Wow, What A Great Experience

[Guest AlishaToMe]

Up till now i have been very nervous about presenting as alisha to anyone as my anxiety always used to hit hard whenever i thought about doing so, this even included my GT. I had also been very anxious about joining the support group my gt co-runs as groups of people have always filled me with dread.

However, i had to agree with my GT that as my social life is non-existent it would be good idea to meet other people who would not judge me for being trans so i agreed to meet with the other leader so he could talk to me before i joined. I had been told that the group was having a social get together for christmas and it might be a good way of getting to know them, but i didn't think i would be allowed to go as i'd not been to any of the meetings.

My GT had different ideas and really wanted me to go so she put me in touch with a couple of group members and i met up with one on monday. Really nice friendly girl who told me that she was nervous about going out in public as it would be her first time out. She also said she knew i might be joining them out for the social the following night (as in tues, yesterday) offering to get me a lift down if i needed it. It was a really nice offer but as i was due to meet the leader at 6:00 yesterday and they were all meeting at 7:30 i seriously didn't think i would get invited.

But i was invited and accepted, he said i could go dressed however i wanted and just to come down and say hello. Then something strange and totally unexpected happened.

As i got home i only had 25 mins to get ready so was conciously thinking to go male mode and say hello but my inner girl was having different ideas and before i knew it i was dressed up putting make-up on and about to walk out the door. Well it was too late now i had to just go for it, my lift would be arriving in a couple of mins. Despite my now growing nerves i left my room, walked out the front door down the road to the meeting point and got into the car. I had done it, i was outside as me for the first time ever.

I knew we were going to a restaurant but i didn't know what it was like having never been there so you can imagine mine and my new friends horror as we pulled into a very busy car park and could see a very busy restaurant. I'd never presented to my GT before and here i was about to walk into a busy public place to meet a group of people i didn't know apart from my GT and a couple of others. But in i walked grateful to be in the company of another public newbie and our lift who had been full-time for years, thankfully she had the confidence to just march in as we followed.

My GT hadn't arrived yet but a few of the others had so we joined them and as nervous as i was i started to relax, everyone was so friendly and i felt at ease with them. As everyone else arrived my GT did a double take at me gave me a hug said i looked great, she probably just said that to boost me up a bit but by then i didn't care, i was out in public as myself for the first time and it felt great and completely natural.

So, from a shy hiding little girl who was terrified of anyone seeing her including her therapist to not only presenting to her but a support group as well, all in a busy public place. And it all happened in less than a day.

I had a wonderful night and made some new friends, we didn't have any hassle from anyone. It was better than i could ever have hoped, But it was so surreal i even woke up this morning and thought i dreamt the whole thing, but messages on my phone told me that no it really did happen.

I am so happy right now.

lots of luv

Alisha

[Guest Elizabeth K]

GRAND GRAND GRAND!

So good... thanks for sharing.

Lizzy

[Guest Emily Ray]

What a wonderful story. I am so amazed at the power these little girls have once we let them run the show, She isn't going to like to be bottled up ever again, you know! But that's OK you are growing in ways you never dreamt. Sometimes its a whirlwind of growth sometimes a little slower. Congrats!!!

Huggs

Emily

[Guest JaniceW]

Alisha,

Thanks for sharing your story wish us. I just had my first time out last Saturday, what a ball it was once I got over the jitters just like yours. I am so happy for you.

[Cyndee]

That's fantastic to read Alisha, thanks !!

I am so glad to hear you made some new friends on your outing

Dreams do come true

Hugs

Cindy -

[Guest Sotha]

Dang!

That's quite a transition I'd say.

I'm going for the slowly add more and more female items to your wardrobe until there is no male left approach myself.

It's kind of boring, but I suppose there's no anxiety issues.

Still, so wonderful for you!

Kate

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

Beautiful story, Alisha! Rock on!

Really, what we have to fear is actually fear itself, it seems. This is awesome. You've taken the plunge! Upward and onward, girl!