Interlude

[Guest therisa]

Your words ring out with an icy chill, which won't leave my memory;

How you told me, your eldest child that i'll come back, begging on my hands and knees;

You didn't even hear me, as i tried to explain the struggle that i've been fighting for years;

Sure, you know about the weeks, were my life was one huge stress headache from dust to dawn;

Growing from my trapze in my shoulders and spreading up my spinal column, like a strangling vine;

Choking off the blood vessels in my head and gripping my head, like a tightening vise;

Every passing hour, the vise is ratchet up another notch.

But, you didn't learn the lesson, why, until that fateful Canada Day weekend in '06;

All i asked, was to be left alone, as i had things to think out, which you agreed to my request;

Imagine my surprise to see you on Canada Day, in front of my apartment door;

Making up a lame excuse that that i sounded down and need some cheering up;

How the love, can you raise a child and still not know any about them?

Would have thought, you would know, that i need time alone to think through issues;

Ironically, i was thinking of how to tell you, that i was "trans" and planning to start my transition.

Stupid me, should have realized that you would react with icy anger and attacking questions;

If i told you that i was gay or a drug addict, would you have been more accepting of me?

Honestly, the only relationship that i've with men, are familiar or platonic;

Hard to have a sexual relationship, when one isn't attracted to men;

Even in choosing my new name, Therisa, i'm following your wish that your daughter be named so;

Know that it's not the same spelling that you would have used;

Your first born son no longer exist, but your daughter does. All, i ask is that you love me, for whom, i am.

Note To Reader: Originally written August 29, 2007. Also two months, after leaving the homeless shelter, for my current place. Yes, it is a totally different style of writing, that I currently use for poetry.

[Guest miss kindheart]

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vanna