Phantom Genitalia

[Guest Sophie Jean]

This is an issue of concern for me as it relates to Transsexuality, because many times I feel like I am experiencing this.

For Instance, this morning on the drive in, I kept feeling a very specific female body part tingling, and had a vision in my head of exactly what it looks like-but I don't have one. I have never had one, even though I have problems feeling what is really down there. And I know no reason why I'm feeling it now.

It affected me so much that when I walked past the receptionist and said, "Good Morning," she said "Good Morning, R*" like she normally does. But for some strange reason, I was stunned. I was expecting "Good Morning, Sophie," yet I have no reason to expect that. I always present somewhat androgyne at work, and never presented en femme there.

Today, I did a google search on "phantom genitalia" and was rewarded with the following article: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/entrez/query.f...t_uids=17420102

- Sophie Jean

[Guest Kiera]

That is fascinating...

Huggles and Loves

Kiera

[Guest matthew41]

Sophie Jean,

I read the article you sited and I would have to agree with it. I don't know how common it might be to have these sensations but I have experienced it too. I am ftm and for many years I would wake up in the morning feeling that my entire body was completely male for the few moments between sleep and awake. I had my chest surgery done three years ago and have never had any phantom sensations of the now missing breasts. That might be because they never felt like part of my body before they were gone.

Matt

[Rhonda]

I am not real sure of what to 'look' for here, but I do not believe that I have ever experienced the phenomenon, nor do I wish to, given the utter loathing which I fostered for that particular part.

I perceive and feel of course, neural sensation and command of the remaining musculature, but nothing analogous to a 'three-dimensional' mental representation of the complete organ.

[pennyjane]

seems rather common. i wouldn't be to fast to assign any specific cause, may be many of them. anything from a euphoric response to dysphoria to, and don't think i'm too nuts, but, a spiritual awareness of something that really should have been there, or maybe really is there, just on another level. i know, sounds a little goofy, but who knows what's all out there unseen? lotsa love and hope, pj

[princecharmless]

I have experienced this 'phantom genitalia' feeling all my life, never admitting it to anyone until this year. Talking to other ftms online, they all own up to having the same feeling, and are relieved to find they are not the only one in the world. (Isn't the internet a wonderful thing, hooray!) We all agree that packing is strangely comforting and soothing. Good to read the article and know some progress is being made in research and that (quoting from the article) ...' We would emphasise here that transsexuality should not be regarded as "abnormal" but instead as part of the spectrum of human behaviour.'

[Guest Jenny]

If I understand you right, that is what I have felt as well.

[Guest angie]

Whew!

I thought i was the only one to have these feelings.

I have been tucking my unwanted genitalia since the spring of (03)

From before the time i started,i have felt that ghost of the right genitals between my legs.

Therefore the tucking.I had gotten to where i just couldn't take that awful bulge anymore.

Waking up in the morning lying in bed and(Not) seeing that bulge that i do not want...

Makes me feel one whole lot better.I like my image in the mirror better too.More congruent.

And i have been tucking for so very long it is normal in appearance and feelings to me now.

NOT seeing the (P) instead of the(Vee)that is supposed to be there,just gives me some peace of mind.

I know girls who do not tuck.And that i just do not understand at all.

It might be a society thing.

Not being in transiton yet,they feel they (have)to conform to societies view on how a (man)should look.

Yuck!!! No Thank You.

I have insomnia.So cruising the MTF forums,i decided to go back a few months.

And there is Sophie's question.Dang i'm glad i went backwards.

Angie...Oh Yeah, Morning All.

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

I occasionally had phantom-genitals feelings. I'm sure that's because my brain is trying to connect to what it thinks is there. Those feelings were especially obvious when I wasn't focusing on anything.

[Guest Sakura_Stingray]

it is hard to see the link when it will not show up for me, but my opinion is over a period of time one would remember what they had lost, and as a past regression their body copies past experiences into the nerviouse sytem, and in the oposit case, the mental brain pattern would fantasize about the part to a degree it would create a false duplication anomily within the nervous system that acts as a response to the part.......i am not a psycologist major or anything.....but to me this theory seems plausible......either that or have the mafia come in, bop me over the head and drag me to the river......wait what are you--?!?! -gets boped, and dragged to the river-

[Guest kunoichigoddess]

hey this is an experience ive had too, its slowly been coming less and less my freind on ffxi tells me its because ive hidden it so long and since ive opened up it has been coming back slowly but surely. i happen to have some info on the phenomina (Lol cant spell that) one of the theorys is that out brains have a blueprint of exactly how our bodies are supposed to be and theyve even noticed the occurance in ppl with amputations of theyre arms, sometimes pains or slight sensation... i miss having my femme feelings every morning ; ; maybe i should start praying again when i stopped asking god to make me a girl thats about when the occurance happened less and less for me. but ya ever since i have started being more open ive been noticing a lot more feminine occurences i had femmy feelings after playing with my hair in the shower i either hadnt had em in so long or they were REALLY strong that time and it just floored me and i accidently came out to my freinds because i forgot that i was in a guys body and we were all talking about getting married and i just had to say "just remember brides parents pay for the wedding... im gonna cost my parents a lot of money"

[Guest Sakura_Stingray]

now days some people might be dull minded and wouldnt understand what you said ^.^;; i know a few people who only listens to themselves and no one els x.x

[Guest angie]

hey this is an experience ive had too, its slowly been coming less and less my freind on ffxi tells me its because ive hidden it so long and since ive opened up it has been coming back slowly but surely. i happen to have some info on the phenomina (Lol cant spell that) one of the theorys is that out brains have a blueprint of exactly how our bodies are supposed to be and theyve even noticed the occurance in ppl with amputations of theyre arms, sometimes pains or slight sensation... i miss having my femme feelings every morning ; ; maybe i should start praying again when i stopped asking god to make me a girl thats about when the occurance happened less and less for me. but ya ever since i have started being more open ive been noticing a lot more feminine occurences i had femmy feelings after playing with my hair in the shower i either hadnt had em in so long or they were REALLY strong that time and it just floored me and i accidently came out to my freinds because i forgot that i was in a guys body and we were all talking about getting married and i just had to say[ "just remember brides parents pay for the wedding... im gonna cost my parents a lot of money"]

Now That My Dear Was Hilarious !!!

I can just see the looks on their faces...Priceless!!!

Hahaha...

Angie.

[Guest Sakura_Stingray]

well....atleast my theory was backed by scientific evidence.....but i created the theory all on my own v.v

[Guest kunoichigoddess]

yay scientific thinking lol, who says girls are dumb ... other than my dad -.-

[Guest Sakura_Stingray]

heh...im studying to be a computer programmer and a computer graphic artist....but currently im knocking out my core class' at college before i start on the actual fun stuff

[Guest Sophie Jean]

heh...im studying to be a computer programmer and a computer graphic artist....but currently im knocking out my core class' at college before i start on the actual fun stuff

Hi Sakura, I think you will find quite a few of us in the computer profession including Donna Rose and Dr. Lynn Conway.

- Sophie Jean

[Guest Sakura_Stingray]

realy? could anyone whos in he computer craze give me some advice? ^.^;; i havnt started on those comp class's but my work takes up most of my time so im afraid that wouldmake me flunk the class's v.v and my mom lets me use her comp limitedly...my comp doesnot have net access x.x

[Guest kunoichigoddess]

has anybody found a way of possibly inducing femme feelings? i'm sorry but im gonna say it like that from now on because thats what ive always called it

[Guest Lauren~]

That's interesting what your describing, but as far as i know a phantom limb is for example if you lose an arm in an accident, and even though you're arm's not there anymore you still feel it as if it was still there. In other words, what you are saying would make more sense to me if you already had the SRS and was still feeling a phamtom penis that was no longer there. However, that is not what you are saying, but still it's an interesting post.

Melissa 67

[Guest Lauren~]

Don't get me wrong it's great you feel that way at work, but if you feel so strongly like Sophie at work then why don't you try starting to present a little more.