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Never, Never Should I Have Come Back

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

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Never should have come back

Never should have

I should have stayed in Colorado

Should have got my own place

Never should have come back

Never should have

Now he's saying you have to go

Have to go

And I can stay

Can stay

But no no

I don't want that

But that doesn't make things better

Do they mum?

DO THEY?

I came back and brought hell into your life again

Hell into you life again

You were glad to have me gone

You didn't want me to come back

Come back oh no

But here I am

I am here

And you don't like it

I mess everything up for you

Everything everything

He's saying a week

A week for you to be packed

But oh not me

I can stay

But I don't want to

As much as you think that I do

Oh you think I wan to stay

You say it's my fault

Yes yes you do

I know it is

I know I know

I know it is and I am sorry

I will be gone

Oh yes I will

As soon as I can

Out of your life

Then you can do as you need to

Do as you want

Without me

Without me

In your way

It will be as though

As though I was never born

You will be free from your child

Your problem child

Oh I'll be gone

As though I was never born

You'll forget me soon

You'll forget you had a third child before your baby boy

You'll forget that I was ever here

Your baby boy will have taken my place

My baby brother will be the man that I wish to be

You will have him

Oh yes you will

And it will be as though

As though

You only had three children

Only three

The fourth the one that came third will be gone

Be gone gone

And you will forget me

Over time

I won't be around to ruin your life no more

No more

No more

Never should have come back

Never never should have

Never never should have come back to you

Never should have

I know it's my fault

I am sorry

I will be gone soon

You will forget me mum

Soon enough

It will be as though I never existed

Goodbye mum

Lee-Asher Geo-James

7/2/2010

6:21PM EST

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Guest sarah f

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I am sorry Lee that you are having to go through this. I hope it gets better soon for you. In the mean time stick with us and just vent whenever it gets tough.

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I am sorry Lee that you are having to go through this. I hope it gets better soon for you. In the mean time stick with us and just vent whenever it gets tough.

What's the point?

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What's the point?

The point is to show your family and anyone else that blames you for something that you can do this on your own. You are a strong man and now isn't the time to let yourself get down. Now is the time to show everyone what kind of man you are. You are strong and you can do this. I believe in you even if you don't right now. I believe you can do anything you set your mind to.

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The point is to show your family and anyone else that blames you for something that you can do this on your own. You are a strong man and now isn't the time to let yourself get down. Now is the time to show everyone what kind of man you are. You are strong and you can do this. I believe in you even if you don't right now. I believe you can do anything you set your mind to.

I'm not strong. Never have been, at least that's how it feels. *sigh*

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What's the point?

That you're a great guy with a kind and giving heart. There aren't enough of those in the world.

You don't get to choose your parents-it isn't your job to make your mother happy. Not your fault- she's not.

So PM me if you need to. I am going to be away for an hour or two but I'll be here after that.

You CAN do this. You must be so tired of things going wrong right now, but you know how many people care about you. Are here to hold you up. It isn't only yourself you hurt -it's the whole family here at Lauras. And if you fall you also fail all those you have helped and into the future all those you could have helped.

IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!

How about that -JJ does yell. Yell back if you want-but I need to be heard.

Your fault is what you do about it hon. Your fault is if you don't find the strength to keep fighting.

Even when you're tired. Tired of it all. But you are not a failure-as long as you don't give up you can't fail. You can get knocked down-no question-but you just keep going on. One breath after another.

I love you.

Keep holding on.

YOU"RE the point!!

Love & Huggs

JJ

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That you're a great guy with a kind and giving heart. There aren't enough of those in the world.

That's all that's good.

You don't get to choose your parents-it isn't your job to make your mother happy. Not your fault- she's not.

She wouldn't be down if I didn't come back. None of this would be happening.

So PM me if you need to. I am going to be away for an hour or two but I'll be here after that.

You CAN do this. You must be so tired of things going wrong right now, but you know how many people care about you. Are here to hold you up. It isn't only yourself you hurt -it's the whole family here at Lauras. And if you fall you also fail all those you have helped and into the future all those you could have helped.

I just want to go. It's only the people that care that is keeping me here... I don't want to hurt anyone... That is the ONLY reason that I am still here...

IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!

How about that -JJ does yell. Yell back if you want-but I need to be heard.

Ow my ears. I don't want to yell. I am all out of energy to do so. And it feels like it's my fault. I am always being told that it is.

Your fault is what you do about it hon. Your fault is if you don't find the strength to keep fighting.

I honestly don't want to fight anymore. It's getting so hard to even care. Nothing is going right as you know. I'm ready to say goodbye but I know that I can't do that because of all the people that would be hurt. Like I said, it's the only thing that keeps me going.

Even when you're tired. Tired of it all. But you are not a failure-as long as you don't give up you can't fail. You can get knocked down-no question-but you just keep going on. One breath after another.

I love you.

Keep holding on.

YOU"RE the point!!

Love & Huggs

JJ

I will try. I love you too JJ. I'll try and see it as me being the point. Love and hugs

Braveheart

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