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A Little Update And A Preliminary Time Frame


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Guest Maria (Hilda)

So I had a visit with both my GT and my school counselor today, so lets start with the GT.

He's basically said the only thing that worries him about me starting hormones is that I'm in school - fair call fair call - so he's going to do everything preliminary to that, he has me set up with an endo, and is frequently talking to my GP about whats going on. -I Like this guy. Chewed down, he said he wants me to wait until I finish school before starting anything, I finish school mid-november, I'm thinking more along the lines of late september early october, but hey - thats just me wanting this done as fast as possible, as I'm sure everyone can relate :).

On the other hand, my school counselor wants me to start before the school year starts! Her reasoning being that everyone should be allowed to be themselves, and school is a sheltered environment. Now... The only problem I see here, is that the kids that'd otherwise harass me would be sheltered too! So I'm not thinking that early yet.

Oh, and good news on my Grandma, she's getting better very slowly, but her condition is definitely improving, could easily worsen at any time though. Most of her fluid is now from her Lymphedema and not from puss build up - also good.

So all around, its been a good day - just a quick question, in regards to the whole transitioning start time, what are people's thoughts?

Love, a bubbly yet surprisingly formal Maria.

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Hi Maria,

It has been a while since we talked - I'm sorry but work has a way of doing that - I am here now and I am glad to her that your grandmother is improving.

As to when to start your transition that is something best left up to you, you have a better understanding of your situation - your GT is more familiar with the trials and tribulations of transitioning so I would but that advice as more important than the school counselor's rather idealistic view.

I taught school for a while as well as having attended school for a number of years - I never found it to be as safe and sheltered environment as some seem to think that it is so my opinion and that is all that it is - my opinion - I would probably wait until I was out of school - it isn't that far away.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest sarah f

Maria that is a wonderful update. I am so happy that your grandma is getting better. I hope she makes a full recovery soon.

Now to the hormones and when to start. Sally is right in that it really is up to you and how comfortable you will be at school. If you start taking them now then everyone there will definately know something is going on before you are out. The downside is that you are delaying hormones and your transition but that is not always a bad thing. Do what you think is the best for you and stick to it. Transitioning is never easy but something we must do to be happy.

One more thing when deciding is what about college? If you start now then you will be able to go into college as a girl and nobody would ever know different. Just something to think about.

Whatever you decide we will be here to support you when you need us.

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Guest Maria (Hilda)

On regards to college - My Mum was talking about that earlier today. That was her thoughts too - she was thinking if I started at the end of year 12, then maybe I should take a gap year and work at like, Mcdonalds or something, and then enroll in University (college) when I'm further along. Thought she said maybe I should start when I turn 18 (september) and try to hide everything with a sports bra. I personally like that last option the best, but I'm still a bit wary. Would people even care? Would they notice anything? If they do, will they still talk to me?

Haha, sometimes I doubt I even exist :P. Not as in the Maria me (Real me), but me as an entire person.

Stupid, huh?

I also found out today that I have a complex to constantly keep people entertained or I feel like I'm hurting them. O_o. Interesting day.

Sorry, thoughts are just kinda pouring outta my eye sockets at the moment.

Love, Maria.

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Maria,

Your mother has a good idea - I have been on HRT for over 15 months and at work they just see what they expect to see - I get dressed to go out and put on a nice top (without a bra) and the same figure that passes for male at work in a knit shirt now is totally accepted as female - they see what they expect to see - I said that twice because it is so important to remember.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest KimberlyF

Maria,

Your mother has a good idea - I have been on HRT for over 15 months and at work they just see what they expect to see - I get dressed to go out and put on a nice top (without a bra) and the same figure that passes for male at work in a knit shirt now is totally accepted as female - they see what they expect to see - I said that twice because it is so important to remember.

Love ya,

Sally

Yeppers. That's why I'm kinda in the middle with the time frame thing between the GT and the counselor.

Maria, just my opinion. If school ends in Nov, I think 6 months prior would be a good time to maybe start HRT. The odds of anybody noticing anything in school is pretty slim. But it would be a jump start and maybe with the time off waiting for the next school year it could also get you far enough along being young and not having the T continue to work on you. Then you might not even need to take a year off, unless you want to?

Kim

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Guest NatashaJade

I agree with Kim. You don't want to wait a year for college. It is just easier to go right out of HS. Trust me I know from experience.

And here is my dissent with that opinion. You shouldn't go to college until you want to be there. If you go and you are tired of school or feel like there is life to be lived elsewhere, it can be a drag and you may find your new freedom from structure allows you to waste the experience (which I know from experience). I had always planned on taking one or two years off and didn't. It would have been better for me (I went to school for five years out of high school, didn't graduate and then went back when I was in my 30's when I wanted to...now I'm almost done with my second masters...I've done a lot of time in schools...even work in one).

Do what you feel is best for you.

xoxo

Natasha

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Guest MonikaC

Maria,

I personally think that Kim had a good idea with starting 6 months or so before school gets out. In the end though, it is what you think is best for you. Look at the worst case scenario for starting now. If other people started noticing how would they react? As long as you aren't on physical danger could you handle being teased? What about if you waited until school was over? Could you handle waiting that long? How much more masculine will your body get? How would you cope with that emotionally? Once you face what could happen and what you can handle it might be easier to know what is best for you.

Monika

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Guest Miss_Construe

I don't think you need to approach HRT as an all or nothing proposition. Being on T-blockers and letting them stabilize prior to starting female hormones could work. I was actually under the impression that is how it would happen, but I guess I will find out.

Amy

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Hi Maria,

That is wonderful news about your Grandmother! Hope she continues to improve as quickly as possible.

As far as University, would you lose out on any scholarships by waiting?? That is usually the case here, so I would suggest not waiting, maybe take some online classes while working. Take a light load. I am not worried. I know you will get things accomplished whatever way you decide to go.

Big Huggs,

Opal

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Guest BeckyTG

On regards to college - My Mum was talking about that earlier today. That was her thoughts too - she was thinking if I started at the end of year 12, then maybe I should take a gap year and work at like, Mcdonalds or something, and then enroll in University (college) when I'm further along.

You'll have to decide. I know many people who wanted to "take a year off" before heading to University and the majority of them developed other things in their life that then prevented them from getting that education. Many regretted taking the route they did. It takes serious discipline to go back after a year off and a lot of discipline to go on without waiting, as well. It's like a very narrow plank with crocodiles on one side and fire on the other...

Thought she said maybe I should start when I turn 18 (september) and try to hide everything with a sports bra. I personally like that last option the best, but I'm still a bit wary. Would people even care? Would they notice anything? If they do, will they still talk to me?

We live in different cultures. I live in a very conservative, agricultural part of the country. My acceptance has been unreal. I think it's more about who you really are inside, how you act and how you treat people than it is about how you look or what gender you project.

The big focus in Universities here has been how to create an atmosphere that encourages those who struggle with GLBT issues to live openly as themselves, rather than trying to hide who they are. There have been some well-publicized news stories of suicides that resulted from bullying and there is a big push to prevent that. Anyone starting out here in University could find a school with a program of tolerance to attend so they could openly transition while in school.

I think the stress of living a lie would make it difficult to simply live, much less try to learn much. Ultimately, you'll have to decide, but I think you may find that acceptance is more prevalent than you might believe.

Haha, sometimes I doubt I even exist :P. Not as in the Maria me (Real me), but me as an entire person.

Stupid, huh?

I also found out today that I have a complex to constantly keep people entertained or I feel like I'm hurting them. O_o. Interesting day.

Sorry, thoughts are just kinda pouring outta my eye sockets at the moment.

Love, Maria.

You're doing a great job of understanding yourself, Maria. You are going to do just fine.

Love,

Becky

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