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Guest Miyuki

Hi, I’m yuki.

I’m a MTF transgender girl I’m 23 years old and I am pre everything. I’m also immensely shy it was worse during teenage years it was to the point I would start shaking and sweating. But If all goes as planned hoping to start HRT maybe next year. I've come to accept myself 2 years ago after dressing up a weekend as a girl. The week before I planned my destination did full body wax and got my eyebrows done to a point where they didn’t look too girly but they didn’t look like a guys eyebrows. One day I dressed up in a cute pleated skirt and shirt with a tie and of course I used a wig long black hair like I would like my hair to grow as. For shoes I had platform heels. For makeup I didn’t used much for as I have experimented and sort of practiced and learned that less is more when it comes to makeup, Used enough to cover beard shadow and did Smokey eyes which wasn’t too bad considering that it was first time trying makeup on my eyes . And the other day I dressed up in black JSK , with black blouse with rocking horse shoes.( I absolutely adore lolita fashion) Every time I get lolita volumes I spend hours and hours daydreaming myself wearing the clothes in the magazine. Underneath I of course used a corset breast forms bra and lacey panties. Well even though I did this far away from home like 2 states over I absolutely felt like this is who I was supposed to be. And this was reoccurring episode from what I sort of did secretly as a child since early age. I did get compliments and stares from people but I for the most part felt like I finally had some confidence in myself and liked for at least that weekend myself.

Since that day I’ve been secretly cherishing every moment I get to let out the girl inside of me. (I’ve been using panties instead of the other underwear). Now I’m still not out to anyone in my family or parents. Well to a point my parents know there’s something going on but to a point they sort of tried to forced me to come out which I refused to admit since I didn’t really grew up with them it’s not easy for me to talk to them or let alone admit something like this to them. Since I clammed up when they tried to force the conversation on me they automatically assumed that there’s something wrong in my head with me and that I’m gay because of some of the female like interests I have. Months after my mom told me that she just wants me to be happy but then she makes comments that make me think otherwise and as for my dad well ill just say that he’ll talk to me only when he needs to. They also clued me in some snarky comments they’ll make from time to time that I won’t be coming out dressed as a girl out of their house if I’m to live here. So this for the time being has me confused one day I’ll be told that they want me to be happy and the next ill hear mean comments. But I know this since I basically take care of myself pay my own bills, car insurance, tuition for school I wont loose much because I was practically raised by different aunts growing up and they have been coming in and out of my life. Only thing ill really loose would be their health insurance which I hardly ever put to use, although since I’m planning to try to get HRT next year I might as well use this year to use the dental, eye doctor, and doctor this year as much as I can .This won’t be a problem since I’ll just go into the insurance my job offers.

I’ve got so much to learn and its nice to finally find a place where there’s other people like me. Hope I didn’t bore you with my story..

- Yuki

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome dearheart,

Welcome to Laura's hon. To start, please see a gender therapist...OK?

Let's not be overly concerned about starting HRT ASAP. Please follow your therapist's advice.

Love

Brenda

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Guest Miyuki

Welcome dearheart,

Welcome to Laura's hon. To start, please see a gender therapist...OK?

Let's not be overly concerned about starting HRT ASAP. Please follow your therapist's advice.

Love

Brenda

Oh of course i do plan to see a therapist, sometime this year if i find one around my area although that will greatly depend after i pay my tuition for summer/fall and maybe save/ look into electrolysis to rid of the remaining trouble areas that laser missed.

-yuki

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Yuki,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Hello Yuki,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. :)

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