It Looks Like Rain

[Guest 91curiouskitten]

It started out as a soft sprinkle. The pain was just a dark cloud up in the sky, ominous and foreboding, but, not a problem, the sprinkle felt nice, somethign new, refreshing, makes you appreciate the sunshine more and more before it turns up. The sprinkle begins to turn into a soft rain. Some grab unmbellas, some cuddle into their friends, their family, some run around, enjoying this pain, it only makes you appreicate it even more. What wa sonce a nice, calm day turns worse, what was once a crows begisn to turn into a group. The rain gets worse, even those who were dancing in it are running for shelter, even the ones with umbellas are fleeing for the comfort fo their family. I try to run, but the rains to poweful, I diddnt think it would get this strong, the winds blown my umbrella away, I can abrely stand against it, the trees are bending, peopel ahve their blinds closed, and are watching movies or relaxing, I'm freezing, the rains broken through my barrier of clothing, Im no logner dry and warm. The winds howling, this is only a sound of whats to come, thunder cracks in the skies, lightning provided the only light I can see, teasing in its fleetness, here, and gone jsut as quickly, guiding me for a split second before forcing me to guess my next steps. The winds to strong, and I'm stumbling, I cant stamnd, my teeth are chattering, this rain is pounding me, its stinigng my skin. I stumble to a bridge of life, on one end, I go about my life, ignore this internal conflit, and try to fit in, the other end has the coastgaurd, tryign to evacuate peopele out, heroes, maybey they can help me! I walk, stumbling and fighting this wind, my tears of pain are masked by this torrential downopur, trees are cracking. ,I've soomehowmanaged to get to the middle fo the bridge, I turn around, jsut for a second to think, and suddenly, the waters up to my knees, I'm trying to swim! I'm trying to go to my own happiness, I scream for them to help me but Im hidden by the sound of this horrible hurricane! Please help me! I beg them to help me, to save me! Please, I just wanna be happy! I'm being carried away by a powerful current, thunder booms around me, I cant see, I can barely keep ym head above water, why isnt anyone helping me? Why am I all alone? Whats going on? I jsut looked back for a second! It was just one second, and now I'm floating away screaming for someoen to help me! Dear God Im drowning!!!! Someoen pelase help me!!!! I fall under the water, the chill is slowly starting to disappear, I look down, and, my wrists, they'er bleeding? What happened? How did that happen before I could stop it? Then, warmth fills me, and I smile, a sad smile, but a smile, my eyes drift close, and I can never open them again. I am drowned in this hurricane of pain and sorrow, it was just a sprinkle though, how did this happen? How did this happen so fast?

"Brandan, brandan are you okay?" my friend asks once more.

I look up, and grin "Yeah man, I'm fine, lets go" I said with a smile and a laugh

He laughs to, and we go about our day.

He will never know, inside, the clouds are startign to get dark, I can feel the beginnigns of a sprinkle, it feels nice, kind of refreshing on this warm day.

[Sally]

Kaylin,

I understand those feelings all too well, just remember that so many of us are here to help you - I cannot be here all of the time but if you feel you are drowning and being swept away call to me and I will come to find you.

Never give up hope or ever believe that no one cares - I do and others do as well.

You are never truly alone.

Love ya,

Sally