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Hi Everyone, this will be a quick hello as my current situation is difficult and I don't get alot of time to myself at the moment. I am a 47 yr old male, who like so many on here has always known that the inner me and the outer me do not match and never have. I have spent most of my life going from one mental battle to another trying to convince myself that I was male. I've been married twice, done all the masculine sports I could think off, spent 2 yrs bodybuilding 5 days a week in the hope that that would somehow put an end to it all and never really had any sustained period of time where the battle in your head stops. I'm tired off all that now, I know that deep inside I am female and have always been female. I know that my life would be so much better if the outer me matched the inner me. I know that to get to where I want to be will be a long and hard journey and just to complicate it further I have 3 young children that are just about to have their lives turned upside down by a divorce. I have tried hard all my life to be someone I am not and nothing good has come out of it (apart from the children)and now I want to be who I have always been and should have been. I have told my brother and sisters and they have all been very supportive and this has been a big help and have recently been to the GP to get a referral to a Gender Idenity Clinic to get the process underway. I hope the future will be a brighter place and that one day I can become the person I always should have been and live my remaining life to the full. I am pleased to have found Lauras Playground, being able to be in contact with people who understand makes it a little less lonely.

ElliJay

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Welcome to the playground, Elliejay, I am so glad that you found us won't you come on in and have a seat you can look over the terms and conditions while I get you some fresh baked cookies and a cup of hot cocoa.

I understand the battle that you have been fighting against yourself, so many of us here have done the same thing, some of us for even longer than you have so do not fear - it is never too late!

You are going the correct route so good for you.

I am sorry that you have a divorce going on, I have been there too but I did not have any children - I hope that they will be as accepting as your brothers and sisters - that is a source of great support and joy.

Feel free to ask questions and join in, the forums are yours too, welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

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Hello ElliJay,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. :)

MaryEllen

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Guest Elizabeth K

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I am pleased to have found Laura's Playground, being able to be in contact with people who understand makes it a little less lonely.

That would be us!

WELCOME

Lizzy

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Welcome to the Playground, ElliJay.

You will find this site rich in resources, information, support, and most importantly, friendship. We are really more of a family, a very extended family,

than just a web site full of strangers.

Please post in the various forums, and someone will always respond. It is the best way to learn and to meet people.

Please read the Site Terms and Conditions if you haven't already done so, as we use the rules to keep the site safe for everyone. A link is at the top of each

page.

I look forward to reading your posts.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Hi EllieJay,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have MTF meetings-Mon & Sat 9pm est, and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Just wnated to quickly thank you all for your welocming replies. It's so nice to be at Lauras Playground, it has been a very lonely exsistance at times, with little to look forward too. For the firsrt time in a lomg time I am beginning to feel happy again and am looking forward to spending alot of time in Lauras Playground,

Many Thanks,

EllieJay

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