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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Dear Lawrence,

Hello there. We only met a few times. Back when we were both kids. Well you were like 17 probably. I was like really young and I was only like 3-4 feet. :lol: I was tiny :lol:

Well, we met at our Grandma's house. I remember wanting to hang out with all you cool big kids. :lol:

Always begging you to take me to the park down the road and got oh so happy when you said yes :)

It was the best feeling as a kid whenever we went down there to see the family! :)

I didn't see you a lot when I was a kid.

And when I turned 11, I would never see you again... :(

And I never got the chance...

I will never see you again... :(

I will never get the chance to tell you good bye...

I live with my mum now, your Aunt Anna. I am sure that you remember her.

We went to New Hampshire today.

I had to go to Wal-Mart.

My mum decided to buy you some geranium flowers. :)

After we left Wal-Mart/GameStop we turned left instead of right to head to where you stay...

Well on the way... I found out a lot more about you that I didn't know...

I found out about what happened to you this past August, in 2009...

Today as we were driving up the road...

I asked what happened to you...

And your Aunt and Guy, you remember him right?, said that you were in a coma for 10-12 days...

And that your mum and pa pulled the plug... :(

I am sure that you would have made it through all that... I am 100% positive...

We put the geranium flowers on your grave...

Just a tiny thing in the ground :(

Hardly a headstone :(

It made me sad....

Did you see us there?

Your Aunt was talking to you...

But then she started to cry...

I was almost in tears :(

Although I like to hide my emotions so I didn't allow myself to cry...

After I found out that your mum got a lot of money after you died because it was left to her or something by you :(

It makes me wonder if maybe she pulled it on you on purpose to get the money faster...

That is how it looks...

Now that I know where you rest I will visit you more :)

As much as I can :)

I don't talk to your mum ever... And I probably never will after this...

I wish that I had the chance to have got to know you more :(

You'll always be in my heart

RIP Lawrence, my cousin.

I love you.

Love, Lee-Asher Geo-James, or as you know me, Stacey.

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Geo,

<<hug>>

Better to have loved and lost that to have never loved at all.

Lawrence will always live in your heart

:wub: vanna

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
Hi Geo,

<<hug>>

Better to have loved and lost that to have never loved at all.

Lawrence will always live in your heart

:wub: vanna

Thank you.

He was only 23 when he died :( It's so sad...

Doesn't help that I may see his mum around (my aunt). It makes me so so :angry: grrrrrrrrrr...

*hugs*

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