A Couple Of Questions

[Guest Exeter]

Hey, everyone. I haven't been posting much lately because nothing much has been progressing for me. I've been wondering about some things, though...

Firstly, how long would you think it's possible for the effects of testosterone to go more or less unnoticed by someone I'm not out to? I haven't started yet, but I want to within the next month or so, if I can. The only problem is I'm only out to three people in my family and the rest of them are very homophobic. There's one person, in particular, that's going to be a problem if he finds out... and sadly, I'm most likely going to have to be around him for a few months.

Secondly, I suffer from racing thoughts, mental fog, and severe concentration problems. It impairs my life so badly that I can hardly function any more. Is there any hope that some of this might lift upon starting T? Or is it probably another issue entirely? Sorry, I'm an idiot. I never thought to ask my therapist about any of this. I find it very difficult to talk to people and express my 'real' emotions. And we really didn't have enough time, as I could only afford so many sessions. I'm currently on hold with her.

[JJ]

Exeter-Though I think people may notice a change in appearance they won't know what it is unless you tell them. Throw on a little makeup or something that says female around them and they'll never notice. They might think you are exercising or buffing up but I'll bet that's it.

We don't develop characteristics we can't hide -the beard will need shaved daily but that usually takes months and the voice may deepen but you can push it up some and it is gradual too.

There have been a lot of reports that the brain symptoms you describe are from the brain and the hormone it is receiving being at odds. Note the resemblance to the mental fog of Fibromyalgia and CFS which it looks like is caused by low T even in women. Perhaps we need more T than other born female bodied because of our brain structures. The problem is that it is a subjective thing based so far on feelings so there is no way to prove it. I know it made a massive difference for me and my daughter hasn't mentioned Alzheimers in the last year I've been on T. Pre T she'd get frustrated at my brain fog and speculate about it frequently when irritated. (Actually was from Fibro but that has really improved too) . T has made a massive difference for me.

Johnny

[Guest Exeter]

Thanks, JJ.

I'm thinking I'll just have to take this as it comes. I'd really rather go ahead and start doing what I need to for myself, rather than delay starting T for even longer just to save a little potential conflict from nosey members of my family.

And that's interesting about the brain stuff. It's funny how I never used to be like this. I was so focused before puberty. I started going downhill after that and it got worse around 16 or 17. I've been horrible ever since.

It would certainly be nice if this was the reason. I'll keep my fingers crossed.