Not Hungry

[Guest Kelly]

ok all of you who have read my posts know how un accepting my dad is of me bieng trans. and my issues on parental influences in my life and how mom is my favorite and i barely have her now.

well i orginaly started cutting well things have changed.

i kinda stopped eating sorta. this is what ive eaten in the past couple days.

Friday: Taco

Saturday: Nothing

Sunday: Slice of Pizza

Monday: Couple Chips

Acomponied by beverages such as Water, and Water

its not that im getting hungry its that im not.

like i might feel hungry for a second but when i go to the fridge and open it i lose my appitite

im starting to get worried about myself in many ways.

and im still annoyed that people still dont realize i have a problem

well people do but they wont stop and help

[Guest Huff]

It's not uncommon that people experiencing some kind of trauma or depression loose their appetite. I have a friend that is that way, so she calls someone and makes a commitment to eat. I think it can be helpful to eat with someone else who can chitchat with you so that you're not thinking about the food or the depressing stuff and you can relax enough so that you can slowly get through a decent meal. It seems to work for my friend, anyway.

MK

[Guest Kelly]

that would make sense i been finding the only time i eat is with my boy friend

or with friends

[Guest Drew]

i sometimes have this problem when i'm depressed or anxious. it does help if you have someone you can have a conversation with to distract from the food, and eat slowly, that way it doesn't feel like you're eating too much but you're getting what you need.

[Guest stefany]

ok all of you who have read my posts know how un accepting my dad is of me bieng trans. and my issues on parental influences in my life and how mom is my favorite and i barely have her now.

well i orginaly started cutting well things have changed.

i kinda stopped eating sorta. this is what ive eaten in the past couple days.

Friday: Taco

Saturday: Nothing

Sunday: Slice of Pizza

Monday: Couple Chips

Acomponied by beverages such as Water, and Water

its not that im getting hungry its that im not.

like i might feel hungry for a second but when i go to the fridge and open it i lose my appitite

im starting to get worried about myself in many ways.

and im still annoyed that people still dont realize i have a problem

well people do but they wont stop and help

I too know about anorexia and bulimia. I was both for a long time. I had to lose weight to go into the army, so i quit eating, and when I did eat, I would pop 4 maximum strength ex-lax. I then had to start taking water pills, because after a while, the laxatives don't work and you become full of water. I am back to that now.

Over the past few months, I have been severely depressed. Not because my husband just came Out as MTF TS, but because of my situation at home. There are days when I don't eat, and then when I do, I pop 4 ex-lax, then 4 water pills. I have lost weight, thanks to phentermine, an rx from my doctor, but now that I no longer have insurance, I am forced into my old ways.

My son told me today that I looked fat again, so here we go, back to the porcelain god for relief. I don't care what people think of it, it is after all my body, and I WILL do what I want. If it kills me, which I'm sure it won't, then ok. At least I won't die weighing over 200 pounds again.

I have seen all the movies about anorexia nervousa and bulimia, if the characters portrayed are me, then so-be-it. I refuse to be asked one more time "How far along are you?". I have been asked that question many times, and I can't hear it again, and I won't. I want to die looking good, not laying there looking fat in my coffin.

I don't recommend it, I don't condone it, but, it is your life, and if you feel that this is the right thing to do, then know the complications that arise from it: your heart is weaker, your throat becomes raw and bleeds, your teeth rot, your intestines get inflammed, your rear end hurts, you lose muscle tone and fat, and your body starts feeding on itself.

[Guest ElliotMTF]

omgosh hon =( thats not healthy. you can't do that, it may be easy but you need to make a point of not taking those pills =(

I may be a hippocrit because I dont eat much AT ALL and Im not trying to eat more, but I would never take pills. and I'm not trying to make you feel bad, Im just saying you love yourself too much to do that to yourself =]

if you ever need anyone to talk to about it I'm here =] PM me if you want to talk on IM

gl and no more pills! =]