Become Full Female

[Guest Amy LeBlanc]

Hello All:

Do not know if there is already post like this but wanted to know if anyone else has been having the same feelings that I have been having. I am currently 30 years old and have been dressing up for the past 2 decades. At first I have been enjoying dressing up like a girl but in seceret and have considered myself as a crossdresser. But just recentily for the past 2 years I have been feeling more than a crossdresser. I have been noticeing that I have been wanting to be dressed up more and that I have not want to ware my male clothes. I feel like that I am forcing myself to be male and wear male clothes and I have been really starting to hate it. I have had dreams that there is a magic pill out there that I can take and it will turn me into a girl. I have been wanting to become a girl more and more. Also on top of me wanting to become a girl more and more, I have been wanting to experiment as well and to find someone to penterate me in bed. Hope that I am not to rude but just wanting to know if anyone else has had these same feeelings or not.

thanks for reading

Amy

[Guest Amanda Whyte]

Amy, I think it is time for you to find a Gender Therapist and make an appointment. They will help you staighten your thoughts out and see where you need to head with your life.

[Guest Amberley_Vail]

I know exactly how you feel. I used to fantasize that there would be a pill or something that would slowly turn me female. That way I could explain to everyone that it was medical, and I couldnt stop it. I dont know. I thought that if I made it look like it wasnt my choice, Id be more accepted.

However, rather than one pill it seems we're stuck with many pills and a surgery or 2 for now!

[Carolyn Marie]

What you are feeling is fairly common, Amy. It doesn't prove you are transsexual, but then again, you may be. I suggest you take Amanda's advice and see a G.T. They won't tell you whether you are trans, but they will help you figure it out for yourself. Either way, you'll be better off knowing.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Hello All:

Do not know if there is already post like this but wanted to know if anyone else has been having the same feelings that I have been having. I am currently 30 years old and have been dressing up for the past 2 decades. At first I have been enjoying dressing up like a girl but in seceret and have considered myself as a crossdresser. But just recentily for the past 2 years I have been feeling more than a crossdresser. I have been noticeing that I have been wanting to be dressed up more and that I have not want to ware my male clothes. I feel like that I am forcing myself to be male and wear male clothes and I have been really starting to hate it. I have had dreams that there is a magic pill out there that I can take and it will turn me into a girl. I have been wanting to become a girl more and more. Also on top of me wanting to become a girl more and more, I have been wanting to experiment as well and to find someone to penterate me in bed. Hope that I am not to rude but just wanting to know if anyone else has had these same feeelings or not.

thanks for reading

Amy

Yes - exactly.

Lizzie

[Guest rikkicd64]

I have felt that way at times and consider myself somewhere between a crossdresser and a transsexual. But at 65 years old, the operations are out, so I am stuck with crossdressing. I consider myself as a full time crossdesser and am happy with that so far. If I were 20 years younger I think I would consider another option. But I do relate to what you are feeling. I know in my own mind that I am more than a crossdresser and I can live with that. If you see a GT,it will help you discover the answer for you.

Rikki...

[Guest kimberly c]

Hi Amy, I am very much like you.I love crossdressing and have always wanted to be a girl. Dressing up is just a natural

part of me. In the bedroom I take the feminine role and penetration for me completes my desires.

Love Kim

[Guest rita63]

Amy When I was younger I used to dress and dream of a man. Well I got the man but he threw me out of bed when I wore panties. Being trans and bisexual wasn't acceptable in the mid 70's. Then I got married followed my male side for over 30 years. Eventually reepressing my femme side left me an alcohalic poor excuse for a husband.

Now in my 60's I am starting to learn about my femme side. If I can tell you anything its to take the time to explore all sides of yourself. My marriage and being a Dad was one fo the best things I did.

Hope you can find a therapist who can help you find your way. Doing it befor therapists existed was an adventure that continues.

hugs rita

[Guest Amber90]

Hi Amy,

I too, have felt this way on countless occasions. I have identified myself as a crossdresser for the past two years now (for the first nineteen years, I was regrettably ensnared in a dismal state of self-denial) and often believe that this is where my transgender behaviour ends. However, there are some periods, when my feelings take an unexpected turn, similar in nature to what you have described above.

I don’t dislike being a male (though I don’t particularly find it all that exciting to be perfectly honest) and becoming a woman sounds like a hell of a lot of work. Yet sometimes, I find myself fantasising about becoming a full time girl. During these periods, I tell myself that if I was a woman, then my life would be better, that I would no longer dislike my existence and that I would cease to be the shy fool that I am at present. Most of the time, these feelings are extremely brief, and can come and go within mere moments, however sometimes, these desires linger in my brain for weeks on end.

There were also times, during my undergraduate years, when I would come home after a disappointing night out, and in my overly drunken state, I would cry myself to sleep, repeating the words 'I want to be a girl' over and over again, long into the early hours of the morning.

Also, when I was a little boy, I would often daydream about my future self, travelling back in time to say hello. What was interesting about this daydream was that the tomorrow version of me was in fact a woman. For some reason, the thought of my adult self actually being transformed into a girl was a tremendously exhilarating notion for my infant mind.

Most of the time, I just assume that these desires are simply a by-product of having gender dysphoria, but there are also times when I think there might be more meaning behind such fantasies.

I think that it’s perfectly healthy to continue experimenting and questioning your gender, and if you ever feel the need to uncover any answers that you think may lie behind such thoughts, then a gender therapist is the right way to go about doing so. However, I think these feelings are common amongst many crossdressers, and often they amount to nothing more than a simple fantasy.

Amber

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[Guest brenda lee]

Amy , sweetie I too feel the same way .It is who we are, and there is nothing wrong with that .LOL Brenda Lee