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I'm not usually a big fan of rap. Eminem being the only artist I can listen to who raps. But I find myself writing things that in my head come out as rap so. And here is an example of a rap I've just written.

See this is how it starts

Hearing these stories

As it plays the strings wrapped around my heart

Can’t you hear the drumming coming from inside of me?

As I’m riddled with anxiety

Panic struck I know

I know I gotta take my chance before it goes

Gotta be the man and rule the show

If I look inside of me

Maybe I’ll have an epiphany

But within this idea of insanity

It’s getting kinda hard to believe in anything

And people keep telling me

I’m a loser before I play the game

Then the word loser gets attached to my name

I’m panic struck I know

I know I gotta take my chance before I goes

Gotta be the man and rule the show

I can dress all smart

Shoes suit and tie

But it’s all a God dang lie

Cause I’m a mess inside

Brush my hair perfectly to the side

Looking like a real stand up guy

But I know what I hide

I’m panic struck I know

I know I gotta take my chance before I goes

Gotta be the man and rule the show

But feel so broken

So many words unspoken

And I don’t really know why

Should have said it, should’ve said it the first time

But instead I've myself mixed up in a lie.

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That's really good, Matt.

Just remember though, that you are in no way a loser. Never, nada, nyet.

We all hide parts of ourselves, Matt. You are not alone in that.

Love

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Mikku

Heh, im not a big fan of rap myself but if this were to be in that tone, its still great regardless... i can really relate to this to a pretty big degree... i kind of equate it to a naked feeling, every time im in public i feel naked >.> but anyway... very nice ^^

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Thanks for the comment Mikku

It's sad you can relate. But I'm glad my writing is able to do that. :)

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Guest Elizabeth K

MATTY!

Dang - you are good at that!

Gotta be the man and rule the show

Matty - you ARE a man - you ARE ruling the show - it's all bluster for EVERYONE! We all have the urge to run-and-hide just when everyone wants us to go on stage. We paste on a huge smile. pull our fake confidence outta some deep recess in us - and...

WE RULE THE SHOW!

So yes - it's a 'lie' of sorts - but we do it anyway. We have no choice... then one day? It's not a lie anymore and we are so amazed!!!

Lizzy

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Guest Opal

Hi Matt,

I am not too much into Rap, but really enjoyed some of the routines that M.C. Hammer used to do.

You do have a knack for Rap lyrics (if that is the proper way to say it), hope you post more!

Hugs,

Opal

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MATTY!

Dang - you are good at that!

Gotta be the man and rule the show

Matty - you ARE a man - you ARE ruling the show - it's all bluster for EVERYONE! We all have the urge to run-and-hide just when everyone wants us to go on stage. We paste on a huge smile. pull our fake confidence outta some deep recess in us - and...

WE RULE THE SHOW!

So yes - it's a 'lie' of sorts - but we do it anyway. We have no choice... then one day? It's not a lie anymore and we are so amazed!!!

Lizzy

Your right really.

I guess confidence has to start with a lie.

Geo, get here now. This is what I was trying to say to you the other day! :P

We have to actually get out there even though we feel like rubbish in order to actually feel good! You listening, son? ;)

because each little thing we do builds our confidence slowly and then it becomes strength and so on!

It's called the 'ripple effect'

You do one thing it helps another, that then helps another problem and it builds up like that.

Cheers for the comments. :)

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Hi Matt,

I am not too much into Rap, but really enjoyed some of the routines that M.C. Hammer used to do.

You do have a knack for Rap lyrics (if that is the proper way to say it), hope you post more!

Hugs,

Opal

Thanks for the comment. :)

Yea rap is actually normally pretty rubbish if I'm honest. But perhaps that is because what they tend to rap about.

I tend to prefer rock music. And a lot of lyrics I write are with rock music in mind. But sometimes I start writing and in my head it's coming out as a rap instead. Sometimes it's a mixture of the two like one of my fave bands Linkin park does.

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Thanks for the comment. :)

Yea rap is actually normally pretty rubbish if I'm honest. But perhaps that is because what they tend to rap about.

I tend to prefer rock music. And a lot of lyrics I write are with rock music in mind. But sometimes I start writing and in my head it's coming out as a rap instead. Sometimes it's a mixture of the two like one of my fave bands Linkin park does.

Would it be fair to say that the beat, melody, and the rhythm of a song are parts of its body, but the lyrics are the soul of the song?

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Would it be fair to say that the beat, melody, and the rhythm of a song are parts of its body, but the lyrics are the soul of the song?

aye. Very much so.

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