Breasts - Chest ... Mind/Body & Emotional Connection

[Guest Juniper Blue]

Hi All,

This post could probably be posted under general trans as well but I thought that I would post it here to get more of an androgynous perspective. I have noticed since the double mastectomy (last December) that there are times when I feel very "maternal" ( which is part of how I sometimes feel ... and have always felt) but now, I notice that occasionally when I feel "maternal" it seems odd that I no longer have breasts ... I guess I never realized that I somehow associated my breasts with this "maternal" side.

Interestingly, I associate my chest/pectoralis muscles with a strong, protective and "masculine" quailty. Perhaps this is because my pecs were always unusually strong ... (I used to free weight bench a max of 185) when I only weighed 150 ... which is unsusual for most women not using steroids.) I associated my chest with pride, confidence and power.

It was strange to have a body that had both the "feminine" characteristic of breasts ( with which I suffered extreme dysphoria, yet, sometimes felt a certain degree of connection with when I felt nurturing) yet .. there was this stark contrast of also having the (literally) underlying masculine quality of a powerful chest.

This is hard to articulate but I hope I am making sense.

Well ... the point that i am trying to make is I realize now, without the breasts, that I remain very "maternal" at times... just as "maternal" as ever, in fact. I realize that this "motherly" side of me, felt somehow related to my breasts but was clearly my innate nature ... a fundamental part of my personatily ... quite disctinct and separate from my physical body.

I am not especially surprised by this finding ... yet ... I suppose that it reaffirms that my androgyny goes beyond my external appearance and is truly woven into the fabric of my mind.

"Bossomy" Hugs,

Juniper

[Guest Robin Winter]

I just love your posts And, I think you were very articulate, it was very well said.

"Bossomy" Hugs, *Grins*

[Guest Micha]

I am not especially surprised by this finding ... yet ... I suppose that it reaffirms that my androgyny goes beyond my external appearance and is truly woven into the fabric of my mind.

"Bossomy" Hugs,

Juniper

Absolutely.

I've long felt that if my anatomy had me assigned female, I'd still feel "off." Maybe a little more comfortable in my skin, but still not whole. You's absolutely right, it's more than appearance, it's more the flesh and bone - be it consciousness, spirit or soul, it's who we are, not what we're made of.

Bosomy hugs. . .

[Guest Juniper Blue]

Awwww ... Happy "Mother's Day" Micha and Shilo!

I like to celebrate this day as a day to celebrate those who have been nurturing and kind ... those who have made tea, baked cookies, provided band-aides for scraped knees, listened to long sobby stories, prepared delicious dinners, and given sweet hugs just when they were needed most.

More Bossomy Hugs to ALL!

JB

[Guest Robin Winter]

Thanks JB, you're a real treasure

givin' me the sniffles.....

*Hugs*

[Guest Alder]

huh, i never really thought of such things before. Reading it from an others mind though, does make it click in my own that I feel very similar though possibly slight variations due to slight differences in personality. I've always generally been a nurturing person, the one to take care of the friends who partied to hard, referred to as the "mother hen" while fussing over guests and sick persons so I know it is very in my nature to take care of people, with or without my breasts(as I usually feel more masculine while doing typically socially female things such as cooking, but not cleaning.. cleaning makes me feel more feminine) Anyway.. I think I've gone off on a ramble and I"ve completely lost my train of thought.

-adds in his own bosomy hugs-

[Guest Juniper Blue]

Happy "Mother's Day" to you Alder!

Here are some intersting defintions tha ti found for bosom:

The breast regarded as the source of feelings or the seat of inmost thoughts.

the enclosign space formed by the breast and arms in embracing

The inside midst as: "in the bosom of one's family"

to embrace

as an adjective" cherished; intimate a bosom companion

(*** I have seen also at times, mostly in older writing and poetry where a "male" chest is referred to as a bosom. So ... the bosom is, most definitely, an androgynous gift!)

More bosomy love to all!

Juniper

[Guest Alder]

oh! thank you JB