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Fell Off The Wagen.

Guest Jonie

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well I fell of the wagen my last drink was 2 mixed drinks last christmas it was a celabratechion for my first ever white christmas.ben least for years since I have smoked any thing maybe longer.lest till last sater day I had both and had a good time really.the only bad thing is have not stoped yet.is that really a bad thing.I never started doing any thing till 5:00 pm or later.

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well I fell of the wagen my last drink was 2 mixed drinks last christmas it was a celabratechion for my first ever white christmas.ben least for years since I have smoked any thing maybe longer.lest till last sater day I had both and had a good time really.the only bad thing is have not stoped yet.is that really a bad thing.I never started doing any thing till 5:00 pm or later.

A friend of mine just relapsed with 1-2 years clean time... One big bottle of vodka. Says its harder to quit thinking about it now than it was before. Oh well, maybe it will be different for you? The substance abuse chatroom attendence has been very low on Sunday nites the last couple weeks. If you are having trouble and want to talk, stop by...

Best wishes

Michelle

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I don't know how bad it has ever got for you, but for me it cost me almost everything includeing my life. I don't want you to have to pay such a price. It will only cause problems down the road. It is best to stop now.

Best wishes,

Emily

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When running there are a lot of us who get so bogged down by forcing ourselves to run the whole distance without stopping. What that doesn't allow for is bad days. Some times I need to just walk for a short distance and catch my breath. Many people think we can't run because we see taking a walk break as a failure. Actually, walk breaks are an essential part of training. It does not feel good when I were supposed to run all 8 miles at a 9 minute mile pace and I get 6 miles in and just have to stop. I feel like I have to start over and that all of my progress just left me (for good?!). I take a small break in my run and then finish strong. Of course my body is telling me I need to either take it easy or eat/ drink more, but I digress.

Anyway, I hope this analogy helps. I heard someone who also struggled with addiction use this analogy (well, a similar one really) to see that falling off of the wagon didn't undo all of his hard work. It happens and it is nothing to be ashamed of or feel guilty about. He said he was practising new behaviours so he needed to allow himself to mess up a few times. He has been sober for quite some time now.

You two are wonderful.

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Amy

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Hi Jonie,

I hope you're okay by now. I'm so sorry to hear this happened.

Now is the time to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back on the wagon again. You can do this!

Please take care of yourself, okay?

Love, Kat

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Hi Jonie,

I hope you're okay by now. I'm so sorry to hear this happened.

Now is the time to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back on the wagon again. You can do this!

Please take care of yourself, okay?

Love, Kat

yes I am ok now the good thing about it is I did get a lot of cleening done on my house and stayed out of the chat rooms for them days.to me that is a good thing.

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Tough one there! It does happen, in my case it happened after nearly 16 years sobriety and then took about 2 and a half years before "coming to". I am back at 981 days, and for me it was the beginning of finding my real being since it was while I was in my recovery program that I came out to a therapist about my GIDS, (long story omitted) but it ended up a few months of sobriety later that I got my HRT recommendation, and I've made my recovery back by a few steps. Its going to happen, the 35 year sobriety types are so few compared to the number of us with cracks in the record where we go back a few grooves. Keep busy and keep in touch with anyone. Its not possible to love yourself while you are using, but love can and will be here from us for you to reach for.

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I've convinced myself to not drink on weekdays..but it's really hard.

I hope it works out for you all who struggle with this demonic addiction.

Keep fighting.

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