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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Dear you,

You aren't real. So I don't know why I allow you to take control of me. You don't exist you are nothing. But yet your words are so great yet full of poison. Hearing your words makes me want to go. And I enjoy that thought. But then there are times where they don't make me want to go and then they are full of poison.

You tell me how worthless I am. Every day. I continue to listen because I now believe them to be real. I can't change that just yet. Not until you are where you need to be. One day you're "you're so worthless" crap won't work on me.

You tell me how stupid I am. And of course I believe you but that's because it's been drilled into my head with your poison ways.

I need to break away from you because you do nothing but cause me problems. The last two nights you have made me feel like I wasn't worth it enough to live. Oh how close you were to succeeding at your little game. I was so close to just ending it all just because of your poison. Your words hurt me so much and I can't take them any more. Please just leave!!! I can't take them any more!!

They are in my thoughts all the time and I don't want them. I am not these things... Or so I am told be REAL people. By PEOPLE! You aren't even a PERSON!! So why do I allow you to take hold...?

Why should I allow it any more... We know why though don't we...? We know why I still cling to your poison of words... Your venom... Why is this you ask? Because... You are apart of me... And right now you are LOW. And there's no way for me to get you HIGH again...

You aren't a PERSON so why should I allow what you have to say control me over what PEOPLE THAT LOVE ME AND CARE ABOUT ME say about me?

Please... Just take your poison and leave me be. Leave me to this alone.

Lee

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Guest miss kindheart

Dear Lee,

<<< hug >>>

I don't know who you wrote this letter for, but it sounds like you have many issues with them.

Having feelings like this in your heart is not good for you.

I hope that you get them resolved soon.

:wub: vanna

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Guest HashBrown

Dear Lee,

<<< hug >>>

I don't know who you wrote this letter for, but it sounds like you have many issues with them.

Having feelings like this in your heart is not good for you.

I hope that you get them resolved soon.

:wub: vanna

It's to self esteem. I have very very low self esteem as you know. And I decided to write it a letter. Not that it did anything to help but felt good in the moment.

I hope that I can get it up some day.

*hugs*

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Guest HashBrown

I will ponder that, and try and think of a way to help you improve your self esteem.

<<< hug >>>

:wub: vanna

Thank you.

You are very helpful.

I love you vanna *hugs*

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Guest miss kindheart

I find that helping others seems to help us in return :)

It give us a sense of purpose and helps to give us self esteem :D

Sooooooooooo try and help some one B)

The more the better :wub:

<<< hug >>>

:wub: vanna

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Guest HashBrown

I find that helping others seems to help us in return :)

It give us a sense of purpose and helps to give us self esteem :D

Sooooooooooo try and help some one B)

The more the better :wub:

<<< hug >>>

:wub: vanna

lol What are you hinting at ;) Just kidding lol kinda :P I'm sure you want me over in Chat more :P

I will try more often. Not today though I am sicky. I have a migraine and don't feel too great...

How about this for self esteem Lee.

You are a beautiful person inside and out and I love you.

Aw. thank you.

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Guest therisa

Dear you,

You aren't real. So I don't know why I allow you to take control of me. You don't exist you are nothing. But yet your words are so great yet full of poison. Hearing your words makes me want to go. And I enjoy that thought. But then there are times where they don't make me want to go and then they are full of poison.

You tell me how worthless I am. Every day. I continue to listen because I now believe them to be real. I can't change that just yet. Not until you are where you need to be. One day you're "you're so worthless" crap won't work on me.

You tell me how stupid I am. And of course I believe you but that's because it's been drilled into my head with your poison ways.

I need to break away from you because you do nothing but cause me problems. The last two nights you have made me feel like I wasn't worth it enough to live. Oh how close you were to succeeding at your little game. I was so close to just ending it all just because of your poison. Your words hurt me so much and I can't take them any more. Please just leave!!! I can't take them any more!!

They are in my thoughts all the time and I don't want them. I am not these things... Or so I am told be REAL people. By PEOPLE! You aren't even a PERSON!! So why do I allow you to take hold...?

Why should I allow it any more... We know why though don't we...? We know why I still cling to your poison of words... Your venom... Why is this you ask? Because... You are apart of me... And right now you are LOW. And there's no way for me to get you HIGH again...

You aren't a PERSON so why should I allow what you have to say control me over what PEOPLE THAT LOVE ME AND CARE ABOUT ME say about me?

Please... Just take your poison and leave me be. Leave me to this alone.

Lee

Lee, I feel like, you're writing about my constant struggle with anxiety and my need to flee, when its too strong for me. You captured my feelings perfectly. And yes, I also have extremely low self-esteem. There are days, I have to force myself, out of my bed and get something eat, to take my meds. Hoping, it offered some healing for you.

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