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I'm so Horrible ! (with updates)


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Okies Girls where to start,

1. Sorry Dee Jay I kind of left our PM hanging due to being busy =( I'm a bad girl I know.

2. 6 month HRT and 3 month RLE Time is really flying by. Name change is Official (28 Aug) and everything but the Damn F is fixed ^__^. Three weeks ago i when up north to visit my parents for the first time since coming out to them, and overall it went well. When I first arrived my mom greeted me and told me I have changed a lot since she last saw me, over 2 years ago. My dad was a different story, he said welcome home son. = ( We talked for a while and I explained to them how I felt and why I have made this choice. My mom for the entire visit called me by Krysti, her, she or our daughter. That made me feel so good that my mom switch, use to be son till that day. They took me out to church and when some people said what a beautiful daughter they had I just blushed and grinned so much (was a nice rush).Over all the experience has brought me closer to my mom and same with my dad which I think he'll never get over losing a son.

3. Job wise I'm at a lost. I have applied for sooo many places and been turned down for ever place I have applied to, sad days. Oh well at least I'm drawing unemployment while I'm out but while I'm looking for a job I'm also applying for many schools so I can finish my 10 degree plan I started. With over 198 credits and no degree yet I need to do something.

4. I've also started drawing again, something I haven't done since before puberty back when I was last happy in my life. I'm working on making a web comic about translife, kind of like Venus Envy. If things start working out ill publish what I have already started

5. Hormones and its effects, Well last time I was having problems with dosages and my endo that all got worked out and now I'm on Estradiol (shot form), that right girls Shots form V.A., Progesterone and Spiro. over all after 6 month I'm a 36B and very happy, however they haven't filled out yet so if genetics has anything to do with it( I'm praying I don't get my mom's 34F,and that's even after a breast reduction!!) I'm going to be decently racked. The V.A. her finally got off their butts and referred me to the women's clinic for now on, ya for acceptance!!!! Skin is so soft now, but its soooo dry. I need lotion like a baby needs milk. I thought the emotional changes when you first start were bad, at 6 month I can cry on a moment's notice over anything, my butt and thighs are getting bigger, and fat distribution is doing its job. My taste in food is something I didn't expect with hormones and now I crave salads and fruits more than meat and potatoes. Strength is gone, 10 and 20lbs is getting too heavy when I used to lift 160lb troops like it was nothing

6. Social scene is going great, I pass anywhere I go and I'm accepted as a female anywhere no one gives a second thought. Shopping, exercising, talking, ordering food and buying clothes I'm ma'am to everyone. I have so new girlfriend that live near me that I talk to a lot and even invite me for beer and pizza for a girl's night out! I've even been asked the dreaded tampon question ......yikes! Only problem I'm having is dating, I just can't seem to get the nerve or the mood for it. I'm too afraid of another heartbreak after my divorce

Well I'm sorry this is so long, I forget to update so this is about 5% of what's going on. So till I remember again love ya'll

~Krysti

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Hi Krysti,

Congratulations on all of the progress!

I do understand the difficulty in writing updates - they're obsolete in moments and take too much time from a girl's busy life! I used to have nothing but time when the closet was my only friend. Now, real life is available at my fingertips, and, it seems, there's no time to lose!

Best of luck with the job and finishing your degree. And stop by every once in a while to let us know how you're doing!

Love, Megan

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What a wonderful update Krysti!

you have a way of making people feel they are sharing it with you. I am glad so much is good and positive. The job thing is a challenge many face right now trans or not. I hope that or the school thing comes through for you soon.

I know how real life can keep you away but I look forward to your next update. You have a great style of, and congrats on the positive visit with the parents too.

Johnny

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Krysti, I am so very happy for you. Especially the part about your family. It sounds like you're willing to cut your father some slack, which is the right approach. Father's usually have a special bond with sons, and envision them following in dad's footsteps and all that. it can be hard to make the adjustment. Give him time.

Everything else sound grand, Krysti. I wish you luck on the job search and school.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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What a great update Krysti. Thank you for sharing your update with us. Except for the job everything seems to be going great for you. Give your dad some time. Many times parents need time to mourn the loss of the son before they can fully accept the new daughter.

Looking forward to see your next update.

Mia

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Krysti,

Well done, girl!!!!

So much forward motion in a relatively short time span, it makes my head spin!

Please update us as you get the chance, those of us running behind you benefit greatly from your story. I just started HRT today myself and I am eager to get out of the closet and out into real life. Thank you for sharing!

Love and such, Svenna

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