Gid Variance

[Guest Jon aka Rachel]

Ok I am curious if everyone else experiences this or just me. I think my level of GID changes biased on lifestyle things I can’t figure out. Some days it doesn’t really impact me a huge amount but it there in the back of my head. But then there are days like this where I would give everything including my life. I hit just about everywhere in between as well. I can’t really even dress up here at school I threw tights on and heels praying to god that my roommate doesn’t come back to find it. My GID acts up really bad like I would give anything just to dress the part since it’s the closest I will get for now. I just am not sure if this is normal to feel such a variance in my GID’s affect on me. It’s almost like I feel sick to my stomach because I can’t be it I know physical pain is not good when there is no reason for it.

Thanks

Rachel Maire

[Guest Elizabeth K]

In my experience - yes, very typical. It is one of the reasons we get so confused and even go into denial. Sometimes it is hardly even there, other times it is so powerful we will to do ANYTHING just to be what we know we are.

Lizzy

[Guest Jon aka Rachel]

Thank you Lizzy and John it is nice to know. John you hit the nail on the head I feel much the same way no order to any of it and the best are also the worst because of the doubts.

Rachel Marie

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

In my experience - yes, very typical. It is one of the reasons we get so confused and even go into denial. Sometimes it is hardly even there, other times it is so powerful we will to do ANYTHING just to be what we know we are.

Lizzy

Honestly, you are not alone, hon. See Lizzy's quote up above? Gotta agree with here 100%. Sometimes, GID isn't much of an issue with me. However, most of the time, it really is. Though I've had fun in androgyne mode (being ever the eccentric and individualist who loves blowing people's minds), I've finally (for practical reasons) trageted 1 May 2011 (3+ weeks from today) to go fulltime.

If you truly have GID, and I believe nearly everybody here does, all I can say is that it will NEVER go away ... EVER. Look how many of us on here are of "The Elder Generation" and you'll see people who wrangled with GID for decades due to circumstances and denial.

Yeah, GID waxes and wanes, crescendos and decrescendos, varies, etcetera. I'd say that's true for most folks who have it ... though not necessarily for everbody who has it.

Hugs Lacey

[Guest Kimburly]

I was thinking about this earlier today!

My concentration was SO off, that I had to let go the task at hand to focus on what had me so unfocused! And sure enough, there it was.

Some days I need a surfboard to ride the waves. Other times it's just a kiddy pool, no water wings required.

What a trip...

[Guest ignota]

I get that and it drives me crazy! This is partly why I'm so unsure. So don't worry, you seem normal You're in a similar position to me, in fact (being in college and sharing a room).

[Guest Jon aka Rachel]

Lacey, Kimburly, and ignota thank you all.

Lacey congrats an setting your date thats great.

Kimburly I completely understand that.

ignota it can be very tough I agree with you on that I am hoping once I come out they are forced to give me my own room. But I cant afford it so who knows.

Thanks

Rachel Marie

[gennee]

Rachel, it's pretty normal. gender is fluid and varies in intensity. I've had periods where the gender is very fluid. There are times that I hardly notice it.

Gennee

[Guest ignota]

Lacey, Kimburly, and ignota thank you all.

Lacey congrats an setting your date thats great.

Kimburly I completely understand that.

ignota it can be very tough I agree with you on that I am hoping once I come out they are forced to give me my own room. But I cant afford it so who knows.

Thanks

Rachel Marie

I'm trying not to think this far ahead, but if you have a reason why you can't share but cant afford to go single, there may be a hardship.fund you could look into. The LGBT reps may be able to help you outt with that too. Something to consider

[Guest Jon aka Rachel]

Gennee thanks for the continuing conformation its nice to know.

ignota I am just one of those over planner haha. Thank you very much for that I had never thought of that. But i am not sure if we have a trans rep I believe we have a LGB one, my councilor is pretty sure I am the first trans person my college will ever have to deal with.

I actually found out I can get a single bed dorm for $400 more and I can come up with that but they are very limited so I probably would need a medical reason to get into them. So I will just have to see.

Thanks again

Rachel Maire