She

[Guest Jamiexo]

She is the one

She has long blonde hair

She has long tan legs

She has the perfect eyes

She has the perfect body

She knows all the guys want her

She knows she is beautiful

She has confidence

She is smart

She goes to school

She is what every guy wants

She is the one that all the little girls look up to

She has the most popular styles

She has the best makeup

She has the best hairstyles

She is what other girls envy

She is not selfish

She wants to help people

She wants to help other people understand

She wants to be all the above

But She’s not

She would be

If

She wasn’t me

Who Is a He

She isn’t comfortable as he

He just wants to be She

she's scared people wont accept She

But

If people accepted she

They would find a better, happier me.

[Guest Michaele]

And every MTF has that tattooed on her heart.

Big Hugs

Shelley

[Guest Svenna]

Why do you keep such a fine woman hidden from the world, then?

I have to keep asking myself this question, too. Is it fear? Is it shame?

But this question trumps all others:

What will it profit a woman to gain the world but lose her very soul?

Not as if I am actually in danger of gaining the whole world as a male, either, so what is holding me back?

What holds YOU back?

One day, I'll be whole. One day, I'll wonder what all the fuss was about. One day, I'll just be me...

Hopefully, we can all make the leap to a rewarding and fulfilling life. Living this lie is dreadful. How can living as a female, even one that can't be 'stealth', be any worse than the sorry performance I've put on acting like a cis male?

Time for me to get real. Time to make the changes, accept the consequences and get free.

All aboard!

I'm hoping to keep my wondrous spouse, but I will lose my life, even the false one, if I don't proceed..

Best of luck and much success in your efforts to find peace, Svenna

[Guest Aly Kat]

wow that is really beautiful <3 I love poems like this

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

Beautiful thread. Beautiful thoughts. Beautiful replies.

Lacey

[Cyndee]

Very nice indeed.

Free her, and rejoice.

Cindy -

[Guest Jamiexo]

Thanks I'm glad you all like it...

to: Svenna, ( I love your name btw) but what I think whats keeps holding me back is not shame, not what my friends will think but purely the fear of will I be excepted by my family. I know the odds are I will be but then again there is that chance they won't and that is what scares me because there is nothing more important to me than my family...

Although I have lived the last couple of months on my own and living by myself I know I can do it on my own at least for a while, so really I don't think it will be long before Jamie shines and the boy I am is gone forever..

[Guest Donna Jean]

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Geez.......how many of us feel that way?

Oh my!

Dee Jay

[Sally]

Very well stated - the confidence is all that we lack - once finding that happiness is possible.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Svenna]

Thanks I'm glad you all like it...

to: Svenna, ( I love your name btw) but what I think whats keeps holding me back is not shame, not what my friends will think but purely the fear of will I be excepted by my family. I know the odds are I will be but then again there is that chance they won't and that is what scares me because there is nothing more important to me than my family...

Although I have lived the last couple of months on my own and living by myself I know I can do it on my own at least for a while, so really I don't think it will be long before Jamie shines and the boy I am is gone forever..

Jamie,

I am just starting to gain the first inches of progress on what will be likely be an epic journey, so I don't speak with much validated authority on the subject, but my experience so far leads me to believe that the slow and steady approach will work best with friends and family. Too much, too fast will be just that. Too much, too fast!

I know I have an aching desire to go all out and start buying and wearing makeup, clothes, and accessories and immerse myself in all things feminine both publicly and in private. But by doing so, I will surely alienate a large swath of people in my life needlessly, including and most importantly, the love of my life. By gauging just how far I can push the envelope, I gain the inches I need to breathe, and slowly desensitize her to my growing female-ishness. The issues we face as our real selves become manifest are complex and shouldn't be discussed in times of duress if you want to be truly understood. Only time and effort can break down the barriers of ignorance and misunderstanding that stand between our true selves and the acceptance of our loved ones. Tread lightly!

But, as I say, I am barely on this road myself, but I am greatly enjoying even the modest gains I have made so far. I will never deny my womanhood to myself again. That alone has been worth all of the tears shed lately...

Love and harmony, Svenna

[Guest Nikki_R]

Very Beautiful!!!

[Guest Toni Reed]

Since the begining of time men have been in control here and I don't see it changing anytime soon - It's hardwired in them. their need for absolute control and domination is born out of fear - they are really to insecure to accept the FACT that women could do as good of a job,if not better,of making this world turn. it's because of this insecurity that they have to rule . They can never relinquish the power they've gained... I guess what I'm getting at here is that fear breeds fear. And; Yes anyone in a minority will always be under there rule - especially us as a sexual minority. We are a direct theat to their maculinity and therefore because of this homophobia,which is a very powerfull emotional loop program that is so widespread and acceptable to a vast majority,we are a target, so, we live in fear of what the consequences will be for our behavior. But fortunately there are those of us who are willing to make a stand. And, their courage,thank god is becoming more and more infectious.....

One of my favorite quotes is from Thomas Dolby and I think it says alot - " The beauty of a dream is - You never let it go... "

Every post on this thead reflects the way we as a sexual minority feel... Praise to those of us on the vanguard and help us find our way...God! it took me long enough to say just 2 things - Sorry 'bout the first part. I know that all of us already now how the world turns... I love you all!

[Guest miss kindheart]

I love the poem Jamie

<<< hug >>>

vanna