Dear Lawrence

[Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James]

Dear Lawrence,

Hello there. We only met a few times. Back when we were both kids. Well you were like 17 probably. I was like really young and I was only like 3-4 feet. I was tiny

Well, we met at our Grandma's house. I remember wanting to hang out with all you cool big kids.

Always begging you to take me to the park down the road and got oh so happy when you said yes

It was the best feeling as a kid whenever we went down there to see the family!

I didn't see you a lot when I was a kid.

And when I turned 11, I would never see you again...

And I never got the chance...

I will never see you again...

I will never get the chance to tell you good bye...

I live with my mum now, your Aunt Anna. I am sure that you remember her.

We went to New Hampshire today.

I had to go to Wal-Mart.

My mum decided to buy you some geranium flowers.

After we left Wal-Mart/GameStop we turned left instead of right to head to where you stay...

Well on the way... I found out a lot more about you that I didn't know...

I found out about what happened to you this past August, in 2009...

Today as we were driving up the road...

I asked what happened to you...

And your Aunt and Guy, you remember him right?, said that you were in a coma for 10-12 days...

And that your mum and pa pulled the plug...

I am sure that you would have made it through all that... I am 100% positive...

We put the geranium flowers on your grave...

Just a tiny thing in the ground

Hardly a headstone

It made me sad....

Did you see us there?

Your Aunt was talking to you...

But then she started to cry...

I was almost in tears

Although I like to hide my emotions so I didn't allow myself to cry...

After I found out that your mum got a lot of money after you died because it was left to her or something by you

It makes me wonder if maybe she pulled it on you on purpose to get the money faster...

That is how it looks...

Now that I know where you rest I will visit you more

As much as I can

I don't talk to your mum ever... And I probably never will after this...

I wish that I had the chance to have got to know you more

You'll always be in my heart

RIP Lawrence, my cousin.

I love you.

Love, Lee-Asher Geo-James, or as you know me, Stacey.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Geo,

<<hug>>

Better to have loved and lost that to have never loved at all.

Lawrence will always live in your heart

vanna

[Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James]

Hi Geo,

<<hug>>

Better to have loved and lost that to have never loved at all.

Lawrence will always live in your heart

vanna

Thank you.

He was only 23 when he died It's so sad...

Doesn't help that I may see his mum around (my aunt). It makes me so so grrrrrrrrrr...

*hugs*