You Saved My Life.

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

Have you ever wondered if spending your time on an Internet forum like this one is worth it? Does being here really help you? Are the people for real?

All I can say is thank God (Goddess, Force, Whatever?) for the Internet in general and forums like Laura's Playground in particular.

When I first came out to myself, started seeing my gender therapist and began my HRT I belonged to another transsexual forum (still do) and made a small but amazing handful of true friends there. You cannot believe how they've helped me. If I told you, you honestly would think I'm making it up. Trust me: They're The Real Deal.

Now that I'm over a year into HRT and am in mid-transition and am a more experienced transitioner, I found Laura's Playground, loved it and joined it hoping to encourage transpeople less experienced in the process than me and hoping to make a friend or two, if possible.

In a very short time, a very small but very amazing group of people here literally saved my life. You see, I've been in a deep blue funk as of late. Why? Lost my job because of coming out as transsexual back in November 2010, found a new job that's a pain, getting older, realizing my marriage will eventually dissolve, feeling I'll never find another significant other, etc. You get the idea.

Suicidal ideation became VERY real in my case. I seriously contemplated taking all 120 tablets of my next spironolactone prescription when I refill it in a few weeks. Yeah, it was THAT bad. Believe me. Everything just came to a head and became a stone-cold drag.

People from that other transforum sent my family money when things were really tight ... and I didn't even ask them too ... nor would I ever ask them to. God! A miracle ... when we needed one.

Then, from Laura's Playground:

In my despair, I reached out to a person or two. These amazing people encouraged me and, quite literally, saved my life.

The New Orleans Contingent:

Lizzy (ElizabethK)

Dee Jay (Donna Jean)

Sally

The Real Deal:

Carolyn Marie

The Encourager:

BeckyTG

The Just Amazing:

JJ (JohnJ)

Silver-Tongued Seductress:

Maria_B (Young Aussie, wahoo!)

There are others as well. My gratitude to all of you is immense. Thank you ... from the bottom of my heart. You all are awesome.

Kudos & Hugs!

Lacey

This morning, estranged cousins contacted me! They know of my transsexuality ... and are cool with it! Will wonders ever cease?

[Carolyn Marie]

Lacey, its always nice to get a thank you. But you know, we're a family here, and that's what families do when someone is in trouble. They

rally around and offer support.

I'm glad your feeling better about things, Lacey. That is the real thanks.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Elizabeth K]

What can I say - we are ALL here for you honey. Thank you so much for the accolades, but it's a village - we work to save others and so often save ourselves.

Lizzy

[Guest Donna Jean]

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Rock on, Girlfriend......

It can be tough, but, together we an make it....

LOVE & HUGGS!

Dee Jay

[Guest Robin Winter]

I am so amused that you included the Force in that list lol. I don't know if you meant it that way, but I assumed from Star Wars.

As to the rest of your comment, I agree, this website is invaluable and I've been thankful for it many times over the past few years.

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

I am so amused that you included the Force in that list lol. I don't know if you meant it that way, but I assumed from Star Wars.

As to the rest of your comment, I agree, this website is invaluable and I've been thankful for it many times over the past few years.

Shilo:

LMFAO! Luke Skywalker Kitteh is the best! As Darth Vader, Kitteh freaks me out.

Everybody:

Yeah, like, thanks y'all. Life is good again. If you had been born a genetic girl, what would you like to have looked like? What would you liked to have done? Check out the woman singing in this video, Donna Godcheaux ... the keyboard player's wife. I would liked to have looked exactly like her and have done exactly what she's doing here with exactly this band:

By the way, I saw them do this very song on this very tour in this very year. Absolutely magical. Yes, life is SOOO worth living. I'm grateful, folks.

And, yeah, I've had a crush on Donna G. for ooohhh ... about ... hmmm? ... 33 years!

Lacey

[Guest Cynthia Of Creation]

I dont know whats with the kitties but they are so cute!

and thats what we all need is a cute little kitty to crawl up on our lap and make us feel better

but for many of us the cute little kitty is a laptop and as we look into kittys eyes we see lauras playground and our sisters and brothers.

and through that connection we are kept safe and alive and pulled out of bad times.

Im glad that you werent pulled into the badness and that you are better. And I agree, with the fantastic mods here how

can you not feel a 1000 times better!

Hugs To ALL! Especally the cute little kitties

[Sally]

Lacey,

Thank you for this wonderful topic but the real thank you comes with each time that you log on and I know that you are still with us - there is no greater joy than to see someone finding the light at the end of that tunnel - I was there myself and the incredible people here saved me.

It is not an easy journey and sometimes we all need help, I am glad to offer my hand as a way to repay those who reached out to me and I know that you will be the first to reach out to anyone in despair, it is just what we do here - care, love and nurture - that is what makes life bearable.

Love ya,

Sally