Horrible, Disgusting Beasts Of Burden!

[Guest harvester52]

I am so FED UP WITH BREASTS! I can't even stand the feel of having them there, I am so DISGUSTED with my physical self because of THOSE! I won't actually do this, but there's been many times where a thought crosses my head to go get a steak knife and get rid the foreign bodily objects that don't belong there. Any time I don't have my binder on, I can barely take it to stand up because they show, I can't stand to walk because they move and I feel them... UGH! SO GROSS!

And here's the worst part of it... I have no money, which means no paying for a therapist, which means no hormones, surgery, etc. My parents have no money, so they can't pay for a therapist. I'm completely and totally STUCK and I HATE IT.

-BC

[Guest raydub]

Vent on bro.

I can totally relate. I used to get into it with my s/o cause I never wanted to NOT be bound. I won that battle and now she just dislikes it to herself and leaves me out of it.

One day at a time BC...keep doing the things you need to do to take care of yourself in the mean time and youll get there. The money will come - even if it takes a while. Take care of yourself man and keep venting.. its good for you.

love

Ray

[Guest jantonio]

Yep, I know what you mean about those 2 flying objects. I can't even look at myself in the mirror showing those twins. I can't wait for my surgery to remove them and go topless on the beach.

Hang in there man, you're still young and have plenty of time to save money. Wishing you the best.

Jose Antonio...

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

BC,

I am so sorry, man. I totally have felt what you are feeling right now. Ever since I can remember, I have worn a really tight bra all the time. I never take it off, not even to sleep....just for showering. The feeling of "movement" just gets to me. My tumors are giant and I can't really bind. I've tried a few different ways, but nothing seems to work. Man...I don't know anything to say that will help much, but I so know where you are coming from.

Take heart, you are a young guy. If you are determined, you will eventually be able to save up enough money to get therapy and top surgery. The good news is, compared to other surgeries, top surgery doesn't cost that much. It's still expensive, but not like a hysto or anything.

On the therapy front, I think I might be able to help a little. Most cities/counties in the US have state run mental health clinics that will see you. If you don't have money, then a lot of them will let you pay on a sliding scale. What that means is that they change how much they charge you based on how much money you make. If you are really poor, sometimes you can see a therapist for free. I forget what state you live in, but most states have a service like this. Sometimes the therapists you get aren't so good, but other times they are great. You're 18, aren't you? If you are, then you can go to one of these clinics without your parents or anything.

Stay strong!

[Guest Chrissie]

Just remember that there are plenty of MTFs that would trade with you in a heartbeat if it were possible. One man's burden is a woman's treasure... (well you get the Idea...)

:P :P :P

Chrissie

[Guest CharlieRose]

I sleep on my stomach, and every once in a while, I'll realize I can feel them under me. Then I groan and put my face into my pillow. I'm lucky enough to have inherited really tiny ones; I don't really have to bind if I wear a loose shirt. But still. They're all.. gross.

[Guest DZyg]

Dude, I am so with you and I feel your pain.

I am saddled by "massive tumors" (my term) that defy most forms of binding. Stay strong.

Dino

[Flint]

I've been having similar issues just recently so know how you feel. I've put on some weight and either they have grown...or i'm just noticing them more i'm not sure which but i'm noticing them ALOT more, i thought many times about getting a knife and cutting them off! I once had a dream that i cut a little hole and just basicly braught loads of tissue out of them and then stitched it back up and i had a male chest.....If oonly it was that easy

[Guest JayRoss]

I've been having similar issues just recently so know how you feel. I've put on some weight and either they have grown...or i'm just noticing them more i'm not sure which but i'm noticing them ALOT more, i thought many times about getting a knife and cutting them off! I once had a dream that i cut a little hole and just basicly braught loads of tissue out of them and then stitched it back up and i had a male chest.....If oonly it was that easy

I know just how you feel. I have fairly small ones, but they've been growing lately and ever day I just look at them and go "ugh. Go away." But of course, they need to. Still, I looked up prices today and theirs a place here in Florida that does Top surgery for only $5700. It's a lot, I know, but its so much less than I thought it would be.

[Guest theEND]

Arg, I know what you mean I hate them so much, but what can you do..

[Guest Evan_J]

Suffering and gnashing of the teeth...I feel ya.

If they just "moved" it would be horrible enough but "swinging around" ? Thank God for the good individual who created binders. And I'm sayin personal prayers for all chest reconstuction surgeons.

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

Argh, I hate my chest too.

It's bad enough having small breasts and being a fat guy (so I look gynecomastic); it'll be worse if I lose more weight and start getting the HORRIBLE curves again >_____< and they won't even think of testosterone until I'm slimmer.