OH BOY HERE GOES

[Guest jody h]

HI ALL

To try and write this and it make sense all in one go is not easy so forgive me if it is a bit odd. im male bodied and 48 and live in the uk. From young i have been aware that something just wasnt right and during a lot of my early to mid life i was shy and very confussed over what i was. i got through as a male but always had strange feelings. i put it down to been gay and that seemed to cover it but as i overcame shyness and ventured out i realized it was more than ordinary gay. it has taken many years of soul seeking to realize that inside this body is a female heart. i was never the instant im in the wrong body sort but i couldnt work out why the body was wrong if that makes sense. i was brought up in a family where such things were just not open for discussion so i guess it got suppressed by me. in private i started to understand more over the years but had long periods of denile followed by a bit more of release of who i belive i am. if i had been born a girl i belive i would have been a tomboy but still on the female side.

With absolutly no offence ment to any trans guys i never fell into the steriotype trans box of womens dress, boobs and make up, my mixup of genes was closer to the male/female divide and as such has taken a long long time to finaly show. the easiest way i can describe it is if i was a spice girl id be scary spice but girl i am!!!

Now i have finally admitted and acepted this to myself i feel like i have found myself and now have to decide the future.

[Guest Mia J]

Hello and welcome to Laura's, we are happy to have you here.

There are many here who have felt the way you have during your life. It is not all that uncommon for a transgender person to have felt they were gay and not realize until later that they also had gender issues.

There is a wide range of where people fall in the gender spectrum and there is really not any one stereotype that you have to fit. Those days are long gone. If you haven't yet, you may want to seek the help of a good gender therapist to help you decide just where you fit and what steps you want to take.

Here a Laura's we can give advise and share our own experiences but we are not therapists.

We do ask that you take a look at the rules to get an idea of how we operate on the forums.

Have a look around and jump in and post when you want.

Mia

[MaryEllen]

Hello Rehtnap,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Thank you for sharing with us.

MaryEllen

[Guest jody h]

Thank you

yes the next step is a therapist still so new to me but has never felt so right.

[Guest cynthash]

HI ALL

To try and write this and it make sense all in one go is not easy so forgive me if it is a bit odd. im male bodied and 48 and live in the uk. From young i have been aware that something just wasnt right and during a lot of my early to mid life i was shy and very confussed over what i was. i got through as a male but always had strange feelings. i put it down to been gay and that seemed to cover it but as i overcame shyness and ventured out i realized it was more than ordinary gay. it has taken many years of soul seeking to realize that inside this body is a female heart. i was never the instant im in the wrong body sort but i couldnt work out why the body was wrong if that makes sense. i was brought up in a family where such things were just not open for discussion so i guess it got suppressed by me. in private i started to understand more over the years but had long periods of denile followed by a bit more of release of who i belive i am. if i had been born a girl i belive i would have been a tomboy but still on the female side.

With absolutly no offence ment to any trans guys i never fell into the steriotype trans box of womens dress, boobs and make up, my mixup of genes was closer to the male/female divide and as such has taken a long long time to finaly show. the easiest way i can describe it is if i was a spice girl id be scary spice but girl i am!!!

Now i have finally admitted and acepted this to myself i feel like i have found myself and now have to decide the future.

I can definitely identify with the whole thing of family that doesn't speak of such things... Don't worry; here, we're all on the same side.

[Guest jody h]

thanks

it is true so many situations are not talked about in the hope that will solve it. its only through talking that situations get resolved and sites like this are a god send for people like me.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Rehtnap,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.

We all look forward to seeing you.

vanna

[Guest DebbieS]

From the Red Rose county to the White Rose county.........welcome again !

Debbie