Am I Being Paranoid?

[Guest Zandrogynous]

This morning I did not awake to the sounds of chirping birds, or my mildly annoying alarm clock. Instead, I was woken up by the sound of someone walking by my window and yelling something along the lines of, "commit suicide sweetheart, kill yourself, kill yourself, suicide is fun suicide is good." Needless to say I was very disturbed. I've never really experienced any hatred toward me, probably because I spent so long suppressing myself. I've been "out" a few times but not too often. Most of the time I just jump in my car and go. The thing is, I don't even know if that hateful little chant was meant for me or not. Maybe I am just being paranoid. I'm sure it has been directed towards others though. Why is there so much hate in the world? Why would my personality make someone wish my death? Why can't people just "live and let live?" All I know is that I want to move away now more than ever.

[Carolyn Marie]

While anything is possible, I wouldn't make any assumptions that it was directed at you. If you're not out in your neighborhood, then how much could anyone know?

Try not to dwell on it, hon. If it keeps happening, then it will be time for action. Until then, its just random stupidity.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest angels wings]

We get random Silly people doin silly things in our hood all the time . We have had windows broken graffiti .what I worked out is thy were not targeting us thy were just going about been there silly selves. Try not to worry about it people do Silly things and 99% of the time it is not directed at us . (((hugs)))

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

When we have a situation we're afraid of other people reacting badly to our minds tend to put 2 and 2 together and make 5 very easily. We hear what we're expecting to hear often rather than what's truly happening. Without anything to go on other than this one event though I'd be more likely to think it was just some rather disturbed or drunk person raving about their own thoughts or a totally idiot ranting at no one in particular rather than an actual hate slur. I know it's scary when something like this happens but try not to worry about it too much unless something more conclusive happens.

Gabe

[Guest Guest_SL]

Hey,

Regardless at who it was directed toward, it came from some deeply disturbed individual. In all truth, as long as it didn't come from you, it's hot air.

If it happens again, try to catch a look at who's doing it. Then file a report to the police.

There's hate in the world because too many people have grown up without love in their lives. And it's in the nature of humans as is the gift of beauty of expression.

Blow it off but note if it happens again. Then act.

"All I know is that I want to move away now more than ever." Hmmm? What else has taken place to prompt that statement? No reply needed but think about why you stated that. You can share here if you choose but I get the feeling there's more pressure from other sources. Just something to consider.

Sara Lee

[Guest Lauren~]

Most people are good; they don't waist their time harrassing other people. Only people that have psyciatric issues or who are in denial of who they really are, and thats their way of suppressing, are the ones that do things like that. So why even care about those people?

[Guest Melissa~]

Just six weeks ago I found a decapitated rabbit on my front porch head laying right next to it under a wood bench seat I have there. I was very disturbed, but I was due at work, I cleared it off, and called the PD from work, they were largely dismissive after looking at the scene. I told them I know of precisely no one in my neighborhood who actually has a problem with me, and figured it was random teen prank at worst.

Still it was a very very queasy time thinking about who would decapitate any animal and leave it on my porch while I was at work.

I eventually got home and investigated some more myself, I confirmed the rabbit was killed under than bench seat, the work of a dog or coyote that got distracted post kill, not a person at all. Doesn't do that poor rabbit any good, but it took a world or concern off my thought process.

[Michelle 2010]

One of my favorite sayings is "things are often not what they appear to be..."

Remembering that has often kept my reaction to something,

from creating a problem where none existed...

I have no idea what happened outside your window, but unless i was sure, I'd just let it go...

Hugs

Michelle

[VickySGV]

Considering the number of one way conversations I have heard coming from Blue Tooth users who have been kicked out of local bars, or even people in the middle of shopping malls, I make sure that I only react to what I know I heard while fully awake, and do, also try to see the person if I can. Cell phone pollution is a real pain!!