hidden deep within. Always something never felt quite right, even from the time I was young. I can never go back to who I was. Becoming transsexual comes at a cost, although I consider it a low cost. I will have to trade my previous life, where I wasn't going anywhere, for one where I can finally be myself and am now free. I have no doubts now that I've chosen the right path. I'm sure my GT will come to realize this, I won't let her forget.

I will still however keep the other part of me alive into he is not necessary anymore.

Love and best wishes,

The True Susan

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Guest Hoslers_wife

I am so incredibly proud of you!!!!! That takes so much heart and courage. I'm glad your here and allowing all of us to get to know you.

Love,

Chelsey hosler

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Guest Donna Jean

Susan.....

Honey, first things first.....

HUGGGGGG!

Ok....all better!

Hon, let me tell you a couple of things....

First ...so many girls here talk about how much the water works came on after starting HRT....

Well, mine started the moment that I accepted myself! Way before HRT.

For years, as a male, I just couldn't cry....That changed.

So many of us here (older gals) denied this condition most of our lives...1/2 century isn't uncommon with us.

But, when the realization hit..It was like nothing we'd ever felt before....

Complete understanding....a mission in our eyes!

And even though it puts a load of obstacles in our path...it also removes many...

Understanding comes at a price and so does freedom.....

Welome to the sisterhood, Susan....

With Love & Affection....

Donna Jean

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Congratulations, Susan for that is who you are, who you have always been but know you accept it and that is the most liberating feeling in the world.

So now where does this leave you?

With us, where you belong among the Gender Gifted - we not only accept - we understand and love - isn't that great?

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest ~Brenda~

Hi Susan :)

I am so glad that you are finding yourself. I am also glad that you found Laura's.

This is what Laura's is all about :)

HUGS and Love

Brenda

:wub:

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Guest Girl Emily

Susan,

Congratulations dear, you have found the real you. Just a few months ago I had experienced that same sense of peace, calm and hope towards my future that was beyond anything I had previously felt. Your post is just beautiful and I am so happy that you can love who you are.

Huggs,

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Guest Jean Davis

Congratulations Susan

It is truely wonderful that you have embrassed your true feelings and have seen the future that awaits you.

Though please take the time to plan and prepare for each step of your transition, I have heard of many that just go too fast and have many more problems than they would have if they would have went slower.

Remember your 3 P's, Patients, Persistance and Preparation. :lol:

LUV

Jean

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Thanks to all who have responded to me. You have been very kind.

I don't plan on transitioning for at least a few months. I'm looking for a second part time job to help pay for all this for one. Plus I don't want to transition until I can reach as close to the ideal weight I can possibly get. Also my first electrolysis appointment isn't until mid June. I'd like to get much of that out of the way before I start transitioning. And lastly I just started working on the Deep Stealth voice DVD. I'd like to be somewhat proficient in talking in a female voice before I get too far in transitioning.

Love Susan

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Guest NatashaJade
Thanks to all who have responded to me. You have been very kind.

I don't plan on transitioning for at least a few months. I'm looking for a second part time job to help pay for all this for one. Plus I don't want to transition until I can reach as close to the ideal weight I can possibly get. Also my first electrolysis appointment isn't until mid June. I'd like to get much of that out of the way before I start transitioning. And lastly I just started working on the Deep Stealth voice DVD. I'd like to be somewhat proficient in talking in a female voice before I get too far in transitioning.

Love Susan

But Susan, all that is part of transitioning :D Every step you take towards your goal is a part of what you are doing to become the woman you want to be. You're doing great, dear. Just keep moving forwards.

luv

Gin

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Guest Opal

Wow! Susan! Wow!

Sounds like we have similar backgrounds and have come to similar conclusions. I have to get past the medication I'm taking for Hypertension before I even consider HRT. Well, there are many things for me to do as well. Lets see, looking passable, voice, weight below 200, getting a therapist's blessing, etc...

Best to you on your move forward!

Hugs,

Opal

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