I'm not scared any more :D

[KimOrbit]

Hi every one.

First Of all I must say thank you, because you had helped me a lot about visiting a GT. well today I went to clinic of my therapist.

As I promised Im going to tell how thing went on:

First Of all My mother and I went to clinic by car. we had some problems founding that clinic. but after I found that clinic some thing strange happened. I saw his board. He was a psychologist. not a psychiatrist. then stress reached its Highest amount.

We went into the clinic. we had to wait 10 minutes for the patient before us. then after doctor went free we came inside the room. I was dying. But that doctor said :"what are you afraid of?? I am your friend. Cool your self down." then we sit on the chair. then doctor said: "well how must we start??" I said: "I want to be alone with you." and my mother went out.

BOOM. I found that I am alone and I have no ready for to say. I was confused. but I said: " all and all, I need to be a girl. I am a girl. not a boy. " I was not sure about what I was telling. cause I was not making them. they were coming out only from my mouth. then I became afraid. I said to my self: "Do I start well??" but after a sec he said: "what made you say that??" and I said :" my feelings " and he simply laughed and said: " how long have you had this feelings?? " It was a subject that I was thinking about from last night. then I told him: " simply I had this feeling since I can remember. I can remember when I was 3. then I had this feeling from that time." he asked me some questions and I answers them honestly.

one the questions was :"did you ever felled in Love with a girl?? did you ever wanted to have sex??" I told: "I had no sex, and really I hate sex. but truth is I have never felled in love with a girl. when I looked them even naked It makes nothing In me. but I have felled in love with a boy. I have told him I love you and he loves me too." he laughed and said: "are you gay??" I found that he is joking, then I said :"yea, I am a gay who hates his pe###. all gays love they're pe### and tes#####. but I simply hate them. I simply hate sex. and simply I love boys. Its an easy formula."

we talked with each other around 1 hour. after 1 hour he made a sentence that moved me, that was this: " well, what do you want from me ma'am." I was surprised. because he said ma'am, I was a ma'am for him. I found that I have qualified in his test. then I told him :"To tell the truth I want you help me to start my HRT". he said: "I couldn't judge about this. I have found that you are completely a girl. you are a transsexual. but in Iran you need to go to a court and court must judge. you must visit another doctor (I have forgot his name) and he will judge on you and he will tell the court about you. I am sure, I am sure that you can satisfy him. you are a girl, a true girl, a real girl."

I was happy in that moment. A doctor was saying :"you are a girl". it was fantastic for me. But i was confused, then I told my doctor: "how can I bring my mom to court when she believes that I am crazy and she believes I am not a Transsexual." doctor said:" Its my duty. We are running out of time. but in next meeting I will convince your mother. your mother must know that she has 1 son and 2 daughter, not 1 daughter and 2 son. she must understand it." I was crying because of happiness. he continued: "I will refer you to court after next meeting. first of all we must convince your family." then he asked me to leave the room. when I left he called my mother to went in. when my mother came out, hugged me. and told me :" I need to think about your future. but we must come here another time. " I was going to death. because of overdosing the happiness. I got lots of happiness. I told my mother :" please think about Yasmin. " she told me: " who is yasmin " and I told her: " you will know who she is. " she got it and laughed. I laughed too.

we went out and we reserved our time as an urgent time. Im counting seconds to reach the next meeting. I am so happy.

BUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the first thing I've done after meeting the doctor was coming in laura's playground and informing my family about my experiences.

AT LAST I HAVE WONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM GOING TO BE A GIRLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kim orbit, wish an optimistic view to life, happy, and full of energy. I want to cry for some minutes. I want to drop tears of happiness.

Best Wishes. Hoping bests.

Kim Orbit

[Cyndee]

That is such fantastic news Kim I am so happy your evaluation confirmed what you already know. Sounds like you reached the right person to begin to help you.

Best wishes in the next phase of this process where you live, amazing story, thanks for sharing.

Hugs

Cindy -

[KimOrbit]

Thank you Cynthia. <<HUGS>>

I will share next phases but next phase is easy. My doctor is going to tell my mother what is going on. but a fear always comes to me when I hear some thing about court. is the court phase scary?? is that hard?? or its a peace of cake??

I wish it is a peace of cake and nothing more

KIM, With best wishes

[Guest Risu]

KimOrbit, This is wonderful news and I am thrilled things ended well! I hope the rest of the process comes and goes quickly. Please keep us informed!

[Guest Krisina]

KimOrbit That's great news.

I'm so happy for you

I'm so happy you aren't scared anymore.

Krisina

[KimOrbit]

thank you a lot. your helps done their job.

My mother has told every thing to my father. I was talking with him now. He was trying to convince me that I am not a girl. he was trying to make me believe that I have forgotten my childhood and most of my childhood dreams was some thing that my mind has made it.

I think i have faced another problem. but no matter. It will be solved like others. I will make my father believe in me, believe in KIM not KIT.

difference is only between two characters, I dont know why they dont want to change a T to an M. :D i was joking.

your friend. Kim

[Guest Felicia Anne]

you took a big step, kept your bearings, and are stronger than before.

i am very, very proud of you!!!!!

[Guest Svenna]

Kim (or, Yasmin?),

I am weeping tears of joy for you...

Very well done! I hope for your continued success...this will be hard, but life as a 'man' is harder still...

Love and strength to you, Svenna

[~Nova~]

Yasmin, you have taken the first step, you have done all you can up to this point. Now you have to enjoy the feelings. Dont worry about what will happen, only think about what has happened. Of course that's easy for me to say even tho I'm freaking out about Friday (the day I come out at work)

I'm so happy for you. Even with your broken English you brought tears of joy to my eyes.

Best of luck from your extended family.

Autumn.

[Guest]

Hi Kim,

I got a chance finally to reply, after reading this and thinking of you all day.

This is so wonderful! You have made everyone here so happy for you! Mark this day on your calendar - the day the new you was born!

Please let us know how it goes from here.

All my love, Megan

[Guest Izzybell]

This is really awesome, Kim! I was going to wish you good luck on my post, but I realized I was a day too late. lol

I'm so glad it went well! I wish you the best!

-Izzy

[Guest Mia J]

This is good news Kim,

I am sure you will find it easier now and with a gender therapist.

Good luck.

Mia

[Carolyn Marie]

Kim, you go right ahead and cry your tears of joy. I'm shedding a few here in relief and happiness for you.

What has happened is just wonderful, and I hope the rest of your journey is just as good, and just as filled with happiness, God willing.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[JenniferB]

I can feel your excitement here on the other side of the world. Now you are on your way and it's only a matter of time until everyone knows you as Kim. I can't wait to hear your journey. You are a special lady.

{{{Hugs}}}

Jenny

[Guest Roux]

This is wonderful news! Congratulations, Kim! I hope that the next meetings with the psychologists go just as well as this first one did, and that your family--and the court!--quickly accepts you as the girl you are. =)

[KimOrbit]

thank you all.

first of all please call me Kim Not Yasmin I love the name "Kit Orbit" because its the name of my hero, and I have changed it to "Kim Orbit" to become a name of a girl . but when my family can't understand why they must call me "Kit Orbit" or just "Kim Orbit" then I have selected a name for them Yasmin is a common name for girls in Iran.

and 2nd thank you for expressing your joy. I can see all my problems are solving fast. My current problem is my father. but im sure I can solve that problem too. He says :" I cant see any thing feminine in your past. I am confused. I dont know why you say that." and he feels guilty about me. I know its a phase. and I will challenge with that.

your friend, with best wishes, hoping best

Kim Orbit