What just happened?

[Guest Kit]

I think I just came out to a room of people.

In critique.

At school.

So, I've been doing this puppet project for my "Spatial Dynamics" class. It's a puppet about being trans. I figured I could kind of remove myself from the project by specifically making it about MTF, not FTM...

And today was critique. I talked about what I made my puppet out of, how I would choose to incorporate myself into the project, and my idea for performance. No one had anything to say. We'd just heard about someone's plastic surgery concepts for their project. Everyone was sharing their concepts. I really was scared because some girls in my class are very cruel and tend to laugh at other people's concepts, which is really cruel, and offensive. Most people hide what they are really doing because of the bad class atmosphere. Anyways, my crit had just sort of stopped after I talked about the boring technical stuff. After a moment's hesitation, I started talking about my puppet. I talked about everything that had gone into it, and suddenly everything was just pouring out. I talked about all the horrible statistics of suicides and hate crime. I told everyone how hard it was.

I was shaking, I was next to crying... I told everyone everything that this project was about. No one laughed. No one challenged what I was saying. Everyone listened. It was the last crit of the day, and so I immediately packed up to head home.

My teacher first pulled me aside. She tells me "That's the bravest thing anyone has ever done a project about in my class, this is the bravest speech I've ever heard anyone make about their work."

(Then she messed up because I really confused her and said "You go, girl" but let's ignore that part...)

One of the annoying girls pulled me aside and suddenly started apologizing for making fun of my work and everyone else's work in the past. She told me how brave I was.

As I walked home, I started getting text messages from all my classmates, each one telling me how proud they were and how I was so much braver than everyone else.

Whoa.

Nice day. I'm still shaking, though.

--k

[Guest Elizabeth K]

A beautiful thing just happened - you ARE so brave!

Lizzy

[Guest angels wings]

Wow that is awsome how amazingly awsome . U Kit have changed so many hearts wow u should be so proud of yourself what an amazing triumph wooooo hooooo so happy for u

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

Rock on, man! That's was admitted righteous! We're so proud of you! It's all good. Hopefully, you're life will really rock from this very day.

Peace Lacey

[Carolyn Marie]

Kit, you may not have consciously set out to say all of that, but perhaps some part of your mind needed it to happen, and just that way. Whatever the reason, it worked out better than you imagined it could. That, my friend, seems to be the way it works a lot of the time.

You should be proud of yourself. You gave your classmates something very real and personal to think about. You've become another ambassador for the Community, and I'm very happy for you, Mr. Ambassador.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Kit]

Awww thanks all. I'm really confused, happy, excited that art can do all this, scared out of my mind...

Thanks Carolyn for calling me an ambassador! That gives me motivation to keep on going now that I know people are going to listen.

Makes you feel good to know that maybe there's a chance people will be the better for what you say and make!

k

[Guest angels wings]

Art can express so much so deep but it wasn't just ur art work it was the inner u talking u have such a way of expressing that has touched so many keep it up hold ur head up high and belive in you

[Guest Amanda Whyte]

Awsome Kit!!! You de'man.

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

You did an amazing thing Kit. Carolyn's right calling you an ambassador. I'm proud of you mate.

Gabe

[Guest Kit]

So I thought I had come out really clearly, and now this week the truth has come out...

My class is confused and think FtM is MtF and that I'm on my way to becoming female and that I need a lot of help and aughhhhhh

I just don't have the heart to tell them how wrong they are especially because they're being so subtle I can't tell if this is true. It's just rumor.

In other words I guess I pass really poorly when it comes to being female??? xD

Thanks all for being proud! I did raise awareness and interest so go me.

kit