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[Guest Leigh]

some of you may have noticed that i've been around more than usual in the past few weeks. the main reason for this is that i have been pretty sick, and haven't been working (still not sure what's wrong, got a dr's appointment on tuse). so..been out of work for 7 weeks, and it's getting a little bit more than old. its also really hard to figure out what to do, since i have no insurance, but apparently since i'm living with my parents, i don't qualify for any kind of financial aide... even though they are living pay check to pay check themselves...

so, whatever, it's one of those situations.

but i really miss working, and since i'm not and have medical costs now, i'm really hemorrhaging money, so to speak.

sorry for the rant.

also, my older sis got married yesterday. she's one of the 2 siblings that i'm out to, but her wedding was still really awkward. at least i didn't have to wear a dress..lol.

but having all the family around has really made me realise that even though i don't want to hurt anyone by coming out (if you get what i mean) i also don't really care if it hurts them. i mean, i'm almost 21, i've known these people my whole life, and we don't really know each other anyway. if they don't ever want to talk to me again, it's not really even a loss. i'm already the "black sheep" of the family.

sorry for the generally depressing tone of this post. i'm not trying to be a downer, just trying to process thought, and you all are my sounding board.

peace&love to you all

[Carolyn Marie]

Hi, Leigh. Its always good to hear from you, cheerful or not.

I'm sorry you've been feeling so poorly. Is this the first appointment you've had since feeling this way? Even if so, at least you're going

now and hopefully the doc can get you some good answers.

Family may not seem important now, but you may regret it later on if you shut yourself off from them. I understand if they're being mean

or cruel, but if they give you have a chance, I suggest keeping the door open, if just a crack. Just my 2 cents.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest NatashaJade]

Hi Leigh,

I know what you're saying about dealing with family. I love my family as much as they are my family and I have come to terms with them (after 40 years!). I don't really know how they'll respond when I come out. I hope it's in a way that doesn't affect my kids. That's all I really care about with them. I'd like them to be a part of my life, but they've really only been on the periphery for many years now. I can live without them. I just don't want my kids to (not that I think they'll cut my kids off, I just don't want there to be any blowback onto them).

Do what you need to do and hope they come along. That's all you can really ask for, I guess.

luv

Gin

[Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James]

I hope that you feel better soon

Also that is good that you didn't have to wear a dress to your sister's wedding

I hope that everything works out for your benefit

*hugs*

LeeAsher

[Guest BeckyTG]

Hi Leigh,

It's always good to hear from a member, whether it's good or bad. It means we're still connected and that's what's important.

I am so sorry about your health issues. Far too many people take good health for granted. For right now, focus on your health. Eat as healthy as you can, drink plenty of fluids and get lots of sleep.

When I'm in a situation like this, I get excited because things are about to get better (yes, I am a warped cheerleader). Well, they probably won't get much worse and we have to think about something, so positive thoughts get you better faster than negative ones....

Love and support,

Becky