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Hi everyone. It has been awhile since I have been home and I miss all of you. The reason I had left was that I did not have much time to be online due to being my ex's caretaker for awhile. Was over there most of the time taking care of her, she was very ill with MRSA and infections that limited to what she could do. Bedridden for the most part. Things have changed since then. I have lost the remaining of my sight, can only see shadows now, thank God for technology though that I can still access this site using JAWS, a audio program that speaks to me and tells me what is on my screen and what I am typing.

Was hospitalized two weeks ago due to passing out in my bathroom from low blood pressure and a low heart rate along with sever abdominal pain. Was in the hospital for a week, the docs determined that it could be a hormonal inbalance. Time to see the Endocrinologist and adjust my meds if this is the case. Believe me the docs did all kinds of tests on me while I was in the hospital from countless EKG's to Catscans and numerous needle pricks to draw my blood for blood cultures. All came out clear. I have also lost over 50 pounds in six months and this has them all concerned as well. No matter how much I eat I keep losing weight. Although lately I have noticed I gained some, from 130lbs to 154lbs. now, but then I as off hormones while in the hospital.

Doctors are now requesting I get a live in caretaker for myself due to losing the rest of my sight and the medical problems that are going on. I live alone in a one bedroom apartment on the third floor with no elevator. The stairs are good for me though.

Positive outlook of all of this is that I came out to my mother who was visiting and helping me out. She took it better than I thought, she did have a few drinks before I told her. I have a new therapist too, she is very proactive in helping me and is very caring. In a way losing the rest of my sight has a hidden blessing, I am dressing more feminine in public now. Wearing tops and and a bra and as soon as I find a good purse will be lugging that along too. Since I cannot see peoples expressions and reactions it is no big deal to me. What is most important is that I know who I am, a WOMAN!!

Recently I came across a book that I hightly recommend to all, it is named "The Color Of Sunlight". By Michelle Alexander. It is about the relationship of a totally blind transwoman and her cartaker who is the author of the book.

This is what is going on with me right now and would like to come home and stay this time.

Love,

Susan

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Hey Little Sis,

I am so sorry to hear about all of the health problems but I am so glad that you have not lost your indomitable spirit.

You my lovely sister will make it - you will not allow any obstacle to even delay you.

I am here for you now as always - you are in my thoughts and my prayers.

You know I love you and that will never change, Sis.

Take care and keep us informed.

Love ya,

Big Sis, Sally

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Guest sarah f

Suzie you are part of the family here and you are always welcome here on the site. Glad to see you back and at home. I am sorry to here about all of your medical problems. I hope everything is ok now and no problems in the future. Welcome back.

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Guest Donna Jean

Suzie!

OMG! YOU"RE BACK!

Oh, Dear girl....I'm so sorry to hear of your problems...

It seems like a time that you should really be with your support system now...

And that's what we are!

Huggs

Donna Jean

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Guest Chandra

Hey Suzie,

I'm so glad to see your back with us.

As I'm sure you know, were all here for you Suzie and wish for all the best for you.

Take care.

Love, Chandra

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Guest NatashaJade

Hi Suzie!

Welcome back! I'm really sorry to hear about your difficulties, but your spirit shines through. I hope things improve for you.

luv

Gin

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Hi Suzie! Welcome back to Laura's, Dear! I'm one of the new ones that joined since you have been here, and just starting my journey.

The walls got repainted a bit, and some of the furniture had to be moved some, but everyone seems to be settling in. If you would like to know more about what happened, please search for the post topic 'Host Issues' by Laura.

I'm 52, and caregiver for my father who is now 90. Live in a rural area, so some things just aren't too readily available, but I was really fortunate to have found a nice therapist who is familiar with Gender Issues, and is totally supportive.

Please tell us more when you have the chance!

Hugs!

Opal

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Guest Angelgrlsue

Thank you for all your warm welcome, it means a lot to me. I have made an appointment with my endocrinologist for this Thursday evening. I will let you all know what turns out afterwards. My good trans friend Lyn is letting me stay over at his place when I am finished with the doctor.

Hugs,

Suzie

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Welcome back, Suzie! I'm so glad you now have the time to visit with us. I do wish that your health was better, but it sounds like you have a great attitude, and that's half the battle right there.

You'll be back to your old self in no time, I'm sure.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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