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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

The tears fall down my face

As I see how fake you all are

If you really cared about me

You would not break your promises to me

You wouldn't tell me your other children are better than me

You would accept me for who I truly am and shut your bloody mouth

Do you remember

Back in April

You said you'd call me back

I heard nothing from you

NOTHING!

My birthday came and went

You didn't even call

Then I talk to your mother

She says you would have sent me something had you known my address

You had my bloody phone number

Were you too lazy to pick up a phone and call

No that's right your full of broken promises

I sucked it up on father's day

I gave you a ring

You were at the fathers day fishing derby

No way to reach you

She said you'd call me back

I got your call 2 days later

We didn't talk long

I gave you my address

You said you'd send something

You also said you'd call me again soon

Where's that thing you said you'd send

Where's those calls

You said you'd visit me before I left for Colorado

You came early in the morning

When I was still asleep

You said you'd come back

But you didn't

it's been over a year Daddy

You said you'd go to my graduation

You never showed

Then you said you'd go to my graduation/18th birthday party

You weren't there either

Broken promises

That's all you are

YOU ARE A

BROKEN PROMISE DADDY!

You're no better!

No better than him!

You always call him your baby boy

Your son

You speak of him as though he's your only one

What about me?

You tell me that my sister is better than me

She lies

She steals

She bloody punched me!

You said you were glad she did

What kind of mother are you

You are sick!

You tell me over and over

You don't love me

You tell me I deserve all the bloody crap in my life

You hit me

What kind of mother does that

You play games, mind games

Knowing I can't handle them

You go back to Stacey

When you are mad at me

Calling me she

I am NOT a she

I am NO LONGER Stacey

No longer what you thought as your daughter

Your daughter never existed

She was nothing but a body

Learn that

She never

EXISTED

Just your son

You have two

Don't forget me

You are no better than my father

You say you'd rather I be gay

A lesbian

I'm gay alright Mimi

But not a lesbian

I can't be a lesbian

For I am not a girl

I don't bloody care

If you say I'll never be a boy

Learn it

Get it

Understand it

Accept it

Stop calling me Stacey

Stop calling me your granddaughter

Stop

I never was a girl

She never existed

You say you're hurt because I don't call

Have you ever once took in that maybe I'm hurt

Hurt that you won't accept me

That you hurt me with your

"You would look so good in a dress that just barely covers your bottom"

"You would look good in a topless shirt"

"You would look good showing your stomach"

I don't want to hear it

Because I know I would

But it's not who I am

I'm a boy

Always have always will be

Accept me or lose me

I'll leave that up to you

Respect me or lose me

Again, I'll leave that up to you

Why can't you love me

Why can't you accept me

Why am I such a problem

Maybe we are all better off without me

Goodbye...

Lee-Asher Geo-James

7/7/2010

11:06PM EST

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OH LEE

I am so very sorry you have this deep pain inside your heart.

I wish I could be there to give you a HUG and hold you tight, and let you know you are loved dear one.

No matter if no one in your biological family cares, WE here are your family TOO!

WE LOVE YOU LEE!!!!!!

((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))

Remember you are never alone, WE are with you always.

You are in my heart Lee

Love always

Your true sister

Ree

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

OH LEE

I am so very sorry you have this deep pain inside your heart.

I wish I could be there to give you a HUG and hold you tight, and let you know you are loved dear one.

No matter if no one in your biological family cares, WE here are your family TOO!

WE LOVE YOU LEE!!!!!!

((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))

Remember you are never alone, WE are with you always.

You are in my heart Lee

Love always

Your true sister

Ree

I wish I had someone to hug me :( I don't have anyone around to do so. :(

So I need as many virtual ones as I can get.

*hugsssssssssssssssssss*

I teared up when I read this :(

Love, Lee

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