Why Do I Call Myself A Crossdresser?

[Guest Sandy]

I thought I might get the ball rolling for us crossdressers. I will tell you my reasons, then I hope you will tell us yours. I started very young wearing my moms petticoat, I didn't even know what it was, but I loved it. When I started into my early teens, I couldn't wait to visit my cousins house. I just loved trying on my aunt's panties. I never thought of being a woman at the time, but I sure loved their underclothes. When I think back, I realized that I would never make fun of girls like other guys. I would be upset that they would do that. As I got older and married, I would go shopping with my wife any chance I could. I loved looking through the womans clothes with her. I would rather go shopping for clothes, then to sit and watch the superbowl. I always wanted some of my own clothes and the first chance was a holloween party 3 years ago. We went out and found a skirt and a top, but that was only the beginning. I insisted that we do it right and get a bra and panties. I also had makeup put on the night of the party. As I dressed that night, I had the most wonderfull feeling flow through me. By the time the party was over, I finally realized I have been hiding my true self for all my life. Throughout my life I had often wished I was a woman. I have often prayed that if I died, please let me come back as a woman. But here is the funny part, all these feelings seperately never made any sense. But when they all came together, I felt an inner peace. I so wish I could go further, but I can't. I have a wife who is the world to me and I would be crushed without her love. The question then is if she would accept me and let me be Sandy now and then, would I? For sure. How far do I want to take it, I don't know. I guess someday I would love to go somewhere and be completly made up like a woman by a expert. Now that I write this, I realize that I am still very confused and I may be more than a crossdresser. If you have any thoughts on who I might actually be after reading this, please let me know. But also, lets hear your story.

Sorry I became long winded

Sandy

[Guest SilverArrow]

I'm not sure what to say on your story, but here goes for mine:

I started when I was 14, first beginning to hit puberty. I was alone in the house and found my mom's panty hose, and for some inexplicable reason decided to try them on. The feeling was wonderful. I began a routine of wearing a pair for an hour or so before the rest of my family got home for a little while, until one day I had my first ejaculation. While still wearing them. This wasn't provoked or anything, and I had no clue what was happening (I hadn't really gone through the sex explanations yet), but that's for a different story. The important thing is I freaked out, hid the soiled undergarment and went on as usual for the next while.

Eventually I came to the point where I had to start up again, except from this point on things started to escalate. I began trying on panties, and worked my way up to bras, then into other clothing. I started stealing some stuff from my mom (stuff that was never worn anyway), and even purged a few times, mostly stuff that I had destroyed in one way or another anyway, but still wanted to rid myself of everything. But the urges always came back.

This went on until I met my first girlfriend, about a year and a half ago (I was 18). She had this thing for liking guys in drag, and what do you know it, she found one. I of course could never say anything openly for a while, but I let her 'convince' me into doing some things like wearing her school kilt outside for a block, dressing for her in private, etc. I eventually outed myself to her, and she thought it was interesting. I think she's what interested me in outerwear more than anything, and also what gave me the urges to want to go public.

My first public appearance (technically) was at an Anime North convention, where I crossplayed in a full school uniform (pigtails too), although I don't count this since it was a cosplay and not really in the public eye. I still loved the thrill so much that I did it again the next year, only upgraded to a prom dress (the same gf's, although we had since broken up by then. We're still friends though, so was ok with me borrowing her dress). I went all out with makeup and a cheap wig this time, and my friends found it pretty awkward, but passed it off as a weird chance occurrence and not any sort of real serious interest. That year I also started wearing girls' jeans in public a bit, although not often. I began painting my nails for a short period soon after, but I tended to give off more of an emo look than what I was after so I soon dropped it.

I went back into the privacy of my closet again for another year, and now I have recently become restless once more. This time however, I've decided that I am not going to just sit and whine about it, but rather do something. This is why I have outed myself to a few close friends and joined the forums, and am planning on going out in drag soon. I have begun seriously shopping for things since my friends are so supportive and shop with me, so I think I'll be taking the next steps quite soon.

[Guest Steveanna]

Hi CDs,

I have been battling depression for 10 years and was not winning the battle very well. I was on a web page for people that are on antidepressants and still are having trouble and it was giving advice to people on various things to try on our own. For men like myself it suggested to try to drop your macho manism and try to search for your femme side of your personality. I started by buying panties, lip stick, panty hose. I soon found out how GREAT I felt with these femme items on. I now have purchased many more items and enjoy wearing all of them when I can. My depression is so much better and I no longer am occupied with menacing negative memories from my old maintenance man background. It's even nicer to be clean and pretty!

Steveanna

[Guest Sandy]

Come on crossdressers..There have been 55 views so far, that means there should be 55 stories of why you think your a crossdresser. We all have a story and each story may help someone else discover themselves as they write. I was so scared the first time I wrote on this site, but I will tell you that a great relief will come over you as you open up to others like yourself.

[Guest baileyh]

I started when I was 10,a pair of my mom's heels.I was walking in them and my parents came home.They saw something was not right and took me to a gender specialist thinking I was transsexual.I was not and was diagnosed with being a crossdresser.I basically told the gender specialist that I liked wearing anything feminine sometimes.My mom accepted it right away knowing this was me and bought me some girl's clothing.My father hated it and felt he raised a sissy boy.He did leave and did not come back.My parents never married and my mom was glad of this.

[gennee]

I am a late comer to crossdressing having started three years ago at age fifty-six. I was a typical male doing male things. I played sports, got married, participated in church and civic activities. When I hit my thirties the feeling of being different came into mind. I never connected it to gender and it was always a fleeting thought.

It was 2001 or 2002 when the feelings of being different was stronger. I took it from the perspective that there was some special mission that I was to complete in my life. I wanted to bust out of my mild mannered mode but bust out to what I didn't know. It was in 2005 that I got this crazy urge to try on my wife's skirt. I never wore women's articles growing up. I have had crazy urges before. After I satisfied them the urges went away. I tried on my wife's skirt, thinking that the urge would go away after I did. Instead it grew stronger. I tried on blouses, bras, skirts, dresses, and panties. Ater a few days I realized that I was hooked.

I sought counseling because I thought that I was weird. It was revealed that I was a crossdresser. I was in denial for several weeks. I kept saying that the urge would go away. My body was telling me otherwise. Finally I admitted to myself that I am a crossdresser. All the inner turmoil and tension dissipated. I have been at peace with that decision ever since.

Today, I am a happy crossdresser and transgender. I have come out to my wife and son. I haven't been this happy in years. I cannot dress 24/7 but I feel feminine much of the time. I feel that I may be a transgenderist though I cannot take hormones because of health reasons. I feel liberated and complete. I don't feel any shame or guilt about who I am.

Gennee

[Guest Joanne Pooler]

It really looks like we all share a lot of experiences.Early experimenting and unqustioning desires,things to be acted upon because...well,they felt right.

It's funny how the simple act of an adolescent-trying on Mom's clothes-can lead to a lifetime of exploration of one's sexuality.What's right, and what's...not so.Questioning one's sexuality ,I think,leads to a more fulfilling life.

As with any non-comforming lifestyle,there are challenges.Were meeting those challenges worth it?I'm sure we all have our own answer to that.

Keep questioning,keep searching,keep experimenting...it's who you are...or may be.

Love you all,Joanne

[Guest i am Allison]

hi here mine

i started when i was 10 i would take my moms panties and put them on but only for 1 hour. then panties weren't enough i would put on bras that went on for a bout 3 years and the time got longer. then i started wear pants and shrits too. i woild take them from the stuff they were going to give to goodwill that went on for 2 years and then i went on to dresss. i did this to the age of 17 about to trun 18 then my parents walked in on me and filped out. they dont want me to be dressing up and said it was wrong and not right to do. after that they took a lot of my privacy and wouldnt even let me have a lock be cause they didnt want me to try to hide it. i moved out and messed up bad and now im back with my parents but i get to have a lock

[Guest amber26]

I was about 7 or 8 the first time I dressed in girls clothes. It was my sister's one piece bathing suit. It was hanging in the bathroom and I couldn't resist. After that any time I was home alone I dressed up and loved it. My sister was a year and a half older than me and we were about the same size - so I had a complete wardrobe! She had a dress that I absolutely loved. It was a floral print, with a nice little v-dip in the front and the short skirt flared out at the bottom. I would wear it with her pink bra and panties. She also had a short red plaid skirt with a cute little sweater that was my second choice. Always wore panties, bra, pantyhose and shoes. She only had kitten heels and I wished for something more.

She also had little nighties I used to wear to bed. Our aunt used to give her these little nighties but she preferred shorts and a tee. But those nighties got plenty of use by me.

I had to give it up for a while, but now I have a great closet full of femme clothes! When I am home, I am in one of my favorite girl outfits. I love high heels - at least 4" and garter belts and hose - I even have bought a corset! I love mini skirts and mini dresses - anything that looks a little slutty. But I never got out slutty. When I go out it is always something a woman would wear to work, maybe a little shorter.

amber

[Guest Vieja]

Hi to all, I guess I was about 10 when I started sneaking into my sisters underwear and eventually getting some of my own. This is how it went for about the next sixty years simply acquiring more panties and wearing them when I felt it was safe. Then I began to acquire a complete wardrobe of skirts, blouses, bra, garter belt, stockings and even some wigs. About three years ago I met another cross dresser and at her house I dressed for the first time completely in the presence of another. She was a great help with the wig and makeup and the experience was breath taking and exhilarating. Since I have retired my opportunities to dress are few and far between but I still manage to dress and go mall walking occasionally.

Vieja

[Guest Kim Smith]

All great stories!

I started, it seems, a little later than most - when I was in High School. I had two sisters and a mom (Dad left when I was 12) and maybe I felt left out as my older sisters would walk around in just panties and a bra. I would sneak into dirty clothes piles when no one was home and try things on.

The urges came and went over the years, but have come back stronger in the last 3 or 4 years (after turning 45.)

For me, it is a transformation of mind and spirt as well as body when I dress, so I like to dress completely. Wearing any male items, even sneakers, is an impediment to this transition. And the more items I can wear that are exclusively female (pantyhose, bra, skirt, heels) the better the experience.

I have often wished for real breasts, but beyond that I am not interested in any physical changes.

I also don't know how far I would go in dressing if I was magically transported to an alternate universe where that was acceptable. I would definitley spend some time 24/7 to get a full feeling of femininity for an extended period. But I would, I believe, eventually come back to being the self my friends and family know. i think it is that uncertainty that scares our loved ones when we come out to them. Even I don't know what would happen if allowed to fully explore this part of me.

[Guest Laura1977]

When I was very young, maybe 5 or so, I started pretending to be a girl. I would tuck my penis between my legs and go show my mom or dad. At first they reacted with "Look, it's a girl!" After a while they got uncomfortable and made me stop. I used to imagine that I was Laura Ingalls when I was a kid, too, when my parents read those books to me. When I was 12 or so, my parents moved from the city to a farm in the country, where I had no friends, and I spent a lot of time alone, and I can remember trying to decide whether I liked "boy" or "girl parts" better. I can't remember what I decided, though. I never had the chance to crossdress, though. When I was 22, on New Year's Eve, my now-ex wife convinced me to try on one of my mom's dresses (we were playing truth or dare with one of her friends), and took a picture of me, and then showed my whole family and they all laughed at me.

Over the 7 years with her, that fantasy of being a woman hid just out of sight. Every now and then, I would try on some of her panties or something, but I was always careful never to let her know about it. Once she found out that I liked her vibrator, and she threatened to tell our friends. She held it over me to get me to do what she wanted. We had two daughters together. After the divorce, I had no access to any women's clothing, and I was way too timid to go buy any, though the fantasy was still there. For a couple of years, I was single but still very much bruised from that relationship.

About three years ago now, I met my current wife. She has been so loving and supportive that sometimes I don't know how to handle it. She kept suggesting to me that I might like to try on some women's clothes, and I always ran from the subject, but it continued to haunt my dreams. This past New Years Eve, we got really drunk. My wife passed out on the bed, but I stayed up and kept drinking, and eventually I put on one of my wife's skirts, a halter top, and thong. When she woke up and saw me, she was a little freaked out. Since then, I usually dress up once a week. It's like this thing was hidden just below the surface for years, and it has finally come un-buried. I still have yet to get my own clothes, though, and that bothers me, but it will come with time.

[Guest jaymie]

I don't know my reasons other than that i really enjoy femininty and it feels right and always has. Like Laura, i started young around 5 tucking and pretending to be a girl...i even dreamt of being Laura Ingalls too (as well as Wonder Woman and Cleopatra amongst others...) I would wear women's clothes and put on makeup whenever i could (mostly my moms), but always very secretively because as much as it felt right, i was ashamed at the thought of being caught. Carried on that way for years, but now finally i am "out'' to someone! my girlfriend who encourages me for the most part and is cool with me getting a wardrobe. Like i said i don't know why i dress, and i don't know if i will ever go any further ie. living full time, transitioning etc. though i often think about that too. Anyway i guess that's my input on this

[Guest XCrystalX]

I don't have much of a story. It started 1 year ago (15) when my current girlfriend painted my nails. I liked it and kept on with that. Then a little while later I got her panties and wore them. She thought it was hot and I loved the feel of all the feminineness. Latly I've gotten to wearing eyeliner and bras also when I'm In doors but I haven't gotten any excitement from outside. Not yet anyways haha. I need to get some more clothes and see what looks nice

~Erika

[Guest Ashlee]

My story is much the same as many others. I started out very young and have really enjoyed finding the feminine side of me.

I love to dress up and spend an entire day at home.

I also love to dress up and go out shopping!

CDing just makes me feel good inside. I'm more comfortable, and my stress level is non-existant after a day of dressing up.

Its my life, I live it and I enjoy it!

Ashlee

[Guest filygirl]

Hi all

I as well as many here struggle with the girl inside she never seams to be content with staying a mere allusion of memory. She has constantly tormented me to the point of dulsional behavor can't find the middle groung between him and her these thing in me have been such a burden. The days are long and the nights never end giving in to her demands is at best a temporary releif from my touchured soul, always returning to the guilt of submission to abridled pervaseiness. I right to ease the pain within the mind. The questionung of ones self is the delema to which can not be answered within ones own existance.

My story is much the same as many others. I started out very young and have really enjoyed finding the feminine side of me.

I love to dress up and spend an entire day at home.

I also love to dress up and go out shopping!

CDing just makes me feel good inside. I'm more comfortable, and my stress level is non-existant after a day of dressing up.

Its my life, I live it and I enjoy it!

Ashlee

[Carolyn Marie]

Thanks, everyone, for sharing your stories. I too started very young. I remember as early as 8-9 years old thinking I wanted to be a girl. In my teens I started sneaking into my mother's closet and trying on her dresses and slacks and shoes. I always thought I returned everything to her closet exactly as it was, but she knew somethng was amiss. Mother's have secret radar or something One day, instead of laying out my own clothes on my bed in the morning, she put out a skirt and matching sweater, I guess as a test. I put them on and loved it, but in the end I chickened out and instead of showing myself to my mother in the skirt, I handed them back and made some joke about her confusing me with my sister. She never spoke of it again.

In my 30's I lived alone for a time and I let my Carolyn-self come out again. I bought lots of stuff on the then-new Internet and wore dresses around the house, but never tried make-up or wigs and never went out. I wore panty hose under my clothes at work for a time and loved the feel of that very much. Soon thereafter I met my wife-to-be, and in a great fear of being discovered, I bagged up all my lovely clothes and made a gift to the Goodwill. I still cringe when I think of that.

I've been married for 19 years and have one child, now 16. I've kept Carolyn bottled up all this time but she has once again demanded my attention, and won't be ignored. I love my family and don't want to risk losing them, but not expressing my female side is killing me too. So here I am at Laura's trying to figure this all out and hoping to find friends who understand what I'm going through. And I have found friends here! Yay!

I've never told anyone in the world until finding Laura's, and its a great relief to finally talk about it. I want to start dressing again, but I have to figure out the logistics of doing so without telling my wife, who is somewhat fragile in temperment and would definitely freak if she found out. Ironically, she loves my taste in women's clothes and lets me shop for Christmas and B-Day presents for her. Those are some of my happiest days, when I can stroll through the women's section at the department stores and not feel funny about it. I just wish I could try on the things I get for her before she wears them!

As for why? I have no better idea than anyone else. It just makes me feel whole, and feel good, and at peace with myself. That seems to be a common theme for most of us. Anyway, sorry to drone on like this, but talking is very cathartic for me.

I welcome any PM's from you all. Bless you and keep those posts going

Love.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Emily H]

I started around age 11, in fifth grade. There had been an episode of Law and Order, involving a MTF committing a murder. She was describing when she was younger, her dad had caught her (him at that time) in makeup and her mom's bra and skirt, and he got a beating for it, and was told to never do it again. For some reason, it made me think.....what would that be like, wearing a bra, or panties. The thought had never occurred to me, ever once before. The next day, after school, from the dirty laundry I got a pair of panties and a bra. My mom, at the time, much larger than me, the panties barely fit at all, and I only put my arms into the bra- I didn't realize you had to strap it in the back.

But still, I like that, all I did was stand in front of the mirror though....It felt weird, but at the same time, it felt okay.

I remember, I even looked up stuff online, about other people wearing these things, but since I did not have my own computer then, I did not really do it too much.

Eventually it just felt weird wearing my mom's stuff, and like i said, ti didn't' fit too well. But one day, months after not dressing at all, there is this box, full of women's undergarments in a bunch of different styles and materials. i believe it was from a long while ago, when my mom was younger- it all fit me really nicely. God I wish I had taken more. but I am glad with what I have, some sexy stuff, average everyday stuff too. So i wore those things, along with mom's clothing, when I got the chance, and felt like doing it.

Even now, the feeling to dress like a woman only comes sometimes. There are days it just seems pointless, days I put the stuff on, but don't really get anything from it, days I dress and don't notice anything really different about it, and day I just don't want to take it off, i just want to stay that way.

Guys never turn me on, not even when I am dressed up. Women always are who turns me on. Being dressed as a girl does too, usually if its something sexy I put on, or if I'm just starting to get dressed, the anticipation of the clothing, feels pretty good.

When dressed up, I don't try makeup, not usually, one time I did, and having no knowledge of makeup, I managed to get myself looking more feminine, but no where near "Look i"m a woman". I'd love to have real breasts, but only when i am a woman. As a guy,...i just like being a guy. There are just times I feel more feminine, times I feel not feminine at all, and don't want to either.

So, that is why, I'm a crossdresser.

Oh, and now I am older, all of my mom's current stuff fits me.

[Guest cynthia]

I feel like a woman inside, and getting dressed accentuates these feelings and brings them to the surface. When I'm dressed I feel happy and at peace with the world. I'd go crazy without it. That's why I crossdress.

Cynthia

[Guest PoNy]

I think I have always carried a feminine side

when I was a kiddo other boys liked Batman and spiderman but I prefered my little ponies (still do )

while other boys liked blue I liked pink

and I just liked girly things but I was still a boy who acted like a boy

my crossdressing fun started basicly around when I was 15 when I told my girlfriend that I would love to wear girls clothes

at first I was really afraid that she would think of me disgusting but surprisingly she got all turned on by the Idea me wearing her skirt

well after I wore some of her clothes I really got hooked on

soon after I bought my own clothes , some tight girlie shirts with cute logos,panties etc

and now its been 3 years since that time and half of my clothes are girls clothes

what I also find interesting was that about a year ago I broke up with my girlfriend and almost Immediately found another one she also likes me to crossdress

I feel so lucky

but yeh thats about that

[Guest virginiaJ]

when i was about 8-9 i decided to be funny and see if anyone would notice i had put on a bra under my boy clothes. i have no idea why i did it i just saw it and put it on. So i walked into the living room where mom was watching t.v. and of course she saw it and basically told me never again. I never thot of it again for about 3 years when my brother and his wife came to stay for couple months. They left for a couple days and before my brother left he took me to the side and told me i could there room while they were on vacation. But he made it very clear that i was not to go near his wifes clothing. That sparked my interest for good. She is only 4'11" and had this long gown in their closet. It was so comfortable that i slept in it nearly every nite til they came back. Ever since then ive always had this desire for womens clothing. I would get me a few things that were going to goodwill or that i thot noone would miss and "play" for awhile. Then i would start feeling ashamed and throw it all away. I dont know how many times i went through this cycle i just knew it was constant termoil. I never told anyone about this until just a few months ago the urge came back strong as ever and i decided to tell my GF. She was alot more accepting of it than i thot she would be and things are finally starting to come together for me. I feel like i can be my whole self for once instead of always missing some part of me.

[Guest Maryteresa]

I came to crossdressing rather late. When I married, my wife wore minis, as did everyone in the 'sixties. With increasing age my wife now wears very conservative attire and I never get a look at her young legs anymore..

I have always found minis a great turn on, and in my forties I had to spend time studying away from home, and I bought a mini and wore it in my room and admired myself in it.

As my figure has remained youthful I discovered that girls' size 14 fitted me perfectly, and thus began my crossdressing.

I bought tights and 'support' panties to hold them up with, and more minis, of course. That was all I did for a long time until the arrival of the Internet, where I discovered I could buy on line forms, special bras and Femm tops designed for men, i.e. with large shoulders, long length and sleeves to cover hairy arms. Also wigs. I remember when my first wig arrived, and I could look at myself for the first time as a 'girl'.

That was seriously the greatest single turn-on since I had first met my wife all those years ago.

Lastly came femm shoes in big male sizes, and I discovered that UK size 11 feet need US size 13 court shoes to fit into. That's the problem of not being able to try them on in a shop, but what the hell !

I can't entertain very high heels, and two inches is quite high enough. Walking becomes a problem for me in heels higher than that.

There is no anonymity in a small place like Ireland, so closet/garden 'dressing' it has to remain. Passing isn't an option when you start out 6'2" in your bare feet !

[Guest Clora]

I came to crossdressing rather late. When I married, my wife wore minis, as did everyone in the 'sixties. With increasing age my wife now wears very conservative attire and I never get a look at her young legs anymore..

I have always found minis a great turn on, and in my forties I had to spend time studying away from home, and I bought a mini and wore it in my room and admired myself in it.

As my figure has remained youthful I discovered that girls' size 14 fitted me perfectly, and thus began my crossdressing.

I bought tights and 'support' panties to hold them up with, and more minis, of course. That was all I did for a long time until the arrival of the Internet, where I discovered I could buy on line forms, special bras and Femm tops designed for men, i.e. with large shoulders, long length and sleeves to cover hairy arms. Also wigs. I remember when my first wig arrived, and I could look at myself for the first time as a 'girl'.

That was seriously the greatest single turn-on since I had first met my wife all those years ago.

Lastly came femm shoes in big male sizes, and I discovered that UK size 11 feet need US size 13 court shoes to fit into. That's the problem of not being able to try them on in a shop, but what the hell !

I can't entertain very high heels, and two inches is quite high enough. Walking becomes a problem for me in heels higher than that.

There is no anonymity in a small place like Ireland, so closet/garden 'dressing' it has to remain. Passing isn't an option when you start out 6'2" in your bare feet !

i dont post much but here go's

i was 10-11 when me and my friend decided to try on his older sisters bras and panties. he just wanted to try everything. I found a white lace bra and matching panties and instead of putting them on and taking them right off, i put them on and put my clothes back on and just sat there. his dad caught us but since that day i was interested. i tried my moms bras/panties and the day i moved stole a cami from my friends sister.

now i am 15 and im still crossdressing (obviously ) and getting clothes was hard till i came out to a few good friends who in turn gave me some tanks and a dress i have been underware shopping and it was liberating. I consider myself super lucky cause my GF of two years (and running) has been one of the most supporting people. she was the first to know, the first to give me a bra,and recently trying on dresses with me!!!

i dress whenever i can mostly underwear and bras under my clothes and im still confused as to wether im just a crossdresser or if im looking for more but its been great just telling my story!!!!!

[Guest Okapi]

I started crossdressing in March, and It was after I saw crossdresser videos on Youtube. Originally I thought those people were weird. I eventually tried on some of my mom's clothes and liked it. I have also tried on some of my neighbour's clothes. I havn't crossdressed in 2 weeks because I feel disgusted and ashamed after I do it.

[Guest rachael1]

Wow

Great stories with a common theme which are similar to my own experiences.

I also started experimenting at a young age probably around six. Dressing in my sisters clothes or my mothers whenever i had the opportunity

I ocassionally wished i had been born a girl and prayed that i would be magically transformed during the night; yet at the same time terrified it would actually happen

I suppressed these urges in my late teens and thought i had put it all behind me apart from the odd dress up at fancy dress parties

This all changed about 9 months ago when the desire to express myself as a woman came back with a vengeance. Since then I dress whenever an opportunity presents itself

I don't know where all this will lead as I am finding that I need to let Rachael out more and more often and am more at peace with myself when I am her.

Will i be content with just crossdressing every now and then or will this evolve into something more, i guess only time will tell.

In the mean time i am having a lot of fun and discovering more about myself each day.

lol Rachael