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Like the title says, where do I start and how did I get here. I am a 48 year old CD. I am not sure why I recently started wearing women’s clothes, maybe it is because I am bi (I am not sure if I am 100% gay) and have a somewhat feminine side to me. I think I have always had it, even when I was a very young kid I thought that I wanted to be a girl and do girl things. In my family though, the typical gender roles were expected. I was born a boy and I had to act and dress like a boy. But something inside me made me always feel different. And I think my mother also know something was different about me.

When I became older and entered junior high school things sort of calmed down a bit. The feelings of wanting to be a girl where still there but I was able to handle it to a certain degree. I had one or two girlfriends and became active in the band. That all lasted until I graduated high school.

I met a girl when I was attending junior college. I ended up falling in love with her. My feelings for her are still deep. The marriage only lasted about 5 years. I think she was too immature and I was maybe a little naive when it came to women. I wished things would have worked out with her but what can you do.

A few years after that I met another girl that helped me open my eyes as to who I am. She had many gay friends and some feelings came out that I made an effort to suppress. We only lasted for about 2 years then she moved to Atlanta, met a woman and fell in love (strange how things work out), while I stayed on the gulf coast. I also miss her very much because she was a good friend.

I have not dated a girl since (that was close to 8 years or so ago). I have thought about asking some of the girls I do know out but I never do. I have met a couple of guys over the years and have had relationships with them. I am not seeing anyone now on a serious case. I do talk to one guy who has helped me discover the world of CD.

About 3 months ago I was at Wal-Mart and went through the women’s department to get to something else. I noticed the pretty panties and nightgowns that they had displayed. The next thing I know I had picked out a package of panties and a nice pink nightgown. When I got home I could not believe how good they felt when I tried them on.

A few weeks ago I came home from working in New Orleans and I bought two bras. Again I could not believe the feeling. I ordered me a breast form that fit the size. When they came in the mail I was so happy. I tried them on with the bras and it was like I was in heaven. I felt so comfortable in them.

Today I am in New Orleans for work again. I went out shopping and I bought a pair of open toed shoes that have a slight heel to them from Kmart, I also bought a blouse from Marshalls. I am wearing both of them right now with my white bra and my breast forms. I can tell you it makes me feel very comfortable. The open toe shoes show my pink painted toenails well.

I am slowly adding to my wardrobe. I don't know when I plan on going out dressed as my female persona (I call her Lee Ann from a nice girl I know in High School that passed away several years ago), but I plan on doing it before the fall season. I also am going to be happy with this new life of mine and I plan on making Lee Ann a part of my life, big or small. The funny thing now is if my family found out I was like this they would probably be OK with it as attitudes in my family have changed over the years.

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Guest Donna Jean

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Hello, LeeAnn...

Welcome to the Playground

I'm Donna Jean and guess what? I'm in New Orleans!

Have a seat and we'll have some cookies and hot coco....ok?

Now, I'd like to ask you to be sure to have a look at the forum rules...there's a link at the bottom right of most pages...It says “Terms & Conditions..

And, we moderate this site to keep it safe for everyone..

It's great to have you here.....we can talk later...ok?

Dee Jay

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Welcome to the Playground, LeeAnn. It's a pleasure to meet you.

We have wonderful CDer members here who will be happy to provide advice and support. There is a moderated chat session for CDers, and Fashion and Beauty Forums as well. So please make yourself at home and read the forum threads, and ask any questions you like.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Welcome Lee Anne, you are surrounded by friends here. Read post and get to us and yourself.

Hugs and have a piece of cake.

Charlie

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi LeeAnn,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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