Where To Now?

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Hello people - I will confess right at the beginning I am new to the forum and in a sense, new to this world, although I have lived in it privately forever. That changed last Monday as I had my first session with a licensed therapist - one with years of TG experience - and she confirmed what I have suspected for a long - long time- that I am a transsexual. I am thrilled beyond words that I finally have a resolution to the big questions of what am I? and why am I? I should be terrified - and I am in a way because the next part of my life is going to be radically different. Where to now? Well. my therpist will be holding my hand all the way, but she said her job was to show the pathways, but I had to make the decisions. But please tell me why I am so happy!

[Guest Evan_J]

Thats easy. You're happy because "you" has been released. No longer in prison. Even the path of physical amendment, which takes time, begins somewhere, and you are at that beginning. "Hope" is that feeling.

[Sally]

You are so happy because for the first time you have relly faced the world as you! I spent months on the Internet researching and contacted surgeons and then some of their patients. I made a few cyber friends and chatted with them and felt OK. But the day I met my therapist for the first time (in full male mode) she greeted me as Sally and I started crying - I now understand about 'happy tears'. For an hour I was Sally, free at last! That feeling comes back whenever I think about it. I went to her office dressed as Sally and walked through the lobby - IT WAS WONDERFUL!

Embrace that feeling and hold onto it when you hit some of the potholes and steep inclines along the way - no path is completely smooth and even.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Donna Jean]

Hey, Liz, I know how you feel! Since I came out I've been walking with a mile wide grin on my face that I can't get rid of! (People tkink I'm up to something ...or addled) . It's like a cool breeze..open road...the lightness of being! Mostly undescribable! I've been giving to charity so much lately that I'm going broke, but, I can't stop...I want to share the joy! Everyone MUST feel this way somehow....sorta makes me feel guilty

Christmas is coming...OMG! I'm screwed...poorhouse for me!

Feeling light and airy......

Donna Jean

[Guest Karen-1954]

Conratulations on your first therapist visit. I remember the feeling of relief that I felt after being told that I was transgendered. I finally started to understand why I felt this way.

[Guest Amanda L Richards]

Good morning Elizabeth,

In my experience from keeping the weight of that on your shoulders as a secret or through denial, I felt as if I just dropped a hundred pound pack off my back, even maybe psychologically felt like I was able to stand taller, the load definitely felt much lighter, at least in my heart.

This reduction in emotional weight was enough for me to see that I was carrying around extra weight for nothing, especially in view of the fact I should have sought this counsellor out long time ago.

For me it was the result of purging, would be the only term I can think of right now. It was like a pressure release, even a breath of fresh air after being in a closed up sealed room with stagnant air.

Whoa, does that sound like thinking out loud or what!?

Amanda L

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Hey - my thoughts exactly!

Since this original post - I think it was one of my first - I have gone soooo far. Thanks for your input.

Liz

[Guest Courtney Hamilton]

I had my first appointment last week too and I was told the same thing that I was transsexual, i guess i always thought of myself more as a crossdresser and to be told no dear your not a crossdresser you are most definatly a transsexual, kinda took some time to admit to myself, and now that i think about it she is right i just have built up so many defenses that i wouldn't admit it to myself. As far as the where to now, I'm going to see, take it slow so i don't make bad or hastey choices and see where I end which can be very scary for me not to know, but i think there will be other things I'll be shown and have to knock down some walls and defences so I can be who I am.

[Guest mia 1]

Well finally stumbled across your original post. Amazing similarities, same direction of self recognition. Girl we are joined at the hip, unfortunatly I am 5"7' and your over 6"so it is hard walking down the mall together, but we manage................Mia.

[Guest Magan]

What a wonderful feeling Elizabeth

I am new to the forums and I have just read this post now, but I know exactly how you felt back in Nov. I went into my first session already knowing in my heart and mind I was a woman, but to have someone acknowledge it and agree with me was very profound. Up to that moment everything in my mind was about the question of who am I? Even though I felt I knew who I was I was still obsessed with it. After my therapist agreed that I was a transgendered person I felt relieved and very happy. My head was clear and I was no longer obsessed. Of course after I had some time to think, I asked the same question you did - Where to now? Great, someone smarter than I am with fancy letters and maybe a number or two after his name agrees I am a woman… yay!!! Ok now what? *giggles* Well as you said, " I should be terrified" but I find I am very happy and excited about what's next.

And oddly enough reading about your experience and the replies others have added ,has helped to bring those feelings of light headed joy right back like it happened yesterday.

Thank you Elizabeth

Magan

[Guest Elizabeth K]

What a wonderful feeling Elizabeth

I am new to the forums and I have just read this post now, but I know exactly how you felt back in Nov. I went into my first session already knowing in my heart and mind I was a woman, but to have someone acknowledge it and agree with me was very profound. Up to that moment everything in my mind was about the question of who am I? Even though I felt I knew who I was I was still obsessed with it. After my therapist agreed that I was a transgendered person I felt relieved and very happy. My head was clear and I was no longer obsessed. Of course after I had some time to think, I asked the same question you did - Where to now? Great, someone smarter than I am with fancy letters and maybe a number or two after his name agrees I am a woman… yay!!! Ok now what? *giggles* Well as you said, " I should be terrified" but I find I am very happy and excited about what's next.

And oddly enough reading about your experience and the replies others have added ,has helped to bring those feelings of light headed joy right back like it happened yesterday.

Thank you Elizabeth

Magan

MAGAN

That was my FIRST POST - oh the memories. And I still feel exactly the same.

Oh I am so glad you too are at the same place - its a wonder - ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Gender Gifted - that's us.

[Guest Naomi Loen]

I have to reply to your first post!

I'm so happy you're happy

my first therapist (not a specialist) appointment is later this morning, I'm nervous but looking forward to purging (for lack of a better word)

being Gender Gifted should always feel so good

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Naomi - made my day sweetheart - BEST WISHES - and make certain your theapist admits if she/he can't help you. Don't spend money 'teaching them' about gender dysphoria.