My Story

[Guest Samson]

I guess i started when i was about 5 or 6. My first crossdressing experience was with my sisters dressing gown and slippers, odd i know, but i guess that i just tried them on out of curiosity. From their i became even more curious about the opposite sex and went onto skirts, underwear, dresses and dressed quite frequently until i was about 9. At this point i began to realise that it wasn't normal for boys and quit completely feeling i would never be able to fit in if i carried this on.

However, afew months before my sixteenth birthday last year, one of my sisters slips found its way into my stack of ironed clothes. Because it felt nice and silky i decided to try it on. Now i am hooked again, and i dress up whenever i can and try to dress fully. Sometimes i even go to bed dressed. I love femmininity and feeling femenine, often to the point were i wish i was a girl, but other times i'm content with being a man.

I'm very confused and worry about how my crossdressing will relate to and effect my future and if it conflicts with my religious views. I'm very worried that it will ruin future relationships, and that ill never be 'normal'. If i could choose from birth i would be a girl, but i would'nt consider myself transexual, i was born a man and thats what ive got to live my life as. It seems to me though that girls get the best of both worlds, they can act very femenine one day and masculine the next and it is normal, where as men always have to be masculine. I guess what i'm saying is that i envy femeninity, i feel it is a better way and try to experience it by crossdressing - I suppose we all just want to feel beautiful from time to time.

Is there anyone else who feels the same way, or has had a similar experience?

[Guest Steveanna]

Hi Samson,

Yes, I too feel the same way like you when I'm dressed in a skirt and full beard! I think we all need to have a touch of feminitity. I'm a better, kinder, balanced person when in touch with my femme side.

Steveanna

[Guest roni]

I identify with your feelings and your story. Like you, I discovered at an early age (5-6) the fulfillment and pleasure of wearing my mother's clothes. I would even make up reasons to stay at home so that I could wear her panties and slips. I drifted for a few years away from this, but later returned to it as a teen. I remember how good it felt to wear my first pantyhose at about 15. I didn't understand why I felt so complete pretending to be female, but it seemed so right. Everything and everyone I knew had very negative thoughts toward a person like me...so I told myself that I must stop.

After all, I am physically a male. But through marriage and children, I would always return to the joy of "dressing up."

It was my secret. I knew of no one else like me. I so wanted to share my feelings with someone, but there was none.

Today in my late 40's, I travel alot. It gives me the wonderful opportunity to be feminine, to dress like a woman (in private), and to enjoy every moment feeling the real me. It's still my secret. I would loose everything and everyone if I went public. I wish I could...but the damage to others would be grave. I believe there are many like us. The internet has given us the chance to share, to support. I have accepted the fact that God has endowed me with a real feminine side of which I embrace. I love wearing soft, beautiful clothes...painting my nails, wearing pretty jewelry...feeling feminine. I choose not to disavow this real part of who I am. I did not make me this way, He did. I encourage and support you as a friend and as a feminine creation of God.

roni

[Guest Keiichi-kun]

Don't say you aren't normal. What is normal anyways? For you normal is dressing up and acting feminine and there is nothing wrong with that. Some women/men (don't know who you like^^ like to have a crossdressing partner As for your religion just remember that you are who you are. Crossdressing does not hurt anybody and it makes you feel good. No true god would punish someone for that. Keep doing what you enjoy and try not to let society tell you what to be