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Trying To Cry - Unsuccessfully


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Guest Maria (Hilda)

Well, the title pretty much says it all.

Stuff has been getting to me lately, not sure why. Just frayed nerves. Its burgybonging me around.

I got so much tension right behind my eyes, I know if I could just cry, a good solid cry, I would feel so much better.

But I can't.

Gah!

Not even thinking of Pooh Bear and Kate Beckingsale dieing in an air collision makes me cry. :<

Guess I'll go twist my ears or something, was hoping I could do it without hurting myself.

But, I needs to cry! Its driving me capookers having all this tension build up!

GRAWRRRR Scurrypuffs this is, grawr!

-closes Air Vent-

Vent over. <3.

Hearts to all. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Guest sarah f

Watch the movie Marly and Me and you will cry. I also cried alot during Armegeddon at the end when Bruce Willis and Liv Tyler were talking about him staying behind. That brings a tear to my eye just thinking about it.

I hope you can let out a good cry and start to feel better soon.

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Guest Donna Jean

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Hey, Baby.....

I wish that I could just give you a bigg hugg and let you go at it...I'd pull your hair back and wipe your eyes...

A good cry can release lots of tension, I cry so easily anymore, but, when I try too hard it's a blank...

I guess that it just has to happen....

Honey...it will come to you.....oK?

HUGGS & LOVE

Donna Jean

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Guest Daiyu Hurst

Sometimes I can cry easily, sometimes not.

I'm embarassed and ashamed tho, that I've never had the close-to-breaking-down bawling over my sister's death in March of this year that should have happened by now. I made a decision to free funds for transition by parting with some possession that I pay a lot to store. I cried so much, but over stuff! Stuff! People matter more to me than stuff, but I couldn't cry over the loss of a sister but I could over this stuff.

In spite of that, I have a few places inside I can go to, that always lead me to crying. Surely there are things from your past that when remembered have led to tears before. Try to go there.

*Hugs*

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Guest KimberlyF

OMG yes to Marley and Me.

Pooh is a love 'em or hate 'em type. Very few people in the middle. Him going down in a ball of flames makes me giggle. Does that help?

Pull a bunch of eyebrow hairs. It's a long term benefit and tear inducing.

Kim

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Life is so unfair, Maria.

You cannot start crying and I cannot stop, somewhere in between lies perfection, a term that I have only heard of and never experienced.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest KimberlyF

Sometimes I can cry easily, sometimes not.

I'm embarassed and ashamed tho, that I've never had the close-to-breaking-down bawling over my sister's death in March of this year that should have happened by now. I made a decision to free funds for transition by parting with some possession that I pay a lot to store. I cried so much, but over stuff! Stuff! People matter more to me than stuff, but I couldn't cry over the loss of a sister but I could over this stuff.

In spite of that, I have a few places inside I can go to, that always lead me to crying. Surely there are things from your past that when remembered have led to tears before. Try to go there.

*Hugs*

I'm no therapist, but I play one on websites :)

I'd think you're a lot more tied to the freeing of the possessions and what they represent and petty things like that aren't going to stop you moving forward anymore, and the crying was just one more release from a lifetime of pain. When I think of all the money I've blown on crap and now I'm sitting around thinking what can I get for all this junk? I'd be happier sitting in an empty apartment eating rice being me.

As for your sister, there's no right timetable for mourning. You have a lot of other things on your plate.

Kim

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Hi Maria

Good advise from everyone! The sad movie thing usually worked for me. Listening to some songs always makes me cry. It's an oldie but keeps cycling around -the Eagles classic Desperado does it every single time. Maybe because I always knew in some level it was me and yet I couldn't find my way in. There are so many songs like that for people-music teends to bypass our defenses.

No matter what works I hope you find the release you seek. We've been missing your sunny face around here

JJ

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Hi Maria,

Yes, this state of not being able to cry makes one want to cry. Well, you know what I mean. For myself, I feel it is part of the Transgender condition. The mismatch between mind and body can put us in these states of emotional starvation.

Just hope that the others have towels ready in case we both go to crying at the same time!

Huggs Dear!

Opal

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Hey luv, ever get your tears?

I know the feeling, going through it right now. Like I have to, there's so much pressure building up, venting out loud isn't doin the trick, music isn't triggering anything and I can't get the waterworks turned on. It's maddening.

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Guest Maria (Hilda)

I got them eventually, watched Kick uhmm... well the movie with the guy who pretends to be a super hero.. you know... Kick booty (synonyms people!)

The part where the big guy is on fire made me tear up so much I just balled my eyes out.

I hope you find a release, its incredibly unpleasant not being able to cry :<

Perhaps the taste of asparagus will make you cry?

One can dream...

love

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Guest Donna Jean

Perhaps the taste of asparagus will make you cry?

love

OH !

I LOVE asparagus!

I even grow it!

To think that some people don't like asparagus makes ME cry!

Donna Jean

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OH !

I LOVE asparagus!

I even grow it!

To think that some people don't like asparagus makes ME cry!

Donna Jean

:lol: As long as you're there to love it, I'm sure asparagus will get over us.

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Guest Elizabeth K

Ramond Carver's poem:

YOUR DOG DIES

it gets run over by a van.

you find it at the side of the road

and bury it.

you feel bad about it.

you feel bad personally,

but you feel bad for your daughter

because it was her pet,

and she loved it so.

she used to croon to it

and let it sleep in her bed.

you write a poem about it.

you call it a poem for your daughter,

about the dog getting run over by a van

and how you looked after it,

took it out into the woods

and buried it deep, deep...

(shortened by deleting the last third)

Maria - I am glad you finally cried - now I can add a rather sad poem here - it makes me cry because someone POISONED my dog when I was 11 years old!

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That's a hard post to follow Lizzy! I'm sorry about your dog and sorry for the grief of that child.

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Guest Soran Vs

The very end of the Lost season finale got me teary-eyed! And I'm usually not one to show emotions, so maybe it would have a greater effect on you. :)

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When the tears came this week, they came with a vengeance. For awhile, I was wondering if they would ever stop. Still tearing up from time to time today, but that is good.

Once again, I benefit from the Love and Support of the wonderful people here on Laura's.

Big Huggs,

Opal

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Guest Donna Jean

When the tears came this week, they came with a vengeance. For awhile, I was wondering if they would ever stop. Still tearing up from time to time today, but that is good.

Once again, I benefit from the Love and Support of the wonderful people here on Laura's.

Big Huggs,

Opal

It's such a release....

I held so much in in my old "male" days...now I can just let it go...

Crying cleanses..

Donna Jean

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Guest 91curiouskitten

Msuci, gotta find THAT song, me I havent cried in so many years I consider the three genuine tears ((Genuine as in no yawning needed)) crying, I havent bawled making my pillow a soppy wet spot ever so I take what I can, but music always works for me :) good luck in your search for the release! It helkps

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