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Ye Gads, What Have I Done?!


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I've gone and done something that changed my hair from blond to black and white, given me hair in places I never thought about before and caused me to have to shave every day. I loathe shaving.

My friends and neighbors no longer recognize me and I went from perfectly respectable in every way to someone some people loathe on principal. I could go anywhere and now there are places in the world I fear to be.

I had to get rid of all my clothes too and get different ones. Plainer.

I couldn't sing before but I could sing for me-now I croak. Deeply. Even I can't stand it

What have I gone and done!

Transitioned. And I love every minute of it

:D

Johnny

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I was sitting in the bath earlier and I asked a similar question when I noticed that my testes had almost disappeared completely. They are easily less than 25% that they were two months ago.

Egads, what have I done...I've destroyed my testicles??? I had a moment of terror sitting there, until the sensation of the bubble bath on my freshly shaved legs captured my attention. I then looked my legs up and down and gave my new breasts a once over, too. I loved what I was seeing and feeling. I looked down between my legs and you know what? It looked like it didn't belong there. I wasn't concerned about my 'loss', I was now thinking about how much better I'd be served by having them removed entirely and having my 'outie' turned into an 'innie'...

We've gone and done it now, Johnny!

We've allowed the changes to take root and change us for the better...

And we love it...

Love, Svenna

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Guest Isobelle Fox

I love it. ::laughs::

I think about this kind of thing all the time. As grateful as I am for all thats come of my transition, it is clear when you regard what is lost and gained in the process that at least some of it is stuff you wouldn't necissarily EVER want to lose or gain : P

The great thing, though, is how it all ends up being totally worth it.

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Guest Lacey Lynne

Johnny:

Our Brother, you've had a hard row to hoe, as the old saying goes. Know what? I believe it was WORTH IT for you! Why?

Well, remember when we were young? Remember Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. and the young Reverend Jesse Jackson in the early- and mid-1960s leading people of color (and other sympathetic people of all races) in the song "We Shall Overcome" back in The Day? Well:

Just as people of color generally overcame tremendous odds against them, likewise, you, too, Big Brother of LP have done exactly that in the selfsame fashion and in your own way germane to your own circumstances. It takes A REAL MAN to do that!

Uh, 'nuff said, man!

Respectfully :thumbsup: Lacey

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Guest Lacey Lynne

I was sitting in the bath earlier and I asked a similar question when I noticed that my testes had almost disappeared completely. They are easily less than 25% that they were two months ago.

Egads, what have I done...I've destroyed my testicles??? I had a moment of terror sitting there, until the sensation of the bubble bath on my freshly shaved legs captured my attention. I then looked my legs up and down and gave my new breasts a once over, too. I loved what I was seeing and feeling. I looked down between my legs and you know what? It looked like it didn't belong there. I wasn't concerned about my 'loss', I was now thinking about how much better I'd be served by having them removed entirely and having my 'outie' turned into an 'innie'...

We've gone and done it now, Johnny!

We've allowed the changes to take root and change us for the better...

And we love it...

Love, Svenna

Svenna!

Good Goddess Almighty, girl!

What you say is EXACTLY my fear too! THAT'S what's made me want to turn back too! THAT'S what's made me wary of "hitting the heavy spironolactone" prescribed for me just this week by my prescribing HRT doctor! THAT'S what scares the ever-lovin' bejesus outta me!

Watching "The Ole Package" dwindle down to childlike dinginess scares the heck outta me too. That's what made me hate myself for being trans. That's what made me want to bag transition and "get it back" and find a good woman and be "a normal guy" and the like. That's what kept me up half the night many nights.

Just today, I crossed the Rubicon, as it were. So, ye aulde bagge will no longer be flippantly aflap. Methinks perchance it's time to bid it adieu. Dingy dandily adangle? No more. SRS/GCS? It's coming into focus. What can I say?

Peace :friends: Lacey

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I was sitting in the bath earlier and I asked a similar question when I noticed that my testes had almost disappeared completely. They are easily less than 25% that they were two months ago.

Egads, what have I done...I've destroyed my testicles??? I had a moment of terror sitting there, until the sensation of the bubble bath on my freshly shaved legs captured my attention. I then looked my legs up and down and gave my new breasts a once over, too. I loved what I was seeing and feeling. I looked down between my legs and you know what? It looked like it didn't belong there. I wasn't concerned about my 'loss', I was now thinking about how much better I'd be served by having them removed entirely and having my 'outie' turned into an 'innie'...

We've gone and done it now, Johnny!

We've allowed the changes to take root and change us for the better...

And we love it...

Love, Svenna

Svenna!

Good Goddess Almighty, girl!

What you say is EXACTLY my fear too! THAT'S what's made me want to turn back too! THAT'S what's made me wary of "hitting the heavy spironolactone" prescribed for me just this week by my prescribing HRT doctor! THAT'S what scares the ever-lovin' bejesus outta me!

Watching "The Ole Package" dwindle down to childlike dinginess scares the heck outta me too. That's what made me hate myself for being trans. That's what made me want to bag transition and "get it back" and find a good woman and be "a normal guy" and the like. That's what kept me up half the night many nights.

Just today, I crossed the Rubicon, as it were. So, ye aulde bagge will no longer be flippantly aflap. Methinks perchance it's time to bid it adieu. Dingy dandily adangle? No more. SRS/GCS? It's coming into focus. What can I say?

Peace :friends: Lacey

I am reaching a fork in the road and I have no ability to steer. Staying on low-dose HRT will very likely suffice to castrate me chemically in short order. And at a primal level, I have to acknowledge that the loss of my giant hun-testicles equates to a loss of power and certain opportunities for the lrest of my life. It is true that these losses will likely be quickly forgotten once my plumbing is in order and functioning as intended...lol...

Again, we approach a 'take it on faith' sorta challenge. Do we really believe we will be better off with 'slot B than 'tab A'?

In my quietest moments, when my mind is still and the outside world has stopped making demands, I know I'll miss the joy of owning and operating boy-junk, but it always has felt like a borrowed tool to me, anyway. A fine specimen, but it just doesn't match my neurology. It has always felt somewhat alien. I now know why...

But still, those t-factories have provided what little steam I was able to muster against the violence and physicality of the male world I was thrust into. I have learned over the years to harness much progress out of t-driven sexual tension. It hasn't always served me well, but the T did serve me in many ways. And now? I guess I'll just have to see what more E can do! But more E will likely speed up the death of the testes? Here we go again, on another endless loop.

This is another one of those moments where one must decide to either save his cake or eat it. Conventional wisdom has it that one cannot have his cake and eat it, too. But, dang, not even a little piece? Just a smidgeon?

Taking a deep breathe now.

Serious business, right here, right now...

What to do?

Relent to the inevitable. I must eat that dang blue cake!

Really, I gotta go take my dose! lol..

Love, Svenna

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Guest Donna Jean

...... given me hair in places I never thought about before and caused me to have to shave every day. I loathe shaving.

Johnny

Don't worry about it hon......as an ex-male bodied person, I can tell you that you only have to shave for 45-50 years...then, it's all smooth sailing!

LOLO

'Dee Jay

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