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I am back after a while, Hi to all!

So I have been to four sessions with my therapist since the day before Thanksgiving. I really have had some up and down days, my wife was accepting but I am learning how much she really is not totally in board. She comes with me to my appointments and listens and sometimes says a few things. Last Wednesday my therapist and I were talking about hormones my wife was silent until after we left. She really was shaken by the talk of hormones, she probably needs to have her own therapist to work out her fears and anxiety. I guess I can't blame her for being scared by the talk of hormones. I told her it is not like I take them and walla I am a woman. She doesn't understand how they will work for me. I want to start them so badly but now I am worried about how she will react. I need to do what is right for myself but I also don't want ot cause her anymore pain. She doesn't think we should tell anybody, she thinks I should just dress at home when the kids are not there, I am trying to explain to her that this is so much deeper than just mearly dressing, I said it is like putting a bandaid on an gaping wound. Just dressing when no one else is home is not what is going to satisfy my soul. I still have internal battles if this is really right or am I making a big mistake by wanting to feel comfortable in my own skin. My therapist is great her experience in this field is awesome and she totally understands what it means to me and others. She has stated to me but I think for my wifes sake that if I just dress and not move meaningfully forward I will probably never be truly happy. On my wifes side she says she is not sure that she wants to be with a woman, but she loves me for more than my body parts. I am still so torn on what to do and how far, I really need a hug and encouragement to keep on track.

Love to all,

Kaytlyn

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Guest Emily Ray

Kaytlyn,

I have plenty of huggs in my hug box and if I'm not mistaken a fresh shipment with you name on them just arrived. Big huggs dear. You are doing what you need to do and are being responsible in the way you are going about it. Nothing more can be expected. Your wife will or will not be comfortable with this and there is little you can do to change it one way or another.

I will pray for your family and ask for blessings to you both.

Huggs

Emily

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Guest Kaytlyn

Kaytlyn,

I have plenty of huggs in my hug box and if I'm not mistaken a fresh shipment with you name on them just arrived. Big huggs dear. You are doing what you need to do and are being responsible in the way you are going about it. Nothing more can be expected. Your wife will or will not be comfortable with this and there is little you can do to change it one way or another.

I will pray for your family and ask for blessings to you both.

Huggs

Emily

Thanks so much Emily, I need huggs really bad thanks for the encouraging words. I know I have to do what is right for me but sometimes it becomes really hard to be assured that I am doing the right thing. I really appreciate the support here and the comfort of others. It makes me be confident that I have to do this for me.

Huggs back,

Kaytlyn

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Kaytlyn, believe me, you've done everything you can to include your wife in your plans, and help her to understand what you're going through.

Some spouses never understand, or never want to. You have to decide if transitioning is what you must do. If it is, then your options

are limited. You likely won't be happy just trying to be a cross dresser. But neither I nor anyone else here knows how you feel, only

you do.

I wish you luck, and hope you and your wife can find a way to make it.

(((HUGGSS)))

Carolyn Marie

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