I'm Done With This.

[Guest amie]

I've become very disgusted with the community over the past months and wish to have nothing more to do with it.

I haven't made a mistake by coming out to those closest to me. I want the one's I love and feel strongly about to truly know me.

That wasn't where I went wrong. I F*@d up by getting involved with those whom I thought felt the same as I only to discover SO many...

...

undesirables, let me say.

I've made a huge mistake and intend to try and put this all behind me.

I'm gonna live out the remainder of my life, whatever that is, and do the absolute best I can doing so.

I'm hoping this experience, though regretful at the time, will eventually serve to enrich my soul and make me a better person.

Please delete my account.

[Guest NatalieRene]

Amie what happened? You can pm me if you don't want to talk about it in public.

[Guest Donna Jean]

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Amie....

I sincerely hope that someone here didn't do something to make you feel this way.

If there there is anything that I can do to help, PM me....OK?

Donna Jean

[Sally]

Amie,

I believe that you have talked to me about a similar topic a while back, I am still here for you if you need to talk.

I hope that no one here was the problem - I always believed that we were friends so I hope that you will let me know what is going on.

It is your life and the choices are yours to make, I would just like to know a bit more but only if you want to tell me.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest ChloëC]

Hi amie,

Life is certainly difficult enough as it is, without this burden of gender issues we have the (mis)fortune to carry around. And even more difficult when the problems become overwhelming.

Whereever you decide to go in your life, I'm glad you do have some friends to share with, but if you ever find the need to share with others, we'll be here.

Not everyone who thinks long and hard about it, transitions and there are plenty of us here who have chosen not to, and might be able to understand or at least listen to you if you have any questions or just want to talk.

Good luck on your life journey, and know that there are friends here if you need.

Hugs

Chloë

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Amie hon,

I don't know what happened, but I do hope it had nothing to do with Laura's.

Love

Brenda

[Carolyn Marie]

Amie, you've obviously had some bad experiences, and it seems, looking back on prior posts,

that you've been frustrated about getting your points across and being treated the way

you want to be.

Whatever happened, please know that the door is always open here, and you're welcome to come

back. Even if you don't post, the forums are always here to help.

Best of luck wherever life takes you.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest JustShelly]

I've become very disgusted with the community over the past months and wish to have nothing more to do with it.

I haven't made a mistake by coming out to those closest to me. I want the one's I love and feel strongly about to truly know me.

That wasn't where I went wrong. I F*@d up by getting involved with those whom I thought felt the same as I only to discover SO many...

...

undesirables, let me say.

I've made a huge mistake and intend to try and put this all behind me.

I'm gonna live out the remainder of my life, whatever that is, and do the absolute best I can doing so.

I'm hoping this experience, though regretful at the time, will eventually serve to enrich my soul and make me a better person.

Please delete my account.

I just finished updating my about me on profile. I decided to look at posts one last time and I came across this one.

OMG

I couldn't of said it better.

DITTO for me, except I don't feel the need to delete my account.

Amie if your still able to logg on, feel free to PM me.

It sounds like we both may be the problem, so maybe us 2 problems can relate with each other.

Best Wishes

Shelly

[Guest KimberlyF]

I just finished updating my about me on profile. I decided to look at posts one last time and I came across this one.

OMG

I couldn't of said it better.

DITTO for me, except I don't feel the need to delete my account.

Amie if your still able to logg on, feel free to PM me.

It sounds like we both may be the problem, so maybe us 2 problems can relate with each other.

Best Wishes

Shelly

Shelly,

I have at times felt exactly like you have in your profile. This is something I know from my experiences online. Unless you start at the ground floor of a message board, some people are going to know each other better than you know them. People have called these people cliques and stuff like that but honestly, if you spend time with someone and you have a min amount of time online you'll read the threads of someone you know you like. And then you might play around with them a bit on the thread. Obviously some of these threads are not serious. Our lives are very serious. The pain we've felt is serious. But sometimes its nice to just have fun. I never saw the thread you talked about with the girl needing help. If I had I'd have replied to it if I could have added something. But I'm not online enough to read every single thread.

Joining a message board that's been around for years is like being the new kid in school. Everyone says hi, but then goes back to their friends. It's just the way life works.

So now, I do feel like an outsider here at times. My options are to run like I have my whole life, or try to fix this and figure out how to change how I'm relating to people.

There was just a thread the other day thanking new people here for posting a lot because message boards need new blood to keep alive. As much as some people might really like each other if they talk to each other every day that gets old and people run out of things to post and then it's really not that important that I check the board EVERY day and soon enough it's dead.

Even if everything you described never changes here and you never feel like you're a part of the big group, don't you feel good knowing you tried to help that girl? And I'm going to try to PM her when I finish this because I found your post.

Kim

[Guest Robin Winter]

I somehow doubt you'll see this...but to you and anyone else who feels the same way...

I can empathize to a point. I can even imagine what sorts of things may have set you off. But you need to realize something...This community isn't about you. It's not about me. It's not about anyone. It's about everyone. EVERYONE has their battles. Everyone fights them in their own way. Sometimes it doesn't look the way you expect it should. Well, too bad. We all have something in common, here, but that aside, we're all different, and you can't expect otherwise.

If you came here and asked for help, someone to talk to, you would find it waiting for you, no question. There are even some folks on here that would hop a plane just to take you out to a movie if they could afford to and if they thought it would make you feel better. I can think of at least six off the top of my head, and I don't even spend that much time here. The fact is, though, we're all limited in what we can do for each other, because as I said before, we've all got our battles. This community, and particularly this website, is a place to get a little support when we need it, it's a place to make friends, but that doesn't mean everyone is going to like you, or that you have to like everyone. Life doesn't work that way in ANY community.

I don't know what you expected to find in the community, I don't know what it is you found lacking, but what I do know is that you have no right to judge anyone as "undesirable" until you know their whole story, and here, it's pretty much a guarantee that you don't.