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Standing In The Threshold


Carolyn Marie

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Standing In The Threshold

By Carolyn Marie

In the house I’ve lived in all my life, I look around and see,

Things I’ve known that are my own, that greatly comfort me.

Books and art and trinkets that I picked up here and there,

Old friends that warm my heart with memories to share.

But in the coming days and nights my future beckons me,

To leave this place I know so well, to set my spirit free.

My past it will remain behind in the house where I was raised,

Distant thoughts are all I’ll have to remind me of those days.

My future lies beyond my door, an uncertain fate awaits,

I take a step uncertainly towards the threshold and my gate.

In this house and rooms lay all I know, and all I’ve ever been,

I’m frightened by the world outside, a world I’ve seldom seen.

But leave I must, I know that now, I cannot stay within,

My future calls me strongly, and the house lights start to dim.

I fondly gaze on my four walls, and know without a doubt,

That once I leave I shan’t return, locked doors will keep me out.

Standing in the threshold now, I gaze out on life to come,

I take along my memories, and my loving wife and son.

As I step into my future life, I look back on what I knew,

The man I was waves fond goodbye, then disappears from view.

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Something so poignant and true and beautiful in this poem really touches me.

Your turn to make me tearful as you so perfectly convey your feelings about the change that is coming to your life.

As good and wonderful a woman as Carolyn is he must also have been a wonderful man deeply loved by many. But Carolyn carries all of that forward with her as well.

Hugs & Love

John

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Carolyn,

That is a very touching poem and it does seem that we are standing in the threshold for far too long.

But it is better than standing in the shadows and it is the transition into the light.

He will be missed but you are an even greater treasure.

Love ya,

Sally

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Dear Carolyn,

<<< hug >>>

I too live the same house that I have for all my life

I don't think I could ever leave like that

I wish you the best of everything

:wub: vanna

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