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A Girl's Early Life Trama.....

Guest Donna Jean

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I was 5 years old and living with a couple of cousins, grand parents, parents. It was in Georgia in an old mansion house.

One day everyone (grown ups) were all in the living room ...sitting around talking....

My older cousin, Linda, took me upstairs and made me up...cute dress, makeup, shoes...the works....

I was so very happy and I thought that I looked wonderful and I was SO proud!

She took me by the hand and said..."Let's go downstairs and show you off!"

YES! I wanted everyone to see how lovely I looked!

When we walked into the living room, all talking stopped and the laughing started. My parents yelled at me to get out of that stuff...."DAMNIT ...YOU'RE A BOY!"

Well, no I wasn't.....

I ran upstairs crying and took everything off....I cried all afternoon.....

In the following years I went so deep underground that you couldn't get me out with a crowbar.....

Thanks a lot, folks.......

It took me half a century, but.....I WIN!

Donna jean

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Donna Jean, when I was about 5 an older daughter of an older friend would paint my fingernails and I loved it. She would talk to me as a girl the whole time. They didnt have any clothers that would fit me so it was just the nails. Well, of course, we were seen by my dad and "Uncle" Sonny and immediately they started picking on me. The didnt get mad, they just ridiculed me. My dad saying that maybe he should get some diapers. I REALLY think they just didnt understand the damage their words where doing but that also cemented in my mind that I had to hid this side of me at any cost.

Probably lots of us have similar stories and we all support you and each other.

27 hours till 1st GT apt.

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poor donna jean! how cruel of them to hurt you sooo.

my heart hurts with yours sister. i cry for you.

i also cry tears of joy, that you did win in the end!

Good for you sweetheart, good for you!

shame on them, you are beautiful!

love and hugs,

Eliza

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Do we all have something like this? I suggest that this is very likely. So very unfair to be ridiculed for something we never asked to be.

gender dysphoric.

SUX don't it!

Lizzie

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Poor little girl! Wish I could give her a big hug and promise her someday.............

Here is a virtual hug anyway. HUG

You did win - and became a great lady as well

JJ

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Dee Jay,

Yes you did win. And this post shows ultimately we can get there.

Thanks,

John

Yes...we CAN get there, John....but, not without years of pain and shame!

Dee Jay

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Donna Jean, when I was about 5 an older daughter of an older friend would paint my fingernails and I loved it. She would talk to me as a girl the whole time. They didnt have any clothers that would fit me so it was just the nails. Well, of course, we were seen by my dad and "Uncle" Sonny and immediately they started picking on me. The didnt get mad, they just ridiculed me. My dad saying that maybe he should get some diapers. I REALLY think they just didnt understand the damage their words where doing but that also cemented in my mind that I had to hid this side of me at any cost.

Probably lots of us have similar stories and we all support you and each other.

27 hours till 1st GT apt.

Good luck on your GT visit!

poor donna jean! how cruel of them to hurt you sooo.

my heart hurts with yours sister. i cry for you.

i also cry tears of joy, that you did win in the end!

Good for you sweetheart, good for you!

shame on them, you are beautiful!

love and hugs,

Eliza

Actually, I think that it's cruel to make fun of children for any reason...small egos are so fragile!

Poor little girl! Wish I could give her a big hug and promise her someday.............

Here is a virtual hug anyway. HUG

You did win - and became a great lady as well

JJ

Sometimes a victory rings hollow depending on the terms....

I could of been myself for decades.....

*sigh*

Dee Jay

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Guest Donna Jean

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Do we all have something like this? I suggest that this is very likely. So very unfair to be ridiculed for something we never asked to be.

gender dysphoric.

SUX don't it!

Lizzie

I agree, Dear Heart...unfair......

The only plus side these days is that more and more parents are seeking help for their kids when they show the kind of behavior that we showed as children......

It could of saved us years of misery...

LOVE

Dee Jay

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Do we all have something like this? I suggest that this is very likely. So very unfair to be ridiculed for something we never asked to be.

gender dysphoric.

SUX don't it!

Lizzie

Yep, for me it was wearing my sisters nightgowns, and I got physically punished for it.

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Yes...we CAN get there, John....but, not without years of pain and shame!

Dee Jay

Dee Jay, and sometimes that pain still happens now and when that does, all we can do is be here for each other.

John

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Yes...we CAN get there, John....but, not without years of pain and shame!

Dee Jay

Dee Jay, and sometimes that pain still happens now and when that does, all we can do is be here for each other.

John

True enough....,,I just wish that we could circumvent so much more of it........

Dee Jay

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Education and being visible hasn't got us where we need to be but we are making progress. It is a lot easier today than it was for that little girl in Georgia crying her eyes out.,

John

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We all really do have to come from some real adversity and face a lot of real pain but Donna you continue to be a shining example to us all that the past and all the pain it holds cannot hold us back from rising above it and finding ourselves. You believed in who you are and took a chance and now look at you in the winner’s circle. You got there and I pray we all will meet you there soon.

Audrey

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We all really do have to come from some real adversity and face a lot of real pain but Donna you continue to be a shining example to us all that the past and all the pain it holds cannot hold us back from rising above it and finding ourselves. You believed in who you are and took a chance and now look at you in the winner’s circle. You got there and I pray we all will meet you there soon.

Audrey

Yes, Honey........

Most of us on this site can relate to my story one way or another..,....

Years of hiding, shame, disappointment, denial.....

Let's work for a better life for the younger ones...

Dee Jay

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for me, i wanted barbies, my little pony, etc. never got them, and when i put them in the cart, my parents took them out and loudly scolded me in front of the little boys, saying those are girls toys! you cant have girls toys! youre a boy!

when i got my own money for picking up pine cones for my grandad, i bought a my little pony, i was in second grade. i took it to school with me in my book bag. some of the boys found it, and ridiculed and sat on ke saying, youre a sissy girl!

later, with more money, i bought madonnas like a virgin tape. then i learned to play the guitar, music became my first escape. unfortunately, i could only listen to madonna when dad wasnt home. but he was working all the time, so i got to listen to it alot..joy! mom left us when i was three, so she wasnt in the picture.

i should have told my grandmama, about being a little girl, she would have gotten me help, and probably all the my little ponies i wanted. sadly, i was too afraid at that point, and already trying vehemently to fit in as a boy.

25-30 years later, I won too!

the joy and freedom of womanhood, at last! praise god!

love and hugs,

Eliza

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We all really do have to come from some real adversity and face a lot of real pain but Donna you continue to be a shining example to us all that the past and all the pain it holds cannot hold us back from rising above it and finding ourselves. You believed in who you are and took a chance and now look at you in the winner’s circle. You got there and I pray we all will meet you there soon.

Audrey

Yes, Honey........

Most of us on this site can relate to my story one way or another..,....

Years of hiding, shame, disappointment, denial.....

Let's work for a better life for the younger ones...

Dee Jay

Totally agree!

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i mistyped a key part of my story above, the boys ridiculed, and spat on me saying youre a sissy girl.

these darn smartphones, i mistype things and sometimes never know.

usually its easy to decipher, but spat on me is a little more harsh than sat on me.

lol!

Eliza

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i mistyped a key part of my story above, the boys ridiculed, and spat on me saying youre a sissy girl.

these darn smartphones, i mistype things and sometimes never know.

usually its easy to decipher, but spat on me is a little more harsh than sat on me.

lol!

Eliza

Well, yeah.......

Sat on and spit on certainly are different!

Dee Jay

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Dee Jay, it is a blessing that you are here with us to give us support and allow us to benefit from your experience.

i am very thankful that you finally won, and can be such a positive influence in my life and those of others in our family her.

bless you,

Hugs,

Eliza

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When I was little little, my mom and sister put me in one of my sister's old onesies and took pictures. They thought I looked so cute and they both secretly wanted another daughter in the family.

...30 some years later they finally got their wish. Not sure why they weren't overjoyed when I finally came out but hey, that's all water on the knee now...or under the bridge...or something like that. You get the idea.

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Yes we do have a lot of similar experiences, for me I was about 4 and my older sister and I were playing dress up - lots of petticoats were involved and we decided to go across the street to visit a neighbor - the older boys from a couple of houses up saw me and ran over to make fun of me and push me around for a little bit before an adult came out and I ran home - it was not my parents but the trauma stayed with me for a very long time too.

Love ya,

Sally

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